Day 9-still still still still continuing

I still cant believe im still writing about that one night well still continuing it,I last written the part about me telling inuyasha everything,

"Inuyasha."taking a deep breath I let it all out.

"when I first met you I thought you where a selfish jerk with a attitude" inuyasha frowned

"but..the more I got to know no the more ,knew that there was more to you then meets the eye."

"when kikyou came back,it was surprising to me to you too.i hated to see you so sad.it hurt me"bting my lip I tried to think of some else to say

"when I first..saw you with kikyou kissing something inside me broke st first I really didnt know what the feeling was.maybe I was just embarrassed to see you kissing someone,but then I realized it was. Jealousy" there I said it I was jealous

"when I realized that I felt dirty inside for feeling that way,I mean why would I feel jealous you where happy,so I was happy right…but I just didnt understand what my heart was trying to tell me." I said god this is harder then I thought.

"But I went on not thinking about it,till the next time I saw you with her." I bit my lip again tasting the blood this time.

"when you looked at me there,that look it scared me,not knowing what you where thinking"

"ka.."

"no I said let me finish!"I yelled.that shut him up

"I went home ,I need to think,I thought about how kikyou made you happy,how I was just in the way,and maybe I should just give you back the jewel shards.i decided to go with the jewel." Taking adeep breath again I continued

"I was about to jump down when I realized I was crying,I didnt want you to see me crying" shaking my head

"I felt like kikyou was in the way that's went I mentally hit myself how could I have just thought that,that was so cruel of me even to think such a thing" realizing that inuyasha was waiting for me to finish.

"I sat by the goshinboku,that's when I finally figured out what my heart was trying to tell me,I …love"a deep breath

"You inuyasha" tere its out its so out.

"But why would you love someone like me huh reincarnation,copy like kikyou said I wa.." shit I said that

"she said what?" his eyes went wide

"nothing she said nothing" I said quickly I little to quick.

"why didnt.."

"why I didnt tell you come on inuyasha think about it would you have believed me,would you have believed that when I was posed and shot you that I didnt jump down the well because I was scared kikyou pushed me down,you wouldnt have believed me no way in hell" omg did I just tell him that.

"What else did you never tell me about kikyou,kagome"

"that's it.."I said

"lyer"he yelled

"im not"I yelled back.

"so that's why I never told you a thing,I just want you to be happy" there it was out all out gone a done with .

"im done"I mumbled.now it was his turn to tell me what he felt.

"Kagome,kikyou she means the world to me." He said,I winced

"if I had known that was how you felt I wouldnt have done such horrid things to hurt you." He said looking at he ground.i glad inuyasha was in his human form he wouldnt be able to say in his hanyou form

"and,I love her kagome im sorry" he mumbled.my heart shattered staring into nothingness as inuyasha walked back to the cave.

"but shes dead." I whispered closing my eyes. He still loves her after she is gone from this world for good dame oh coarse he does I just told my heart out to him and he blew me off.

I decided that the cave was better then being out here so I followed behind him.

We made it too the cave and he sat down leaning against the wall

I walked across the fire place to the opposite side sitting I leaned against the wall also.

Slowly falling asleep.

3 hours later (I estimated)

"kagome wake up" someone was shaking me hard trying to wake me up

"Inuyasha 10 more minutes the jewels can wait"I mumbled so used to saying that

"No kagome I know they can but that's not what i..god dame it girl you sleep like a log"that woke me up

"I do not sleep like a log"I yelled at who ever was yeling at me.

"finally"I looked at inuyasha his violet eyes looking directly into my soul or so it felt

"INuyasha?"I looked at him

"im such an idiot." He confessed.

"idiot?what do you mean?"

I wasnt thinking clearly kagome,what I meant was that I just dont deserve you ."

"wha.."

"You need comone much better then me"

"No I dont I dont need anyone but you." I said looking at the ground.

"but why are you saying this?" I asked

"Because i…" he stopped mid sentence and just stared at me

"huh,inu.."I couldnt finsh my sentence because that's when

HE KISSED ME! Omfg I could not wait to ge to this part writing it down is so exciting but experiencing it wow more amazing then watching kikyou die.

His kiss was so warm and welcoming .i couldnt help but kiss him back it was a dream come true ,I still did not know if he loved me or not but why the heck did that matter inuyasha was kissing me.once he pulled away,my face was cant say it kagome I can only.." he stopped

"I understand,."I said looking at him

"you mean more to me then you think kagome."he said,now I was crying I couldnt help it I mean god. So I hugged him,his warm body against mine made me feel at home,now I knoew how he felt he didnt have to say those words .i just knew he loved me.

"Im sorry."I said really not knowing why I was sorry for.

"sorry? He pulled me away just to look me in the face.

"for saying well,for everything I did do hurt you I guess,this is confession night isnt it." Inuyasha smiled he smiled wow .

"I guess it is." He said pulling me towards him moving his body so that he was leaning against the wall and I was leaning against him my head on his shoulder.

"inuyasha"

"mm" he said his eyes closed

"I want to have a funeral for kikyou." I said looking at the flames of the fire.

"Kagome.."he whispered.
"your to nice for your own good you know that." I smiled

"but…' I said

"yea we will." He answered. I smiled again closing my eyes. Sweet dreams.i thought