A/N: Okays well, here's the next chappie. Finally the flashbacks are like finally almost over. Sorry again for the late update, but I was sick for my entire winter break, and the next week and a half after that, and then i had to study forever for midterms so, yea.
Okay, that's enough about me. Well, don't forget to R/R, .

Disclaimer: Me, own Sailor Moon? I think not.

Chapter Four: Why do I Cut Part 3

Recap of Last Chapter:

"Darien! It's you!" Serena exclaimed running toward the real Darien with Rini by her side.

But before Serena could get over to Darien, Diamond apparated infront of her and tried to take her away, but this time he entranced her with his big eye at the top of his forehead that could be used to put anyone he wanted under a trance-like state that supposedly no one could get out of on their own.

Serena got entranced and when the real Darien ran toward Diamond, he put up a forcefield around himself and Serena.

'no... I ... will... not... go.. with you-' Serena struggled under his hypnotic stare and resisted almost accomplishing her goal of getting out of his grasp and trance. "I... love... Darien... not you! DARIEN!!!" Serena yelled as a bright light arose from her chest, the same bright light that had appeared before at the advent of her capture in the Crystal Palace. This light made an appearance once again and consumed everyone . 'This is...' Serena thought weakly, ' the silver crystal? but how?' And with that, she blacked out, and so did everyone else around her, with the exception of Diamond who was destroyed by the silver crystal mercilessly.

"Ugh," Serena sighed getting up from the bed she was in. "My whole body feels like it's on fire," she said.

'Where am I?' she thought, 'And where is Darien, I can't remember what happened, but I feel terrible that's for sure.'

Serena staggared off the bed shakily and dizzily and looked at her surroundings. 'Wow, this place is really nice.' she thought referring to the sheer white curtains and pink bedsheets and the beautiful serene paintings that were hung so delicately on the walls.

'This is great and all, but I have to find Darien and Rini.' Serena slowly limped over to the door with barely the strength to turn the handle, but managed to, miraculously. She stepped out into what looked like a hallway. 'This must be a mansion or a castle or something,' she thought and looked around at the hundreds of doors that surrounded her, 'The downer to this place is- How in the world do you expect to find anyone?!'

She tried the doors immediately next to her room, and found them to be rather large closet like ones. 'Sheesh! Their closets are the size of my room and Sammy's room put together! Stupid rich people. Which brings me to another question... Why am I here, and how did I get here?!' she thought to herself and let a moan of agony escape her lips as she tried to walk to a room thats door was ajar. 'Maybe someone's in there that can explain everything to me,' she thought.

A searing pain went through her head as she saw flashes of what happened during the last battle that she couldn't bring herself to remember up until now. She saw herself backing away from Prince Diamond's hypnotic stare and confessing her love to Darien, and then she... She couldn't see what happened next.

Getting up from the place where she had collapsed in the hallway from her painful visions of past events, she continued to walk to the door that seemed as if it was drawing her into there. It was like one of those things- you know- when something tells you to go somewhere or do something, and if you don't, you know that you'll regret it.

Finally she got to that room that beckoned her, and found someone asleep in a bed.

"Darien?!" She whispered loudly her voice penetrating the silence that surrounded.

She walked over to the bed that Darien was sleeping in, and was about to nudge him to wake him up, but with a 'thud' she collapsed on the ground beside the bed, unfortunately hitting her head on the point of the nighttable beside the bed in the process, which further knocked her into a state of unconsciousness.

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(In Darien's Dreams)

Visions of Serena encompassed his dreams.

"Why am I dreaming of Serena of all people?" Darien said, aware of his dream-like state.

Darien saw a brief moment of Serena and him kissing.

"Woah! We're practically enemies! What's the deal?" He questioned himself.
"Well, sure I might have some friendly feelings deep down for the Meatballhead, but isn't this going a little too far? Since when did I start having passion dreams of Serena? This is really creeping me out,' he said and a new vision arised.

Serena was laying on the floor next to him and looking as if she was dead.

"NOOOO!!!! SERENA!!!!" He said and woke up with a start. Beads of sweat slipped down his body as he tried to gain back some composure.

(A/N: he's not dreaming anymore just if u didn't catch that transition)

He went to get up from the bed he was in and thought with wide eyes, 'Um... this isn't my bed!' Darien went to get off of it, but then he was greeted with the sight of the last vision of Serena in his dream except, a pool of blood surrounded her head.

"Oh my god! Serena?!" He said and his doctor training mode went into effect.

'Okay, I need to stop the bleeding he said, and tore a piece of his shirt off, and tried to bandage her forehead and make due with what he had.

