White Wolf still owns WoD and VtM, not me. I own the rest, though.
Jacoby Randy Romain is not a real person, as far as I know. I made the name up, and hopefully no one will be offended.

Text in italic is still thoughts or memories/dreams. Thoughts are written in present tense, and dreams/memories are written in past tense, thus you'll be able to seperate them from each other, hopefully.

Chapter 2, Sweet serenity

When draining someones blood you don't only get the blood, and the powers that comes with it. You also gain memories of the person which you drained, their knowledge, their complexity.

This guy, Randy, knew quite a lot about... unimportant things. But he also knew some important things. Things like travelling, and a whole lot of new words, for example. Now I know what a bus is. And now I know that I've must've seemed kinda strange to Randy. But it doesn't matter, cause he's dead now anyway.

I've gotten my hair cut, like Randy had his. It seemed like a good idea, cause it seemed "modern" and stuff. And I really wanna seem modern, because I don't want annyone to suspect who, or rather what, I am. Not until I figure that out for myself.

I knew that she had gone up north, I just didn't know how far north, but I ended up taking a plane to Germany, and from there I followed her trail down to France. In France, however, I couldn't sense her anymore, and I lost her trail. It was like she had disappeared into thin air. I seemed to be running out of luck, and out of money as well. I didn't have time to get a job, and I was never a very good thief. Killing is what I did best, and killing was how I had gotten enough money to afford the plane ticket to Germany. However, getting victims seemed to become more and more difficult, at least getting victims with money on them.

I didn't stay in France for too long – didn't like the people there. I decided to keep going north. Perhaps she had been further up north? Perhaps I had missed something important when heading to Germany straight away?

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Gosh I'm tired... I'm tired of the rainy weather, I'm tired of this country, it's inhabitants... I'm tired of not finding anything that can lead me to her... How long have I been here? Like 2 months? I need to move on. I won't find her here. I quickly make my way out from the cheap hotel I had stayed at lately, down the street and rush in under the sheltering roof at the busstation.

I push back my bangs a bit and ruffle my hair in an attempt to dry it, hoping that the rain hasn't smudged my makeup too much, as I glance at the timetable. Where to..? Where to..? The airport maybe? From there I could take a plane to somewhere... I hope it won't be too expensive though.. I don't have too much money left. Fucking expensive hotel! Anyway... Which bus should I take to get to the airport? Lets see... Bus number 54 should take me there...

I lean my back against the wall and close my eyes as the bus isn't due til another 15 minutes.

After a while I can feel someone's eyes on me. Not just one pair of eyes either, but two. I open my eyes slowly and glance to my left where I can see two girls standing. They both look away quickly as they realized I've noticed them and they giggle quietly and whisper to each other.

I just roll my eyes and look away, yawning slightly. I've started to get used to these kind of things. I've realized that I look somewhat exotic compared to the people in this country. And, if you ask me, I look much better than most of them as well. Most of the people here are blonde with blue eyes, though not the same blue colour as mine.

In the beginning I had attracted a lot of unwanted attention, but I've started to learn how to avoid attention as much as possible. Rule number one is "Do not show your fangs!".

The girls on my left seem to be arguing about something, and after only a short while one of them approaches me and speaks to me.

-"Har vi träffats förut nånstans?"

-"I'm sorry, I don't understand..." I say, even though I understand what she had said perfectly well. Learning a new language isn't at all very difficult for me, so two months had been more than enough for me to learn swedish.

-"Oh, I'm sorry... I didn't realize you weren't from around here." She says and smiles at me. I simply look at her, not bothering to reply. "Then I suppose my question was kinda stupid... I mean of course we haven't met before if you're not from around here..." She continues to ramble. "Oh, that's right, I asked you if I had met you before, though since you don't speak swedish you didn't understand... Silly question, hehe... Anyway... The thing is, I just kinda thought I recognized you a bit... Are you famous or something? Cause I really feel as if I've met you before and..."

-"Please..." I cut her off. "Just... be quiet. I have no intrest in you. There's nothing you can do for me, so stop waisting my time." She seems kinda taken aback at this.

-"Okay... No need to get all worked up." She says and gives me a weird look. "Idiot." She says over her shoulder as she walks away.

-"I heard that." I reply calmly and give her a sarcastic smile as I step out into the rain again, seeing my bus has just gotten here. She just looks at me puzzled, wondering what I had meant, since she was convinced I hadn't understood what she said.

Once at the airport I manage to sweet talk one of the women working there into giving me a discount, and soon I'm sitting on a plane on my way over to Finland.

So far I haven't encountered any problems with travelling. My fake passport I had gotten myself before flying to Germany has proven worth all the money it had cost. Since I can't remember my own name, and I don't know anything about modern names I had just decided to let the guy I bought it from come up with a suitable name. Though I did say that I wanted the name "Randy", as to honour the memory of the most kind young man in Egypt, so from now on I was "Jacoby Randy Romain". Though I prefer to just call myself Randy, seeing the real Randy had been so nice to me.

