Sorry for the long delay! I still have some summer homework to get through (Curse the education system! Finding ways to torture their students, even on holidays!)

DayDreamer64: I'm still updating on LJ :) and here's your doughnut and a donut moment in this chapter.

Saina Tsukino: heh heh, but I did get you to review! (-gives food out-) I always like the idea of a couple sharing an umbrella, all in the name of romance XD

Animegrl1047: I did hear about umbrellas having a symbolic meaning, but I liked your explanation better :) I just included the umbrella because I thought it would be a nice romantic moment... still it was interesting to learn something new! Thank you!

Thank you everyone for reading and reviewing... and now for another chapter!

Chapter 7

It was now midnight.

The two young men had made it to Doumeki's apartment, walking through the rain with the umbrella over the both of them. When they had entered, Doumeki made sure that Watanuki had dried himself properly which was followed by Watanuki yelling at Doumeki to do the same. Doumeki let Watanuki borrow his clothes whilst going into the kitchen. When the amber eyed man returned with two cups of tea, he saw Watanuki curled up on the sofa asleep. The clothes that the blue eyed man was wearing were quite baggy, the shirt exposing the neck (which made Doumeki's heart skip a beat for a moment). Doumeki couldn't help but think that the spectacled man looked... well... cute.

Picking up Watanuki in his arms, bridal style, Doumeki took the man in his arms to his bed. Taking off his glasses to place it on the table, Doumeki covered both Watanuki and himself with blankets.

And since then Doumeki has been lying down besides the shorter man, watching him for such a long time. There was a fear in the young man that Watanuki would runaway again just like before. This time Doumeki wanted to be there for him, even if Watanuki cries out for Himawari he will be the one to support him in anyway possible.

'I don't want either of us to be alone... even if you don't love me, nothing will change the fact that I love you.'

Doumeki was just about to fall asleep, when he felt movement next to him. Doumeki's eyes opened to see a half-asleep Watanuki hovering his head over the amber eyed man.

"Watanuki?"

It didn't seem as if Watanuki heard his name being said, instead the sleepy blue eyed man bowed his head closer towards the stoic face. Doumeki felt the soft lips brush against his own, making the owner of the amber eyes blush slightly. Watanuki pulled away as he lowered his head towards the neck, kissing ever so lightly several times. This made Doumeki feel as if his heart would leap out of his chest with those innocent kisses. Doumeki reached his hand out to the side of the other man's face, caressing Watanuki's cheek, making the blue eyed man stop in his tracks. Once Doumeki sat up, they were at eye level, staring into each others eyes. At this point Watanuki was now fully awake, blushing madly at what he had done a moment ago.

"Ah! I-I'm sorry! I don't know why I..."

"There's no need to apologize."

Watanuki stopped with a look of confusion upon his face.

'Isn't he freaked out? I just kissed him! Why isn't he all ready to kick me out-'

Then he remembered that moment in the kitchen, Doumeki was the one who had kissed him with those lips that sent sparks within his heart. The blue eyes cast down to look at his own hand with the wedding ring on one of his pale fingers.

"Himawari..." as Watanuki muttered the name of his deceased wife, a mixed feeling that was of both sadness and... well... it was not sure what that emotion was, but whatever it was it made him burst into laughter as tears fell from his eyes once again. Doumeki looked surprised at the young man's actions, beginning to worry for the other.

"Watanuki?"

The laughter began to subside. Watanuki looked up, smiling sadly as he attempted to control the laughter.

"I-I'm really a fool aren't I?"

"Why say that?"

"Because..." Watanuki wasn't sure if he was ready to tell the emotionless faced man what he felt about him. What if he was betrayed? What if Doumeki disappeared again? He would be so alone.

"You can tell me..." Watanuki felt the strong warm hand brush his face, to which he responded by leaning in to absorb this irresistible feeling of Doumeki.

