Chapter 12: Intoxicated confessions
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Hermione's POV
I began scratching my head as I woke up, the harsh light of the room bothering my eyes and making them water.
I started to move, the cold marble against my skin.
The very cold marble which was dominating every inch of my skin that was touched to it reminded me of a very sadistic person.
Draco Malfoy.
Cold
Domineering
And
Relentless
I yawned
I couldn't even remember sleeping but I did remember feeling awfully tired after my "encounter" with Malfoy in the parlor room.
Not only that, I couldn't even remember being here
Or what I dreamt about
All I felt was dread and longing
And I suspiciously felt something…
Something like...
Guilt?
Now, why would I be feeling that?
Why of all the things I could have felt, I felt guilt?
Did I do something?
Did I unintentionally do something wrong?
Did I desert someone?
None of the three questions seem to fit my state right now. I couldn't think of a single bad thing I've done.
So I decided to overlook the feeling I had on that particular moment.
I looked around the room and studied my surroundings and tried as hard as I could to comprehend why I was here in the first place.
But then again, maybe it was one of Malfoy's inane schemes.
Maybe he magically sent me here to repent for my so called "faults"
I scratched my head as I got onto my feet and as I was about to pull my hand, my hair caught the ring and thus knotting it in a serious number of curls.
I tugged harder and when it came off, a bundle of hair was littered across the lavish marble floor.
I nearly scalped myself. Damn! The new hair Malfoy gave me is most certainly not doing its work; I preferred the old bushy one than this straight and slightly curly one.
Then again, this may make me look a lot prettier but the old one was stronger.
I took off the ring and studied it and when I saw the color and immense jolt tugged the pit of my stomach making me stumble backward.
I wondered if that was just my imagination or if that was real, but so far the only thing I could understand was the color of the ring.
The shade of color it had was exactly the same with the color of the eyes of a person I've missing so much these days.
It was deep emerald
The exact color of Harry's eyes
I smiled and placed it back on my finger, still trying to comprehend why I had fallen asleep and why I'd been such a dolt to have slept on the floor.
It was still green when I looked at it; I smiled and started to think about him…
For some reason, I feel that he is alive, he is there waiting for me and I just smiled at the thought…
He is still alive, that was a good assurance
One of these days, we'll finally find a way out of this mess and pursue the life we've always been wishing for, Harry
That's a promise…
I brought the ring to my lips and kissed it softly and when I did I only saw Harry's face saying, "I love you, Hermione"
I didn't know if that was real or not but the power of love is really strong that it can make you see things that aren't really there.
I'll save you one day, Harry
And if ever I shall do that, I promise I will love him eternally…God. I miss Harry so much…
As I made squirming movements about the floor, a certain person made its entrance into my thoughts and this person was not really welcome in my mind at all.
Malfoy….
I can clearly remember how we passionately made out in their sofa a while ago, I didn't dislike it in fact I liked it…
The way his lips molded rightfully in mine and when he said he wanted me everything just seemed to fit in place.
When he caresses me, I don't feel utter revulsion instead I feel only the steady feeling of wanting to hold him again.
And the way he said my name was just so right, it was harmony to my ears….
I had the sudden feeling at the pit of my stomach that I wish to sample Malfoy's lips some more, and perhaps go a bit further.
I bit back the thought, why am I even thinking of this?
I love Harry, the oh so sweet and handsome boy of my dreams, the man who promised to make me the happiest girl in the world ever….
The only guy who made my eyes water the moment he went out with another girl.
The first guy I've seriously fallen in love with…
But why does it feel like I'm falling for the sadistic Draco Malfoy, the depraved death eater who vows nothing on me but sweet revenge
Why is it that I have this continuous feeling of wanting Malfoy when I know what's in my mind and heart is Harry? Why do I even have to contemplate Malfoy over Harry when I know from the very beginning that it's Harry that my heart craves for?
I know that I am aware that Harry is the only person in my heart and I know how much it madly beats for him.
Yet again, with every beat of this heart of mine right now, only the face etched with smirk and sadism appears right in front of me,
No, it can't be true…it's too far out!
Yet the sudden plight I'm facing right now tells me how wrong I am….
And that I found myself in an enigmatic situation…
A situation of falling for the wrong person
A person who doesn't know love
A person who didn't even experience love
A person who can't love….
No...