Suddenly, a figure stepped into the doorway. The women engulfed in shadows said, "There is no need for that, I have my maid who is also a nurse summoned."

"Who are you?" Darien asked with curiosity.

"I cannot tell you this, but I can say that Serena will be fine," she said.

"How can you be sure of that?" he asked.

The woman said, "I am living proof," and stepped out of the shadows.

"Serena?! Now this is getting way too weird," he said taking in how much older and matured she looked, especially in the beautiful white satin strapless dress that she was wearing.

"I am not completely her anymore, but yes Prince, you are correct," she said.

"Why did you just call me prince?"

"You are one, but you will not remember any of what has happened when you awaken," she said and touched his forehead gently as a bright light emitted from it.

The nurse maid finally came and curtzied deeply to Neo Queen Serenity saying, "Your Highness."

"Elaine, you have no need to talk to me so formally, we are good friends," the queen said warmly.

"Oh, yes... Thank you Your-" but stopped and kept to the queen's wishes.

"Serena is over there on the ground, she just fainted of exhaustion and hit her head on the nighttable is all," she said knowingly.

"How, do you know?..."

"Don't forget she is my past self, I remember everything to this day..." the Neo Queen Serenity said.

"Oh yes, how could I have forgotten," Elaine said and went over to Serena.

"Oh, and Neo Queen Serenity," Elaine asked, "Will the prince be alright?"

"Yes," she answered, "I have just erased only his memories gained from the palace, nothing more. He will awaken when he gets back to his own time."

"Domo arigatou-gozaimasu for explaining this to me," Elaine said and curtzied.

The queen walked off to somewhere else in the palace as Elaine, as strong as she was, carried Serena back over to her room.

Elaine took off the bandage of Darien's torn shirt piece, off of Serena's head placing it on the nightstand to her bed and thought, 'What a kind man he has turned out to be," Elaine finished bathing Serena, to clean the cuts from her fall that were prone to infection,
and put on the final bandages.

She lit a fire in the fireplace of Serena's room, and in no time, the room was a pleasant, liveable temperature once again. Placing Serena on the bed, she shut off the lights and closed the door on her way out saying, "Good luck princess."

The next time that Serena had awoken, she felt much better- other than the headache from the fall that was aching to no end-, she had awaken to Neo Queen Serenity in her room whom asked her, "Are you feeling better?"

"Yes, but where am I and who are you?" Serena asked the queen.

Neo Queen Serenity walked up to Serena gracefully and told her to touch her hands, as she held them out infront of her.

Serena did as she was told and a golden and pink light engulfed her as she remembered everything that happened to her and all the previous knowledge that she had gained.

She let go when all her memories had been restored, and said tearfully, "Diamond- I remember everything... all the pain and fear... and of how he was trying to rape and kill me... but... what h-h-happened to him," she sobbed out of pain and anguish.

"Do you not remember the bright light that I have shown you that was emitted from your body?"

"I remember...," Serena said.

"Good because now I must explain something else that will make sense of everything to you."

She waited for Serena to gain back her composure momentarily, and continued, "That bright light, was the Silver Crystal protecting you, and your will to get away from Diamond and strength of your love for Darien is why it did just that," Neo Queen Serenity said in remembrance.

"But, how could it? The silver crystal was in my brooch and Diamond had my brooch. I wasn't even transformed into Sailor Moon,
and how could it-"

The queen interrupted, "Remember when Diamond captured you at first whilst you were in this palace after gaining knowledge of you future of becoming Queen, and upon finding out that Rini is your daughter in the future? Well, there was a bright light that engulfed you as you were forced away and shot at with some nega-energy from his knife."

"Wasn't that just him kidnapping me and- No, wait. It couldn't have been just him disappearing with me out of there. I've seen him transport himself places, and he just sort of apparates there, he doesn't flash there..." Serena said in deep thought.

"That bright light wasn't from Prince Diamond at all, but from your brooch. The Silver Crystal had sensed the danger that you were soon to be in, and then went into your body for when it may be of use, if you hadn't access to your brooch at the time."

"So the Silver Crystal is inside of me? How do I use it, and how will I transform into Sailor Moon now that I still don't have my brooch?"

Neo Queen Serenity took something out of a subspace pocket in her long flowing gown. It was her locket. It didn't look damaged and looked better than new.

"H-how did you get that?" Serena wondered.

"I recreated it. The old one is of no use to you anymore. It is still inside Prince Diamond's old palace, and is broken anyways. I have made a new brooch for you. It is almost exactly like your other one, but there is more power now in it. I amplified the power it contained by two times. You will need it in future youma battles." Neo-Queen Serenity stated.