"I think... I think I have fallen for you. But..." tears continued to trail down from those emotional eyes, "...It feels as if I'm cheating on Himawari-chan. I must be a terrible husband."

Watanuki thought that he didn't deserve pity or sympathy, just punishment for committing such a crime - even if Himawari was dead. However, Watanuki never expected to feel strong arms wrap around him, his head against Doumeki's chest. For a moment Watanuki felt protected and safe in this embrace, making him wanting to hold on too. There was a silence that seem to last forever, until Doumeki began to talk after choosing what he wanted to say.

"Watanuki... If you were the one to have died and Himawari was the one to have lived, would you want her to feel the way you do?"

Doumeki felt the young man stiffen at this question. He heard a small 'no' being whispered into his chest.

"Would you want her to cry or to live the rest of her life alone?"

"Of course not!" anger could be heard in Watanuki's voice.

"Then, if there was another person that could help Himawari not be sad anymore... would you hate her?"

Watanuki thought very carefully as Doumeki patiently waited for his answer. The blue eyed man raised his head and gently pushed himself slightly away from the embrace, with a sincere look that had a tint of sadness about them staring into calm amber eyes.

"No. I would be a little bit sad that I couldn't be the one to love her, but I would rather her to be happy than let her suffer."

"So... wouldn't Himawari want you be happy rather than sad?"

Watanuki's expression morphed slowly from sadness to a grateful look, as he remembered Himawari without feeling any pain in his heart for the first time. Her smile, her happy eyes and her sweet caring words.

"She would have - at least, I think she might have wanted me to be... happy."

Watanuki could never imagine her wishing pain on anyone let alone Watanuki. It was then the young blue eyed man felt that with those happy memories, he could let go of Himawari without feeling heartbroken.

'Thank you so much Himawari chan...'

"Thank you Doumeki."

"For what?"

"For... far letting me see what I needed to see."

Watanuki blushed again, looking away from Doumeki as he felt slightly embarrassed about the whole situation.

"And I'm sorry for... k-k-kissing you like that, I didn't know what came over me."

"I already told you, there's no need to apologize."

Watanuki's expressed puzzlement and confusion at this answer, which Doumeki thought made the young spectacled man exceptionally adorable at this moment.

"That doesn't- why would you...? You wouldn't just let anybody kiss you, would you?"

"You're right. I wouldn't let just anyone kiss me. But I would let the person I loved the most do so if he desired..."

A small smile had settled on the normally stoic face, whilst Watanuki was slowly letting what the amber eyed man said sink into his mind.

"What? Y-you don't mean that you... l-lo- like me?"

"Yes I do mean that."

Something in Watanuki made him want to either scream at this man's confession being said in such a calm voice or let his head explode from blushing too much.

'Is this guy kidding me?' Watanuki didn't know if he should trust what was being said or not. That small fear returned to whisper in Watanuki's mind. What if Doumeki was lying, or what if this was just a crush- after all, they haven't known each other for more than two days...right?

Even though that was what Watanuki was thinking, it sure didn't feel as if they had only known each other for two days. It felt as if Watanuki had known him longer, in some sense the blue eyed man would not have been so open with just any stranger... what made Doumeki any different?

"I always have loved you." the amber eyed man had broken Watanuki's train of thought, wanting the shorter man to respond to him in some way.

"F-for how long?" Watanuki stuttered, still so close to the other man in front of him.

"Since the very first time I met you... many years ago."

This caught Watanuki's attention, looking surprised from the latter of those words.

Doumeki paused, feeling uncertain for a second about telling the blue eyed man his memories of the young boy Watanuki Kimihiro.

"Do you remember middle school?"

Watanuki's voice seem to have shrunk, shaking his head at the answer.

"Not much. I can remember seeing my parents around that time..."

"I remember. Do you want to hear about it?"

It was quiet, Watanuki express a look of thoughtfulness before nodding in response. Doumeki took a deep breath, ready to tell the young man everything.

"Very well... it all started on a rainy day..."