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When I finally land in Helsinki, Finland it's already past midnight and I'm all out of money. I want to go to sleep, but I can't afford to stay at a hotel.

Once I've gotten out from the airport and into town I just walk down the streets, looking for something. I'm not sure what I'm looking for though, but after a while I find it. It's called a "club", and it's a place where people met up and dance.

There's a huge guy at the door who looks at me closely as I approach him, but after examining me he steps aside and allows me to enter. Once inside I see tons of people dancing to loud, upbeat music. They're dancing in the middle of the large room, at the left side there's couches and tables, and at the right side there's some kind of disk behind which a man stands and seems to be serving people some kind of a drink... No, it seems he's serving them all kinds of drinks, pouring them up from different bottles.

Realizing I'm gonna look ridiculous if I continue to just stand at the entrance, I make my way over to the right side and sit down on one of the chairs in front of the disk. A woman with red curly hair and green eyes is sitting next to me, and the guy behind the disk is just serving her a glass with some red liquid in it as I sit down. He looks at me and asks me something, but I don't understand the language.

-"Uhm... I don't understand..." I say in english, as I know by now that english is the language most people know how to speak.

-"Sorry, I asked you what you would like. So what would you like to drink?" He clarifies.

-"Uhm... Same as her." I say and look over at the woman next to me. She gives me an intrested look and smiles at me. I glance back at her before turning my attention back to the guy behind the disk and watch as he pours the red liquid into a small glass for me. It kinda looks like blood, though it's too thin, and it doesn't smell anything like blood... I take a small sip of it, taking my time to allow the taste of it to spread across my tongue before swallowing it. Nothing at all like blood, doesn't taste anything in particular anyway...

-"You're also a fan of Bloody Mary?" The woman next to me asks.

-"What?"

-"Bloody Mary, the drink. That you're drinking, that is." She says and looks at me a bit questioning.

-"Oh...Oooh... Bloody Mary! I thought you said... something else.. Err... Anyway, yeah, I like Bloody Mary." I say, not sounding too convincing. She just laughs a bit at this, and looks at me for a few seconds before she speaks again.

-"Sinulla on kauniit silmät... That would be 'you have beautiful eyes' in finish." She smiles at me.

-"Thank you. So do you." I reply and smile back at her. Now this could be a soloution to my problem about not having anywhere to stay tonight... People are still way too trusting for their own good.

As I keep talking to her for a while I soon realize that she's flirting with me, but that's just a good thing. I'm hoping that I'll be able to get her outside so that I can kill her and take what little money she has on her. Maybe that will be enough to get myself a hotelroom.

-"This loud music is starting to give me a headache. You wanna come with me back to my appartment?" She asks after a while as she gives me a seductive smile.

-"Your appartment? Why sure..." I say, not all sure what an appartment is, but from what I've understood it's kinda like a hotelroom, but you stay there for longer times.

We get out of the club and the woman, who I had found out is called Tiina, stops a cab for us which we get into. She tells the driver her adress before turning her attention back to me. She starts to lean in closer to me, and I realize she's going to kiss me. Doesn't matter much. She doesn't look that bad. Although, as she presses her lips onto mine I kind of feel bad for being unfaithful to her.

It doesn't take long before we reach our destination. We get out of the cab and Tiina pays the driver before leading me into the large building in front of us. We get into an elevator and it doesn't take long before it stops at the right floor. Once out of it Tiina unlocks the door to her appartment and leads me into it.

The apprtment isn't too big, but not too small either. It's decorated with dark furniture, and most of the walls are painted in dark colours as well. There's lots of pantings on the walls, one in particular catches my intrest. The motive is of a dark, lonely park, only lit up by the fullmoon. A small girl is sitting on a bench, her back towards me, gazing up at the moon.

-"You like it?" Tiina asks me. I nod. "I made it a few years ago. I like it as well." She made it herself? It's pretty. Tiina leads me to her bedroom and pushes me onto her bed, standing at the foot of it, smirking. "You know what I do for a living? I'm an exotic dancer."

-"Oh really?" I simply say, not too certain if an exotic dancer is what I think it is.

-"Yes, really. Want me to dance for you? I could give you a lapdance..."

-"Sure..." I say and flash her a sexy smile. 'Lapdance'? Is that really what it sounds like..? Lap, dance... She chuckles a bit as she pulls of the black button up shirt she's wearing.

-"You know... What intrigues me the most about you is your eyes... And your teeth." She leans over the bed moving closer to me again. "Your canine-teeth are like vampire fangs... It's sexy." Vampire fangs!? She doesn't know, does she? I'm not even sure if there are vampires anymore... I haven't encountered any at least, but maybe there are vampires, since she knows what a vampire is... "Now, don't get me wrong..." She starts after noticing my weird face expression. "I don't really believe that vampires exist... But if they did exist, I'm sure they would look just like you; Pale, beautiful... Sexy." She smirks again, and I mentally breathe out. 'I don't believe vampires exist'? So she's heard of vampires, but she doesn't believe in them... Good, she doesn't know I am one then. But does that mean that there are other vampires left?