I don't love Malfoy, I was just new to the sensations he was giving me, so unused to the way he called me and told me that he wanted me…
"That's right, Hermione. He did say he wanted you he never said he loved you, so don't twist the things you feel, you have Harry, the oh so sweet Harry compared to the sadist and Barbaric Draco…" I said to myself strongly
The Draco whose lips just claimed yours a while ago, he may be a sadist but then again, I was never kissed like that, not even by Harry, there was something in that passionate kiss and somehow that thing ignited something in me, making me want him…..
"Stop" I ordered myself
Stop thinking about him, you are making this no easier if you keep on thinking of all the good things about him and not the negative ones.
It was just infatuation, nothing more. I have to learn how to distance myself from Malfoy, how to stop his caresses before they go further. Stop the steady feeling that is already growing, shun it and hopefully let it die away…
I was glad Blaise intervened with the situation who knew what could have happened if I allowed it to continue….Malfoy and I could have been….
I didn't want to think of it, I wanted Harry to be my first, not Malfoy….
Because when it's Malfoy it's just plain sex while when it's Harry it could be considered making love...
Jeez! I better stop this contemplation, it's getting me nowhere…but one thing is for sure, I'm not hell falling for Malfoy! We are not even on first name basis, well at least one of us is, but that makes no difference.
"I am steady like the wind and whilst this ring shall remain with my finger I shall never let my heart fall into sticky paths that it may soon regret having stepped on"
And so since I was so inspired by the thought, I glanced at my ring and plastered a sated smile on face and said "I love you, Harry, I will never let anything come between us even the darkest of my fears of falling out of love with you"
It meant that even if I have the slightest chance of escaping, I shall take it….because I am afraid of the constant truth I am facing: that I might be too weak to withstand the caresses of Draco Malfoy and end up having to face a situation wherein I find myself falling for him…
That I might soon take the path of no return
That I might end up loving him too
And getting no love in return
No….
I need not even think about this
I must be strong for both Harry and me because I don't want anything to ruin the relationship I have worked so hard on and of course the recent relationship that I always wished for to happen.
The relationship I always wished to work out
Nothing will happen…
I shall remain steady and strong
Oh my God! I seriously doubt that!
Draco's POV
I had no idea how many glasses I had of Blaise's horrid drink.
The idiot forced me to down so many that I lost count but damn who knew that stuff tasted so good?
Even for muggles, it's quite good I have to admit but I shall keep that to myself.
Maybe one day I'll have another sample of it and thank Blaise for introduce me to this wondrous drink…
Either that or I am way too intoxicated to even think about what the hell I am thinking or saying...
I had too much to drink that my head ached.
"Fuck you, Blaise!" I slurred
He laughed hard; we were both drunk, way too drunk in fact.
This was his idea; he shall gladly pay for this one day.
I didn't particularly fancy the idea of getting drunk when matters were needed to be discussed.
"That's a good one, Draco. Even for a person like you!" he said completely making no sense
I snorted, "I didn't even say anything you dolt! God! You're too fucked; I can't even talk straight with you in this state"
But to my surprise, he kept laughing
"No, no…I meant to tell you something but I think I forgot what it is, hahahaha. This is all your fault, you made me drink so much that I forgot what I'm supposed to say, maybe the next time we'll be meeting up, we won't have a drinking session anymore"
I stared at him, "What are you trying to imply?"
"That we'll have a pot session the next time!"
I laughed too; I mean seriously how far out is Blaise's idea!
Too far out!
"Yeah, I know! Funny right! But you know what's funnier!" he asked continuing to laugh
"What?" I asked laughing too
"That our dark lord wants your mark done by the next four months! Hahahaha, isn't that funny Draco? And to think you were not so intrigued about this whole situation when your mother told you, well guess what Draco….we're working alongside now, I'm a deatheater and so are you, well in a few months or so that is…."
He kept laughing jovially but I stopped, reality started to hit me on the face as he Blaise made his announcement.
As he made my verdict clear, that I was after all going to be a deatheater, that after all I'd be working for a master I didn't want or rather I loathed, I scrunched my forehead.
I didn't want this
No…
"Why?" I asked
He laughed again, not sensing the seriousness of my tone
"Because the Dark Lord is fucked, that's why!"
I raised my brows and he laughed harder
"He is one deatheater short Draco! I think he needs you on his side now because he feels that Potter is growing stronger and he needs help from his so called faithful allies, that depraved twit needs some screwing that's what! He's fucked Draco and now he wants you fucked too!"
Blaise wasn't making any sense, but it was clear to me…
Even the steady vertigo I felt was starting to dwindle, all because of this announcement.
