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She made her way to the door, but he was already stood there. "Did I say something to upset you?" he asked
"No!" she exclaimed "God no, it isn't you" she blushed again as she realised that she was getting turned on just because she was in his house with him alone. He raised his eyebrows at her for an explanation but she felt sure that if she did tell him he would have her transferred off the team as quick as he could.
She knew she was not bad looking, but she also knew she had nothing to offer this man that was worth him risking his career over. She would not give up her job to stay at home all day raising kids, she had worked too hard for that, but she knew that was the type of woman he wanted, the type he needed, someone who would be there to hold him through the nights, not someone who was developing her own set of nightmares from the things she had seen and done.
She reached past him for the door lock, he covered her hand with his and she closed her eyes at the feelings that shot through her.
"Sam" he said… he hadn't called her that for ages, not since the morning of the day her father had visited her at home… when he had accused her of having an affair with him.
She had longed to hear him call her by name again, but now he had she wasn't sure it was a good idea. She shook her head again and managed to turn the Yale, he allowed her to open the door, she exited the house quickly and walked away without looking back. When she got to the end of the street she called a taxi firm and ordered a pick up.
She heard his engine starting up from where she stood waiting, she hoped he was headed into the base and would not even notice her, but he pulled up at the curb and reached over and opened the door.
"Get in" he told her, she just stood looking at him "Sam get in" he told her again, she climbed into the truck. She rang the taxi firm and cancelled the car, he glanced across at her. "Why didn't you tell me Daniel had given you a lift?" he asked, she couldn't say.
She looked out of the window as he drove to her home, the trip took less than 15 minutes and she opened the door before he had come to a complete stop. She mumbled 'Thanks' and ran up to her front door, opened it and shut it behind her quickly. She dare not look at his face, all she could think about was his body, and her body, and what they could do for each other!
She realised she had not had a man for over 3 years! Damn she needed to get laid!
It was a good five minutes before she heard his truck pull away, she felt awful, it wasn't his fault that she was breaking the regs, but she had a feeling he thought himself to blame!
The mission to P3C-599 turned into another typical SG1 mission, in other words there was nothing typical about it except something went wrong, Daniel and the old man swapped bodies, and then Teal'c and the Colonel did too. She was interested to note… back in the room in her mind full of boxes… that she felt no attraction to the Colonels body while Teal'c was in it. She did not fancy Teal'c body either, even though she had to smile at some of the things that came out of his mouth!
God she was so fucked up, half the time she could not think straight. After everyone was back where they belonged she and Daniel spent an evening talking. He told her some of his life story, and she told him none of hers. She knew by now about his parents, their death being the 'entertainment' for the residents of the gamekeeper, however she had not realised that he had suffered physical abuse at one foster home, and it was only by luck that he managed to be placed with a family that had heard of his parents and they brought him up as if he was their own, helping him through his doctorate and teaching him 15 languages as they went.
She felt as if her own life had been so easy compared to his and she could see why he was so determined to get Sha're back, she was the first person to love HIM for himself as he was, Sam had come to be as a sister to him, he said, which mirrored her feelings for him, but Sha're, he said, was the missing half of his soul. She had never heard anything as beautiful in her life, and had wept with him as they both hoped that one day he would get her back.
He asked her about Jack… the Colonel, she had decided that even in the box room she would have to call him by his rank not his name. She avoided the question, his wise eyes saying that that was answer enough in itself.
She saw a part of herself that she did not like after the next off world trip, as Apophis lay dying she realised that she would actually be glad to see him go. For the first time ever she wished someone dead and meant it with her whole heart. Yet another box, though not a large one, to store away. She marvelled at Daniels forbearance and how he attempted to help the host.
She had no such feelings, in fact she felt more like Teal'c did about it. He was positively beaming. The Colonel just said "Jaffa revenge" to the General as if to say he too understood it.