-"Now... About that dance..." I say to change the subject as I sit up, tilting my head a bit and giving her a look telling her to continue.

-"Right... The dance." She keeps smirking as she pulls her skirt off, standing before me only in her undergarments. She has a nice body... She starts to move seductively before me, making her way closer to me until she's sitting in my lap. Heh, I guess I was right about that lapdance thing at least... After a while I roll to the side, flipping her over so that I'm ontop of her.

-"Oh, you like to be in charge, eh? Fine by me. I like guys who know what they want..." She chuckles lightly as she pulls off my shirt. "Wow... You have a nice body..." She states after eyeing me closely. I smirk at her before kissing her neck. Now really... This I haven't been doing in quite a while...

-"So... You think vampires are sexy..?" I ask her as I pull away a bit. She nods her head smiling.

-"You know all the vampires in movies.. They have this certain... sensuallity about them... When I was younger I had this dream about a vampire. It's kinda silly really..."

-"No no, tell me." I urge her to continue.

-"Okay, but don't laugh at me! Well.. I dreamt that I met a vampire... And we had sex you know... And ever since then, I've had this... 'fantasy' or something about actually 'doing it' with a vampire... See I told you it was silly!" She exclaims as she sees me chuckle a bit at her story. "I told you not to laugh!"

-"Would you be scared if I told you that I am a vampire?" I ask her with a playful smile tugging at my lips. She laughs at this.

-"Haha, why no, not at all. That is my fantasy, isn't it?" She kisses me on my lips, nibbling at my bottom lip a bit. "So are you a vampire then?" She asks, though I can hear that she isn't being serious, she definitely doesn't believe in vampires.

-"Why yes, I am a vampire. Why else would I have fangs?" I ask her jokingly.

-"So, will the vampire kill me then? Or will he just have some 'fun' with me?"

-"Oh, we'll see..." I say and smile before first giving her a kiss on the lips and then planting a trail of soft kisses down to her collarbone and onto her neck, where I bite her lightly as she starts to remove the rest of the clothes we're wearing.

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The next morning I wake up to the bright light shining in through a large window. I open my eyes sleepily.

-"Good morning." I look at Tiina who's lying next to me. "Did you know that you look like an angel when you're asleep?" She asks me smiling. I smile back, my thoughts are elsewhere though. I had a dream just before waking up, and when she called me an angel, it all started to slowly come back to me.

I was alseep, dreaming of her. She was in a small glade, covered with flowers. There were petals everywhere, and she was running around in them, making them fly all over the place.

-"I love to watch them glide through the air!" She said. "They look so free." I stepped closer to her and with a small handmovement I made them all take flight at once.

She stopped and looked at me. Most of the petals around us were pink, but there were some blue ones as well. The blue ones had the same colour as her blue eye. She looked so beautiful, standing all still in the middle of the glade, with petals flying all around her.

-"I love you." She said to me before kissing me on my lips softly. When the kiss ended and I opened my eyes the glade and all the petals were gone. The only thing remaining from my dream was her, hovering over me, smiling slightly, and that was all I needed.

-"Hey."

-"Hey there..." She said and gave me a wide smile, looking as if she knew something which I didn't.

-"What?" I asked as a comment to the huge grin she had plastered all over her face.

-"Nothing..." She said. "I just like to watch you sleep. You look like a fallen angel. So beautiful and peaceful. The only word that comes to my mind when watching you is 'serenity'..."

-"Hey? You still there?" Tiina waves a hand in front of my face.

-"Sorry... I just.. remembered something." Yes, that wasn't just a dream... It was something that had actually happened. It was a memory, wasn't it?

-"Yeah, I could tell." She smiles. I look at her, with the image of her from my flashback still lingering in my mind.

-"I'm sorry... I have to go." I say as I get up from the bed, get dressed and make my way out of the apartment quickly without answering Tiina's questions about "why" and "where to".

I'm sorry... I let you down. I shouldn't have been with an other woman, it's not right... It's not right to you! I know that I love you... I love you with all my heart. Every single fibre of my body loves you and longs to see you again... But it just feels strange sometimes, cause I can't even remember your name. How am I ever going to find you if I can't even remember who you are? My mind is in chaos. My memories are all chaotic. It's all there, but I just can't place any of them together.. I can't make out the meaning in them... So you think I'm 'serenity'? I'm not. I'm 'Chaos' rather. You, however could be 'Serenity'... I know my mind would be put at rest if I found you. I know the chaos and everything would go away, and I would remember if I just found you... I don't know why I know.. I Just do. Serenity...