I, Draco Malfoy am about to accept my duty as a deatheater?
No!
Shit Potter! Why do you even have to kill one off?
Now that idiot needs me and what am I supposed to say!
Blaise continued to laugh and was saying something, "That's partly the reason why your father left, Draco…he wanted to settle matters with the Dark Lord, he didn't want you to be a part of our group yet because widdle Draco was so weenie he cant fend off for himself yet"
"What?"
Blaise stopped laughing but his tone was still slurred, "There are commitments in this group wherein one's loyalty must lie and if ever it is broken, one's life must dearly pay for it. In other words Draco, your father is afraid you might not achieve the given tasks and have your life pay in atonement"
"You're right, Blaise. The dark Lord is fucked!" I said
He laughed again, a lot harder this time.
His laugh rang my ears; it was so strident that it made the dust on the ceiling quiver.
"No, Draco…you know who's really fucked? It's not the dark Lord, but I am sensing that it is you, you want to know why? It's because you're starting to fall for that mudblood maid of yours!"
A harsh wind blew making my cold body colder.
I was struck by what he said but none of it had any probity, he was just plain drunk that is.
But the effect of his words was powerful, I don't know why but it had a pull.
"You and I both know that I don't fancy mudblood's, Blaise!" I said coolly
"Oh?" he said
I kept quiet and waited for him to say more
"Well, if that's the case, Draco then hell I'm one lucky guy. That mudblood has the best lips I've ever tasted—"
"You're too drunk, Blaise. That's enough for tonight; I think you should be off, now"
"But no, not yet! I'm not yet done, did I mention she has the best tits—"
"You fucking shut up!" I roared
He laughed and kept talking, "Jeez Draco, be a good sport! You should have seen her face when I was abducting her as her fiancé, it was hilarious---"
I lunged at him and gave him a death blow straight on the face, it was the second time I'd him that day.
I didn't like the way he was talking or the way he said Hermione's name dirtily, as if it was something to be taken for granted.
I don't know why but the more I talked to Blaise, the more I would dislike him then.
"So this is it then Draco—"
"Shut up" I said
For the first time that night, Blaise wasn't laughing, he wasn't talking in slurred speech.
He didn't even seem drunk anymore.
"You and the mudblood—"
"I believe I told you to shut up, Blaise"
"So I guess that's it, it's true then….I didn't want to believe it at first, but then judging your actions and—"
"You should be asleep, Blaise. You had too much to drink, I'd take this matter as if it never happened, now leave before I give you a second blow"
"I—"
I stood up my back facing him and said, "Leave, you are not easing me temper, Blaise"
I heard him stand up and leave out of the parlor and that satisfied me.
I let out a sigh of breath and stared out in the vast sky.
It was already star draped unlike the rainy evening I had once experienced with Hermione, the very night I had first sampled her lips and caressed her skin. The caress of her skin, the sweet touch of her fingers, her vanilla scent and the feeling of her lips against mine, it was all driving me mad…
I am in deep contemplation on ethics over this new feeling!
I furrowed my brows, I should not be thinking of things like that so I took one of the sedative cigarettes I had, lit it and took a long drag.
I stared at the box, it was almost empty, and I needed another supply, I smoke too much on this particular night because of Blaise's sudden visit. .
The slender stick between my hands and the slim stick in between my lips with its smoke circling around my head made me feel temporary euphoria; somehow it made me calm and cool…
But too cool that I felt colder than usual with my bare body and all…
I needed wood to light the furnace
"Palace!" I shouted
Not a minute had passed and there she was standing behind me, making her presence known by that horrid blueberry scent.
How the hell does she do that?
"What is it, Master Draco?" she asked in a squeaky voice very much in contrast with her previous voice
I hated it when she called me that…
"Do we have firewood? Light me a fire so that I'll be warmer" I commanded
"I'm sorry, but we're out of wood" she said placidly
"Then do something you dolt before I freeze to death!" I roared
"I can do nothing for you, Draco…"
I raised my brows at her sudden suspicion filling me, I then asked, "How do you do it?"
"Do what?" she countered
"How is it that when I need you, you are here right away and how is it that when I ask for something you're instantly there without a bypassing minute? Tell me Palace, how do you do that? It is not possible for you to apparate within the vicinity of the manor and I certainly doubt a wizened lady like you could walk that fast…"
"Your words hurt me, Draco I am only 25"
"By age not by face, answer the question"
"It only shows how much you could use my assistance than of the mudblood's since I am here in an instant whilst you have to wait for her, the mudblood I mean"
"Don't call her that and you are not answering my question, Annie" I said sternly
She sighed and said nothing
"Why do I have a feeling that you were eavesdropping to my conversation when I told you to accompany the mudblood upstairs and assist her into her new garments?"
