Chapter 59
May 6, 2026- Seattle, Washington
Meredith sat on her daughter's bed, reading the diary. She felt like she was invading her privacy, but it was the only chance at finding her. Derek was standing above her reading over her shoulder and Celine sat across the bed waiting. Neither one of them reacted to the words before them. Not the way that they would have if Aimee had been telling them the information instead of a diary.
When she was done, she closed the diary and looked up at Derek who had a confused look on his face. She could tell that he didn't want to accept it. He didn't want to admit to it. He just couldn't. Meredith tore her eyes away from him and looked at Celine. She seemed full of guilt. Guilt that didn't belong to her.
"I wish I could be there," Celine said quietly, "Holding her hand, when it happens."
Meredith bit her lip as a tear fell down her face. She reached across the bed and took her daughter's hand and whispered, "I do too."
May 6, 2026- Seattle, Washington
Meredith and Derek walked into their bedroom, ready for bed. Meredith quickly changed and got under the covers, while Derek moved a little slower. It seemed like he was in a daze, completely surrounded by only his thoughts. Once he was changed, he turned off the lights and headed over to the bed. He stopped at Meredith's side and bent over, kissing her on the lips, goodnight.
As he pulled away to get to bed, he felt her grasp his shirt and pull him back down to her. She kissed him passionately and then released him. He was a little surprised and his face said it. Meredith offered an explanation, "You haven't kissed me since before we found out."
"What?" Derek asked as he sat down on the bed next to her.
"The last time you kissed me was in the kitchen, before I went upstairs. Before anything," she said calmly.
Derek knew what she meant. This wasn't about a kiss, not completely anyways. He'd left her alone. He thought that was what she needed, but she needed him there for her, "I'm so sorry, Mer."
"It's okay," she said shrugging it off as she got a little more comfortable and closed her eyes.
Derek stood up and walked across the room, towards his side of the bed. He got in and covered himself with the tan comforter. He scooted close to Meredith and wrapped his arms around her. She leaned into him comfortably; telling him it really was okay. He began to kiss her neck and she smiled, "I missed you."
May 6, 2026- Seattle, Washington
Celine walked back into her sister's room and picked up the diary again. There had been two entries that night that Aimee left. She opened it to the first one. She knew that this was probably against any sisterhood code, but it was really the only way she could feel close to Aimee right now. And right now all she wanted was to be with her little sister.
Dear Diary,
So I might not make it very obvious, but I hate fighting with Celine. She's my sister and the best one I could ask for, but sometimes she drives me crazy. I wish I could have explained everything to her. I wish I could have told her why Luke was there. I'm not stupid enough to just bring over a guy that my father doesn't approve of for any reason. I just wanted to explain it all to her and Mom before Dad got home. That was my only chance at getting him to not kill me.
I didn't know that Dad was coming home and I swear I didn't mean a thing I said about him. He drives me crazy too. He just doesn't get me like he gets Celine. I think it's because they are so similar. I'm just a mix between him and Mom so no one completely gets me. It sucks. Except for Luke. Luke gets me and I think that's why I love him so much. I just need to get Mom to understand that before I tell her anything else. I'll write more later because Luke's calling me and I really need to tell him what happened.
Love,
Aimee
Celine hesitantly turned the next page. She knew the words that it held, but seeing them on the paper was almost worse then just having them ring through her head.
Dear Diary,
Luke is right. If I tell my Dad about the baby, he'll kick me out. He won't let me explain and my mom won't stop him. She never does. I almost want to keep this baby. It's mine after all, but I know they won't allow it. Even if I somehow managed to not get kicked out, they wouldn't let me keep it. They want me to go to college and be just like them. The just don't understand that I don't want that life. I don't want their life. I want my own.
At least Luke has a plan. We can leave. I know if we are on our own, we won't be able to afford the baby. Either way I'll have to get rid of it. At least this way, I can stay with Luke. I just love him so much and I know my parents will never understand that. They'll never understand why I'm leaving either. They'll probably resent me for it too, but I have to. Maybe years from now they'll understand. I'll come back one day and explain it all to them. Maybe they'll accept Luke and I back into their family. I hope so.
There are so many things running through my mind right now. Luke makes all of this seem so simple, but I don't know. He doesn't like his family, so he's not leaving anything behind. But I'm leaving so much. I love my family. Everyone. Even the people who aren't really part of my family like Aunt Cristina and Aunt Izzie. Or Uncle George and Uncle Alex. And of course, Uncle Burke. I'm still a little unsure of why I don't call him Uncle Preston. I've been so close to all of them. Aunt Crissy taught me how to hold my own ground and Aunt Izzie has always been there for advice on anything from boys to clothes. Uncle George has always been there whenever I've needed to laugh. And Uncle Alex, I owe him everything I've ever earned in sports, from track, basketball, field hockey, and softball. And Uncle Burke taught me the piano and he taught me about some of the simpler things in life. They've all done so much for me and now I'm about to leave them.
And then there is my Mom. Even though my Mom doesn't always stand up for me when I think she should, she's always been an amazing Mom. She'd always miss any surgery for me when I was sick or I had a game. She's always helped me with school and tried her best to be there for me even when I push her away the most. I can't even imagine how much I'll miss her. I don't even want to think about it.
And my Dad. For a few months, I thought I was going to lose him. That makes this so much harder. Not only leaving him, but also leaving on bad terms. I know I don't have any other choice, but I'll never forgive myself if he gets sick again and I'm not here. Oh god, I hope he never gets sick again. My mom doesn't deserve it. She loves him too much. It's so obvious to everyone around them. Especially to me and my sister.
Now that brings me to Celine. No matter how much I say that I hate her perfect GPA and her perfect life, I sometimes wish it were mine. She's got the amazing looks, a perfect mixture of our parents. She's amazingly smart and has all the great friends and the best boyfriend in the world. She's so lucky, but I know I'm also lucky to be able to call her my sister. I'm going to miss her the most. I just wish I had the guts to walk into her room right now and tell her the truth. Now, she might never know.
Luke just text messaged me. He's here. That means it's time for me to go. It's time for me to leave everything behind and completely start over with my life just with him. I love him so much and I know he'll take care of me, but I'm scared. I'm more scared then I ever thought possible.
For the last time,
Love,
Aimee.