Sunny days seem to hurt the most.
I wear the pain like a heavy coat.
I feel you everywhere I go.
I see your smile, I see your face,
I hear you laughin' in the rain.
I still can't believe you're gone.
It ain't fair: you died too young,
Like the story that had just begun,
But death tore the pages all away.
God knows how I miss you,
All the hell I've been through,
Just knowin' no-one could take your place.
An' sometimes I wonde
Would you see the world? Would you chase your dreams?
Settle down with a family,
I wonder what would you name your babies?
Some days the sky's so blue,
I feel like I can talk to you,
An' I know it might sound drazy.
It ain't fair: you died too young,
Like the story that had just begun,
But death tore the pages all away.
God knows how I miss you,
All the hell I've been through,
Just knowin' no-one could take your place.
An' sometimes I wonder,
Who you'd be today?
Today, today, today.
Today, today, today.
Sunny days seem to hurt the most.
I wear the pain like a heavy coat.
The only thing that gives me hope,
Is I know I'll see you again some day.
Some day, some day, some day.
Darry POV
The Shooting victims funeral was today. Among those 12 people, there was a future writer, a soon to be NFL player, an aspiring dancer, a future doctor. But none of them would be able to finish their dreams. I had high hopes for my baby sister, that she would graduate high school and move on in the medical field. But she never even got to finish high school.
was always so hard on her, I should of taken the time to listen to her, when she said that she didn't want to go to school. And that bad feeling that she had actually turned out to be true. Out of the 28 people that were shot, my sister was the tenth to be shot, and the 3rd to die. Every day, after I get home from work, I go up to her room and I lay on her bed. Her bed had never been made; her clothes had never been put away. The night she died we left the room the way it was, it was like she is still here with us.
Steves POV
I hate seeing the Curtises like this, they have gone through so much pain ever since their parents died, and now Nicole. I mean don't get me wrong, I never really liked the kid that much, I mean I know she was a girl and a little afraid of the world, but she didn't have to die, no one should ever have to die like that.
I just couldn't believe that earlier that morning, she was perfectly fine, everyone was heading into school and none of us thought anything of it, until soda told me that Nicole may have been injured in a shooting.
When we attend the funerals the victims were each given a 5 minute speech that they did a week before the shooting. Nikki's made all of us want to cry, especially when she started talking about us.
FLASHBACK
"Hi, I'm Nicole Curtis I am a freshman…….Who I admire most, would be my
older brother because he had a football scholarship, a chance to go to college and his whole life ahead of him, and he gave it all up to help raise me and my two older brothers…….. Umm, If I was a hot dog I wouldn't eat me. But if I was a glass of milk I would drink me…….If I was to die today, or anytime…….I would want to be surrounded by my friends and my family…….I guess I would want my death to be fast and not painful……"
PONYBOY POV
I don't think my sister knew how much she meant to us. She was going places just like ponyboy. But she always had this way of making you see her side of the story, before you went and starting yelling at her. She had a way with words when she needed to. She lived for the moment, and took nothing for granted. The night she died I thought that god took her because he needed her more than we did. I thought her sole purpose on earth, was to make people smile when they were down, and to cheer them up when they were lonely. She was one in a million.
I will never get to know who she would be today if she had lived, if she would of turned into a soc, or stayed with us. Sodapop, darry and I all agreed to give her stuff away to charity, because she wouldn't need it. But we kept all of the pictures, and the blood stained clothes that she was wearing, the day of the shooting. As I was cleaning my sisters room I found a note that was hidden under her pillow. I read it over and over.
To Whoever Finds This Note,
I wrote this note when I was in the school field waiting for an ambulance. I told cherry to put it where I knew someone would find it. I knew I wasn't going to make it. But, im in a better place now. Tell Darry, to follow his heart where he goes. And Soda, tell him that a relationship with a girl isn't worth forgetting about your family, love will come again. Tell the gang to keep cool and not to worry about the future. Pony, you're going to go places in life, your gonna get out of Tulsa and your going to go to college and make something of yourself, be better than the crowd. Keep watching the sunsets pony, that's what is so gold about you. Don't lose that. I know that its hard, but trust me its worth the wait. I guess I'll see you again someday,
Love ,
Nicole Curtis
I showed everyone the note and we all cried. We saved the note and never opened it again. The next day, we decided that it would be best if we made nikkis room into a guest room. But we ver really got over how fast she was taken away from us. Darry was telling us, that her heart had stopped 2 times on the way to the hospital, up until the time she died, she only said three words. "I Love You."
We buried my sister next to my parents,her tomb stone said.. "Loving Sister…..Loving Friend….Tragically Taken April 20th 1965…..May you rest in peace"