"I never listened to any of your conversations—"
"Bullshit Palace! Then how is it that Blaise knows, you are the only possible source of that kind of information!" I roared
She sighed in resignation, "I admit, okay it was me! But I could do nothing, Draco; it was a part of my job"
"In case you haven't noticed, Annie, you no longer have a job"
"By you but your mother gave me the authority to watch over you"
Those words rang through me, I hated to hear that!
"She meant for you to spy on me! You nosy little bitch and so is my father!"
She kept quiet.
"So all along you were asking these questions about Hermione because you wanted to know if I had any feelings for her—"
"But you do have feelings for her, don't you!"
"That is not the point! My point is that you have been fucking spying on me all along! And I thought you were nothing but a useless piece of creature in this manor, No wonder you knew what had happened, no wonder why you knew I had kissed her---"
I heard sniffling sounds, horrid sounds in fact and I realized Palace was crying…
"I won't apologize for what I have said to you, Annie…"
She said nothing so I sat down
I took another drag and blew it upwards blew smoke filling the air
"It wasn't like I had a choice, Draco…"
I looked at her tear stained face
"Choice? What choice, Palace? Isn't it your idea of fun to know what your master has been up to!"
"No, it is not…"
I actually cocked an eyebrow at her as if to challenge her to take back what she had said but she didn't.
"I think I made it clear, Draco. I had no choice" she said
"Why is that Annie?" I asked, somewhat challenging her
"You wouldn't---You wouldn't understand…" she stammered
I raised my brows at her and said, "Try me, Palace…."
I then took a long drag and blew it on the air without taking advantage of its sedative effect.
"It's probably better that you wouldn't know, Draco"
I took a seat and waited for her to take one too but when she didn't I said, "What's the matter, Palace? Will the truth hurt?"
More tears fell from her eyes as she took a seat across from mine and then she began…
"Your father—"
She stammered but then she lost heart, she stood up and was about to go for the door.
But I stood up and halted her by saying, "What about my father, Palace? What the hell did he do to you now?"
She stopped halfway when I said it then continued walking as if she had not heard me
I had a feeling I knew where this was going.
I knew that this was going to Palace's only remaining priority.
"It's about your family, isn't it?" I asked
That brought her to a full stop and when she turned to face me; her face was so shiny with tears.
"If you must know, YES!"
"Why?"
She sniffled, "Your father threatened to finish them off if I wouldn't apprise him of your growing relationship with the mudblood, he has his won suspicions, Draco when he saw you hanging out with her too much and of course when he saw the two of you alone in your room. I knew he was going to kill them all, Draco. Your father is going to kill my only remaining hope—"
"But I'm not like him—"I quickly defended
"I know, Draco…I know you are not like that bastard you have for a father, Draco. But haven't you really realized what I am to this manor? What this maid is to you and your family? I am nothing but a prisoner, Draco."
She sounded like Hermione and it reminded me of Hermione.
It all fits, I have a depraved family and there is nothing I could do about it….
She was a prisoner of my family's depravity and sardonic ways
She can do nothing but await her verdict
Just like Hermione whose hope lies on Potter
And just like Annie whose hope lies on her family
I didn't like the way it was set, I knew that my family had total control of this people, but somehow that control will turn these two persons insane someday.
I wasn't proud of it
It was all screwed up
How could one pride himself or herself over another person's misery?
Startling realization struck me
That was what Hermione said to me
It isn't true; I don't want to see other people miserable
You made me realize that, Granger …..
My contemplation was cut off by Palace's words
"I was supposed to be free, Draco. I guess I no longer have debts for your family since the day you released me and turned me into a monster, in doing so you broke the pact of my eternal imprisonment, your father solely promised my father that you would never hurt me in any way, but you broke it but instead of leaving I stayed"
She continued to sniffle but I regarded her with nothing more but plain placidity.
"If you really are free, Palace then why are you still here? Why not leave and go back to your family, your only remaining priority"
"You wouldn't understand, Draco…I know you couldn't and I know you would never believe me" she moved closer to where I was sitting with her tear stricken eyes
I looked at her then said, "Why?"
"You just couldn't" she bent over to see my face clearer her blueberry breath sending weird sensations throughout my body.
