A/N: wow looks like when i finally posted chapter number 3 i got rave reviews thnk u so so much, im not so sure how many chapters ill do but ill try to spread it out as far as i can ok? Sorry for not really getting chances to update ive had writers block for a while... --U eh heheh anyways! On wit the story!!!!!

disclaimer: i dont own inuyasha blah blah blah

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Two days had passed since Sesshoumaru had come back for Rin. But to her it seemed like an eternity. Not even once had he spoken to her since she had come back with him. It seemed that he wanted to avoid her in all ways. Even when she trained he would only talk when giving advice or crucial warnings.

She didn't even know why she had come back anymore, and she was beginning to wonder if she was meant to stay at all.

One day something strange occurred Rin was just walking past Sesshoumaru's study when she heard whimpering. Like that of a dog's when it was hurt. She stopped in her tracks and became aware that Sesshoumaru was crying and little splotches of tears were on his ancient books. Rin suddenly felt bad and went in to comfort him.

When he sensed her come in he only looked up and then looked back down in shame. A human had seen him crying? What kind of exposure is that? If he wasn't so prideful he wouldn't even look up at her. Still he had wanted to hug her and spill out to her the moment she stepped foot in the room.

"Lord Sesshoumaru, is something the matter?" Rin asked getting closer.

"Rin will you please come over here next to me."

Rin slowly walked over to him eyes wide. He had never payed this much attention to her ever. When she got close to him she stared at him. His eyes looked like two slivers of the moon. Brilliant but also unpredictable. Sesshoumaru just stood there with a blank face. Rin began to talk but Sesshoumaru stopped her by tightly embracing her.

Rin's arms hung loosely at her sides. She wasn't sure what to do. She felt her cheeks flame up as a bright red blush appeared on her face. The all of a sudden Rin felt wetness on her shoulder. Was Sesshoumaru...crying?

"Lord Sesshoumaru do not cry. Please tell me what is wrong." she said soothingly.

Sesshoumaru lifted his head and stared at her lovingly. He took a clawed hand and caressed the side of her cheek gently. Rin felt like she wanted to cry just being this close to her lord. But deep down she knew she wanted more than just a hug and a caress on the cheek. Oh she wanted so much more. But fate would not allow that.

He leaned down and kissed her lightly on the forehead. For such a powerful demon he was so gentle with his touch.

"Rin, I think that... you must leave this castle for a bit." he said walking towards the balcony.

Rin nodded as she felt tears slipping freely from her brown orbs.

"If that is what you wish for me to do m'lord I'll do it."

Rin started walking away but was stopped when Sesshoumaru started talking.

"I am sorry." he simply said closing his eyes.

When he heard the heavy door close he let his head fall to the hard desk. How could he be so careless. He had to send Rin away for he feared of what the other Taiyoukai would think of her as his mate. They'd surely say he followed in his father's footsteps. But at the moment he strangely did not care.

Rin ran to her room burrowing her head in her pillow crying silently. Her body was shaking violently as she cried herself to sleep. She knew that eventually her tears would dry, but she wasn't so sure she could patch up the hole in her heart anymore.

She had wanted attention from him for so long and he was sending her away. But for whatever reason he was doing what he was doing she knew it had to be important. So when he asked she did not question it. Instead she agreed to doing what he had told her to do and ran away.

Rin ran away from her breaking soul, away from love, and away from destiny. She didn't want to die, she wanted to be with Sesshoumaru forever. She wanted to be happy. Suddenly a thought popped into her head.

Is happiness something we do not know?

She thought she was happy with Sesshoumaru but what did she really know about happiness? What did anybody know about happiness? All Rin knew was that her heart was breaking and her soul was floating out of her slowly. Rin was sure that, she'd die from hurt.

"Sesshoumaru,...I hate you. I hate you do much." Rin whispered crying.

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im sorry it was so short but as i told u i THOUGHT i was done with writers block but as it turns out i am not...anyways hopefully the next chapter wont be as short

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