"Where are the scouts, my friends... and where is Rini?" Serena asked out of concern for the people most dear to her.

"They are fine. Although, previously they had blacked out due to the loss of energy it took them to fight at that powerful youma, while you were at Prince Diamond's Palace. I have sent them back to the past unknowingly. Their memories have been erased until you decide to reawaken them. It won't be easy if you do, but it is just temporary. They are back to their normal lives. As for Rini, like the others, she does not remember a thing. While battling Diamond unknowingly with the Silver Crystal, you have caused Rini and Darien to forget and have therefore erased any memories of what happened, so they are back to their previous lives. I would be careful about giving Darien and Rini their memories back," she admonished.

"Why?" Serena asked trying to take in all this information.

"Time will tell, is all I can say," Neo-Queen Serenity said, "As for now, you have a rough time ahead of you. Good luck with everything, and realize that me being here, is proof that nothing has been blown off course from all the memories that have been tampered with and erased," the queen said.

"Arigatou, for everything," Serena said and asked the queen, "But one final question... Um... how do I get back home and along with Darien too, which if I recall from the memories you have given me is still unconcscious in the other room?"

"Just transform with your new brooch and your normal transformation phrase. Since your power has been amplified you can make it with just enough energy to get back to your time if I give you a boost of some of my energy also."

"Thank you," Serena said and hugged a surprised Neo-Queen Serenity and shouted, "Moon Prism Power!" while holding her brooch up high. She grabbed the bandage that Darien made for her and put it in her subspace pocket just for memories sake. She transformed and ran over to Darien's room, carried him with a strength she never knew she had, and went back to the Queen, and said, "Well, I guess this is it. Ja ne," Sailor Moon said and willed herself to be in her time and said the words as they came to her, "MOON... PRINCESS... TRANSPORT... ACTIVATION!" The queen gave her a boost of her power from the silver crystal, and Sailor Moon disappeared quickly back to the Gates of Time where Pluto awaited, and sent her back to her time.

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(Present Time FLASH BACKS OVER A/N: Finally!)

Serena was pensive, as she looked out across the pond from the bridge she was on.

"What did you mean before?" Darien asked referring to the previous comment at the Crown Arcade.

"Huh?" Serena was startled as she was swept out of her reverie out by surprise from hearing Darien's voice.

"It was nothing," Serena lied through her teeth and looked down morosely thinking about the comment he had made after seeing her bad school report card.

"Wouldn't want to show that to my parents if I were you..." Dariens voice repeated over and over through her head as she closed her eyes frustratedly.

"What's wrong?" Darien asked concerned.

"Never mind... I'm going to be late for something. I have to go, good bye Darien," Serena said and ran back to her house; rivers of hot tears trailing down her cheeks rapidly.

'Bringing back all of those memories hurt so much,' Serena's stomach tightened and she got that disturbing choked up feeling inside of her. She needed to release all the pain inside of her; the anguish, the frustration.

When she got home, she went into her bathroom and pulled out a razor and kept repeatidly cutting herself. It gave her that momentarily relief that she had looked forward to all day. She craved it and it craved her, and no matter how much it would hurt in the morning, and no matter how much she knew she shouldn't be doing this, she kept on hacking away at her upper arms, and legs. Blood oozed from each cut and slid down her porcelain skin, which was now tainted with the blood droplets everywhere. She let out a sigh of relief when she felt that she had inflicted enough pain, and cuts on herself, and until she had enough of that temporary relief. Hearing the sound of the alarm on her cellphone going off that meant she had to get ready for work, she sighed in depression of having to work all night practically every night it seemed- and hacked away a couple more times at her arm to have more temporarily stress relief. Hearing Rini and Sammy coming home from school, she quickly washed up, and put on her sweatshirt, and capris on just time enough before they could walk in and see her all bloodied up.

Rini and Sammy walked upstairs after looking everywhere downstairs for Serena. They found her in the bathroom going to close the door, but then they saw something.

"Serena? What is that stuff in the bathroom sink and on the floor?" They asked.

To her horror they were talking about the blood that she had forgotten to clean up in her hurry that covered a greater part of the bathroom.

A/N: Wow, that was a nice long chappie for you, eh? Well, reviews with suggestions to improve my writing, or just stuff you liked about it, or didn't like about it, or wanted to comment on, are encouraged. Oh and thank you very much everyone who reviewed in the last chapter. You guys always make my day! Okays well pretty please review? gives puppy dog face hehehe Ja ne!

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