In one way or another it reminded me of, Hermione
"Then try, Palace, make me believe"
And then it happened she was too close and as if it were bliss, she pressed her lips into mine, her enormous lips against mine.
I shoved her off almost instantly
"What the fuck do you think you were doing!" I shouted
It was the sickest sensation I ever had in my whole life.
It felt nothing like a kiss at all.
Her lips were too big and it felt like rubber
"God, Palace! I could have your head for that!"
"Then have it! I wouldn't care, I knew you wouldn't believe me, I knew I was bound to be rejected; I knew there was someone you'd rather have when that mudblood set foot on this manor!"
"Palace, how long will it take for you to understand and realize that I DO NOT LIKE YOU!"
"I know, Draco but despite my one sided feeling, I prefer to stay and I suppose you don't know why…"
I smirked and said, "You couldn't leave because YOU LOVE ME SOOO MUCH!"
She stared at me then said, "Partially but not entirely"
"Then what, Palace? Don't you fucking say that you wanted to stay because you're my mom's watchdog---!"
"I wanted to stay because I wanted to protect you, DRACO!"
I scoffed and said, "Protect me from what, Annie? From you!"
"No, I wanted to protect you from becoming just like your father. I didn't want you to become like him. I don't want you to grow on depravity and I know that I know you better than your parents do"
That's not true, my parents know more about me than you do
But something inside told me that what she was saying was right
'That's why I loved you, Draco because I wanted you to know what love is, I know that you never felt anything like that from your parents—"
"That's enough!"
"But—"
"I said enough, Palace" I roared
"NO! You will let me finish! I know this may be hard to take but you will listen to every word I will say, Draco for I will say this confession only once!" she countered, her despondent visage gone and now plastered with rage and fury making her distorted face uglier and more horrid than ever.
"I knew I had no chance of making you feel the sensations I wanted you to feel from the moment you fired me, I knew I can never teach you love, I knew you will never learn what conscience is, I knew that you will never love as I am, I knew that you will never feel all of the emotions I wanted you to feel, I knew I had no chance of turning you someone unlike your father and I knew I had no chance of stopping you from becoming a deatheater but someone will, Draco…"
"And who is that!" I spat
"Your personal maid, Hermione Granger. In one way or another, Draco she is going to change you and soon enough you'll learn something you have never learned from this house and that you will learn from her…"
She had a point, she made a huge point but I didn't want to admit that, I didn't want Hermione to change me, I knew she couldn't, I knew she wouldn't.
She loves Potter….
Not me….
Strange pain went through me as I thought about that
I discarded the thought and laughed
"Christ Palace! That mudblood has no chance in changing me!"
"I wouldn't be saying that if I were you, Draco. You know as much as I do that you have a feeling inside of you that is steadily growing…"
Right again, Palace
"And so, are you implying that my father knows all about this?"
"No, I'm saying that I'm just here enough to see your actions when you are with her"
"And why didn't you tell father?"
"Because I know he'll be the biggest obstacle of what is coming towards your way"
I didn't understand what she was trying to insinuate but I didn't ask anyway
"So how did Blaise know?"
"He was pretending to be knocked out when in fact he was peeking a bit when the both of you were making out in the cushion"
"God Palace! You seem to be everywhere!"
She smiled and I took another drag from the cigarette
"You know, even though she loves that Potter guy so much I think she cares for you"
"Why would you say that?"
"I just know"
For the first time that night I smiled, I sat down and poured myself another drink and downed it in one gulp.
"But do tell me, Draco…any admission would do"
"What the hell are you talking about?" I asked pouring myself another drink
"You do have feelings for the girl don't you?" she asked
I laughed and drank the remaining liquid from my glass and said, "If there's one thing you should know, Annie….Malfoys don't feel! So don't expect anything from me, I don't feel anything for her"
She had a knowing smile on her face and with that I said, "Now leave me, your presence is slightly nauseating"
She laughed, "That's the nicest command I probably heard from you"
And with that she went for the door
"Palace"
"Yes?" she asked
"Don't you ever do that again"
"Do what?" she asked innocently
"Kiss me"
"Now?"
"No! God! I meant don't you ever do that again!" I shouted
She laughed and went
Some maid she is
Honestly, I never met a maid as erratic as her.
But then again maybe having Annie has its advantages…
A lot of advantages…
I took another drag from my cigarette and was surprised there was only two left in the box
There were usually fifteen sticks
I smoked too many just this day
And the alcohol wasn't helping
Maybe I should get some sleep
But it was getting colder
I took another drag as I drank the remaining vodka from the bottle, believing that it would help.