Over the next few weeks she joined the 'girls' from base on nights out, usually, however she and Janet would end up at Janets home, getting drunk on wine and complaining about men, after all the others had picked someone up and left the group. No matter what she thought she wanted, she found herself unable to accept any of the offers she received.
Their next mission came to them rather than them going looking for it, it was one that opened that box labelled 'Dad' again, but this time when they had chance to talk she was very pleasantly surprised. He did not tell her how to run her life at all. He made no pointed suggestions… not even a hint! He did ask after the Colonel, which she was not pleased about as he had seen him less than 20 minutes prior, but he held up his hands and Selmak chimed in with
"Jacob worries about you, however I can see no better mate for you than such a man" she blushed violently and her father coughed and told the 'old woman' to shut her mouth, to which 'she' replied that it was HIS mouth.
She assured her dad that in no way was she going to violate the fraternisation regs, and he accepted her word for it! Which was a first.
She saw the pain the young boy caused the Colonel when he collapsed, and her father promised her that he would personally look after Charlie when he was blended, she watched them go up the ramp to the event horizon and for the first time did not feel relief at the departure of her father.
She was confused when she opened her eyes and he was stood over her. They had told her he was dead, and yet here he was large as life, and twice as handsome.
She sat up, remembering as the slick materiel moved that she had nothing on, he stood over her as she tried to work out why she had not sensed the Naquadah in the people around her. She noticed he was avoiding looking at her, he told her to steal the clothes off the man he had knocked out and hurriedly he turned his back and watched the door. She grinned to herself, as she made her way off the bed, wondering why he got clothes and she didn't!
The clothes were a mile too big for her, luckily he had a belt on so she could at least stop them falling off her hips. She hated the fact that she had no underwear but anything was better than naked.
As they made their way out of her room he pulled her aside as she saw the gold walls and triggered a memory, he put his hand over her mouth and held her as the flash passed, she was sure she had cried out. As he held her she felt the unmistakable bulge pressing into her backside of his arousal. She pressed herself into him deliberately, feeling guilty as they had other things to think of. She let out a moan, hoping he would think it was something to do with the memory device, but she felt him thrust slightly into her when she did.
She berated herself as he released her, this was no time to be playing with fire! They had to get out of here, and try to find Daniel and Teal'c before doing so.
Daniel and she escaped the compound after Hathor had implanted the Colonel with a symbiote. She was desperate to think of some reason to return for him, and came up with an excuse Makepeace would accept. She did indeed intend to take out the generator, but her first objective was to find and rescue the Colonel.
The Tok'ra agent had already killed the symbiote and she revived the Colonel under instruction, but suddenly she was attacked by Hathor with a ribbon device, then she felt his hands lift her from the pain, Hathor was nowhere to be seen. He pulled her into a hug and she held him as he shook, whether from the cold as he said or from shock she was not sure, but she didn't care either, she held him tight, wishing she never had to let go.
Again she felt his body react to her, and she pressed herself as tight against him as she could, she was glad of the BDUs she now had on as she was sure she was wet enough now to show through if they had been the light cotton ones she was wearing earlier.
Unfortunately she had to move eventually, the generators had to be closed down or no one would be able to escape. They broke their grasp and he looked at her sheepishly, she smiled at him and headed for the SGC mock-up where the Tok'ra had told them the generator was hidden, they C4'd the huge machine and made their escape.
Once back at the real SGC they all had to have full physicals because of the cryogenics, she was released first, then Daniel, the Colonel was held for a further 24 hours because of being infected.
She was waiting for him when he returned home, she knew he would get out as soon as he could, staying on base was asking for Janet to do follow up visits.
He showed no surprise at seeing her there. He unlocked his door and gestured for her to precede him. She went inside, wondering what she was doing there. He went to his fridge and offered her a bottle of beer, she declined, she was not exactly sure what she wanted but alcohol definitely was not it.
He sat down next to her on the sofa, she was trembling. He took a swallow of his bottle and put it on the table.
"So" he said "what are we going to do?"