Today is my wedding ceremony. If George is going to do anything, anything at all, it better be today. I didn't want to get married at all now that I got back my abilities to feel. I would have to stop the whole thing all by myself if he's not here.
The ceremony was held in the garden of our future home. Hahaha…Hiroyuki actually bought the house under my name. I wonder if they're going to bring a priest or something…
'Honey, are you alright?'
'Yeah…I'm fine…'
'You look pale…and are you expecting some important guest or something? 'Coz you have been staring at the entrance for the past two hours…'
'Oh...really? Well, no. I'm not expecting anyone…'
'Honey, I'm so nervous…oh yeah…you said your family's flew back from Sydney yesterday night, right? Are they coming?'
'They are already here…there they are…' I pointed towards Dad. 'They're eating there around that fruits table.' Then Hiroyuki went away. I bet he went over to say hi or something.
Arrrghh…is this George coming or not?! Then suddenly, Hiroyuki's mom came over and pulled me to the other side of the garden to say hello to a relative of theirs.
A voice announced through the speaker for everyone's attention and said that the ceremony has now begun. Then I saw a priest walking out of the curtains behind the small stage they built. Ahhh…just as I thought…there's going to be a priest. But George isn't here yet…they can't start! What should I do?
I walked nervously up the pavement in my father's arm. I've always loved this scene in the movies and now that it's really happening, I find that I really wanna just grab my heavy wedding dress and run out of the picture.
I felt really nervous and clenched onto my father's arm. He thought I was very touched by this whole thing that he is here and so he patted my hand. I looked up and force a smile at him. He smiled back happily. Then he said something that really made me feel guilty.
'My little girl's all grown up now...' I saw a tear hesitating to slid down, still roaming around in his eyes. I looked at mum. The mother that I always thought preferred my brother;the mother that is always expecting too much that I can't handle anymore;the mother that was now shedding tears into her small white handkerchief, outlined with lavenders that I sew for her during home economies class a long time ago. That was when I realized that my parents are really getting old. I feel like crying.
drip drip I looked down at my hands covered with white-silked gloves, holding the bouquet of flowers. Tears were flowing. I am crying. With each thought, I neared the spot where I Hiroyuki was waiting for me, with a bright smile;the spot where I am supposed to say, 'I do' after the priest has said the commitment thingie;the spot where I am about to be bonded with this man forever.
My father handed over my hand to Hiroyuki and went back to his seat beside my mother. We turned and face the priest. When he was just about to started his 'speech' of bonding, a loud screech came out of nowhere. Everyone got distracted, including me and turned around.
When I saw the scent that was about to take place right in front of me, I heard my heart breaking into pieces and my whole world started to crumble. The bouquet of flowers dropped from my hand onto the floor. My head was completely blank that I can't even think.