But instead it made me a lot colder.
Damn! What the hell is this?
I stood up and rubbed my arms with my hands, hoping that that would make me feel warmer.
I shivered and reached for the firewhiskey, hoping against hope that it would help
Again, nothing….it only succeeded in making me drunk
It was getting really cold
So cold
Cold like death
I laughed…
I pointed my wand towards me and was about to do something really stupid like set myself on fire to ease the cold, when a familiar voice said,
"God! I can't believe you are still relying on that shit!"
I turned to look who it was…
It was her
"What are you doing here?" I slurred, the harshness so way away from my voice
God! How did she get here so fast?
My vision started to blur and there was little to see of her pretty face, I stumbled forward and then….
"Oh my GOD!"
And that's when everything turned black and I started to fall on the cold marble floor.
Hermione's POV
It has been exactly forty minutes since he fainted, he should be awake any time now.
And in any time he'll find out the compromising position we are in….
He was actually an idiot for falling on top of me
It was not my fault, I tried to catch him but then…he was too heavy
God Damn you Malfoy! Why do you even have to rely on those damnable cigarettes?
What a doltish thing to do!
Even for someone like you…
Any minute now….
You should be awake by now, you twit! I tried pushing him but was surprised to find out that the idiot was heavier than I thought.
Damn it!
"Malfoy…." I whispered on his lips which were getting too near to mine.
I was only successful in distancing my face from his, he was heavy.
I guess those lean muscles weren't just for show
He didn't do as much as to budge of flutter his grey eyes open.
No budge at all…
"Malfoy.." I whispered a little louder this time
God! He was making this more difficult!
"Sod off, Malfoy! You're heavy!" I shouted
Suddenly he gripped my arms hard, as if he were afraid or was scared by something…
I was startled by what he just did so I looked at his face.
He was perspiring, but not that much.
It was the effect of his stupid cigarette.
He had too much…
And he was drunk
I didn't want to do any movements of any kind for if Malfoy was having a nightmare, he might just do something really stupid and finish me off with his heavy and strong hands or crush me with his muscular body.
No, I was already crushed by his big muscular body…
Suddenly, his grip softened and it turned to something like caress
"Hermione…." He whispered on my lips making them warm
Oh no…
"Hermione…."
I looked at him and I realized that he was still sleeping or perhaps he is…
But he was smiling dreamily, so he should be asleep!
"Hermione…" he mumbled again rubbing his lips onto mine, his hot husky breaths against the skin of my lips
No! You're not doing this again…
"Malfoy, stop!" I shouted
But I knew it had no effect, Malfoy was in a sedative state.
Not just any sedative state
It was a side effect of that cigarette since he had too much and it was aggravated by alcohol…
He couldn't hear me…
Only time could tell when he would wake up…
His hands traveled around my body, touching it and caressing it…
"Malfoy, please…" I said but a lot gentler this time as I closed my eyes
I won't be tempted…
No…
I promised myself and Harry
Harry, my only love, my only remaining hope—
"I love you, Hermione…"
My eyes fluttered open, he didn't just say that….
No, Draco Malfoy could never say that
That was not true…
His mouth traveled to where my lips were…
I closed my eyes…
This was too much…
I think I'm starting to have feelings for you
But it isn't true…
It can't be…
I just can't handle this anymore
He was so close
It was impossible not to like him
He looks just like a God
And the gentle touch of his skin against my skin reminded me of Harry
No…
It shouldn't be
But when he is in this state wherein he doesn't know what he is doing, I can't just resist…
By doing this, you remind me of a person I'm sorely missing, Draco
And that hurts more because I know you're not him
But I guess the confusion that is clouding me is pushing me to like you
You're too close…
Too close to resist…
I'm sorry, Harry
Pardon my weak heart, Harry
And so I kissed him back with as much passion as he had
And that's when his eyes started to flutter open and see the girl beneath him…
Yeah, I know cliffhanger…lol evil me. So sorry but I can't prolong it or I'll be running out of ideas!
Anyway, thanks for your reviews and support please review on your way out! Thank you all mwahz!
I didn't like this particular chapter but it felt like I needed to end it here but never fear, I AM SURE THE NEXT ONE IS bound to be something sweet and cute, hopefully, lol. Remember that Draco is drunk, anything can happen when the two of them are alone! Lol…I'm just suggesting that, I can't really tell…;p
Thanks anyway guys, maybe the next update would be on September or October! ;p