I apologize for a late upload on this chapter. Falling sick and having mountain high home works to do… I barely have time to do any personal things… Any way I hope you all enjoy this chapter. And again please excuse my English.. T-T.
"Shizuru!" I shouted. Shizuru didn't even look back.. I ran as fast as I can to catch up Shizuru yet she seems to be getting further. I tried to run faster when suddenly my leg felt numb and I fell down. Looking up, Shizuru's gone. Not even a shadow..
I clench my fist and my hand started trembling. Closing my eyes hard, I try to avoid my tears from dropping. "Natsuki.." a voice called out to me. It was so familiar, I quickly turn around and found Shizuru but she is all in black. More like she is a shadow.
"Shizuru…" I called. I tried to stand up but my leg seems to be stuck. ' What.. Why can't I stand up..' I thought. "Natsuki.. Gomen.." Shizuru said.
I look up and saw Shizuru with another person. Shizuru and that person is still black in colour. I can't even see Shizuru's red and mysterious eyes. "Shizuru.. Whose that person.." I couldn't finish my question as Shizuru cut in "Natsuki.. Gomen.." The same word she said earlier.
"Don't say sorry.. Please.. Shizuru.." I said looking at Shizuru's black figure. Slowly it seems like Shizuru's getting further.. I opened my eyes wide.. 'No.. Don't go.. No.. Shi.. Shi..'
Suddenly everything went shaking more like earthquake.
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"SHIZURU DON'T LEAVE ME!" I shouted almost jumping off from the bed. Sweat were form on my forehead and my hands were trembling.
Brr.. brr.. I turned to look at the cause of that sound and found out that it's my hand phone alarm. I give out a relief sigh.. It's my hand phone's alarm that woke me up. I stand up and switch off my hand phone alarm before placing it into my pocket.
"Its already 7a.m" I whispered to myself. I stretch myself hard and walk to the bathroom to have a shower no thanks to the dream. After shower, I got ready and walk my way to the hotel's car park. 'Shizuru.. I wish that the its just a dream..' I said in my heart.
I got onto my bike and start my journey to Fujino estate. Kyoto sure is a very nice place. There are many old buildings still standing and the atmosphere is so fresh. Green trees can be located almost every corner.
After an half and hour ride, I found myself standing in front of Fujino estate.. I took out my hand phone and dialed a number.
"Hello? Shizuru speaking." Surely its Shizuru. Her calm voice never changed.
"Look out of your main window" I said as the place where I am can be seen from her main window.
"Nat.. Natsuki?" Her voice changed to a more high tone. Then I saw her running to the main window. Her eyes were wide open. I didn't smile.. I can't. I just glaze at her.
Both of us were speechless. Silence took over our conversation. "Please.. Come out.. I need to speak to you." I broke the silence. She place her hand on the window and shook her head.
"Shizuru! I don't care! If your not coming out, I'm storming in!" I said almost shouting. 'How can she said no..' I thought. Then I hung up the phone and give her a deadly glaze. She look down in defeat and walked away.
I waited for few minutes when I heard sound of the gate opening. I turned around and Shizuru's walking towards me.
"Natsuki.. Why are you here.." Her eyes is filled with sadness. I place my finger on her lips and said "This time.. I'll be the one talking.. not you.. just listen." Her eyes were wide open.. and she nodded her head.
"Shizuru.. I don't know why must you follow your parents wish.. You have your own freedom. I have my own freedom.." I said as I look into her eyes. "But as far as I know. I'm already on my bike reaching the maximum speed to get here as soon as possible…" I continue as her tears are starting to build.
"Shizuru.. I never cared about my safety nor my health when I was riding under the rain in such a high speed yesterday. All I cared is you, Shizuru. I love you.. And I don't want anyone to take you away. Unless.. Unless its your wish. Just say the word its your wish.. not your parents.. Then I'm out from your life.." I said as fast as I can. Tears already forming at my eyes. Shizuru's already crying uncontrollably.
"What.. What happens if I said its not my wish?" She said between sobs. I smiled and cubed her face. "Then I'll take you with me but if you said its your wish.. I don't think I would like to live any further. Or.. might as well just end my life." I said in a serious tone. Tears already wetting my face.
Shizuru fell to her knees and started to cry hard. I knell down and embrace her tight. "Shizuru.." I called out her name. She couldn't answer because she's crying too hard. I closed my eyes letting the tears flow out. She pushed me slightly and I released her. Looking at her wiping her tears, I place my hand at her chin to look at her face.
"Natsuki.. I couldn't.. even its not my wish.. but.." She started to cry again.. " I can't! Natsuki.. I just can't!" After saying that she stood up and run into the house. I was little too late to stop her.
I just couldn't believe it.. I let her slip through my fingers. I cried without noticing. Its been long since I last cried. I stand up and look at the main window. Shizuru's standing there and if I'm not wrong, its her parents trying to comfort her. I clench my fist hard.
"ARRR!" I shouted as I punched the ground hard.
The pain from my fist was spread all over my body. I looked back up and saw Shizuru placing her hand on the window as if she was worried about me.. clenching my teeth together, I storm into her house. Just after a few steps, guards were everywhere forming a wall to avoid me from going into Shizuru's house.
Without hesitating, I was involved in a fist fight with the guards. Getting them down one by one surely is a problem for me as I'm not really good in fist fights. I was hurt from head to toe but I have made up my mind not to give up. I'm not letting Shizuru go.
I fight my way until I'm inside Fujino house. Panting hard, I slowly walk towards the living room. Not letting my guard down, I glaze at almost every corner of the house.
"I wonder who is this rude and unexpected guest?" I heard someone talking just right behind of me. It was a male voice, full with Kyoto accent. I turn around and stare at him.. Clenching my fist, I was ready to give that guy a blow on his face.
"Who are you!" I shouted. He closed his eyes and smiled. "I thought I was the one to ask you that question" he said calmly. I look at him as if I'm his greatest enemy. I position myself for another fist fight when suddenly I heard Shizuru yelling my name.
"NATSUKI! STOP!" Shizuru shouted. I was really shock, turning around I saw Shizuru running towards me. She was indeed crying hard as her eyes were almost swollen. I didn't say anything. I just can't find the right word. My heart's aching like mad.. Not only I lost my important sun which keeps me warm.. Now she's asking me to stop before I could hit that man.. Is that man really important to her?
Shizuru place her right hand on her chest before saying "Natsuki.. Please just.. just stop this..". Anger took over me, I look down on the floor. Clenching my teeth together and tears flow out from my eyes.
I turn back to the guy and look at him in a deadly stare. It was really annoying to see that guy smiling away. "Since that I know your name's Natsuki. Let me introduce mine." He said in a teasing way. More less he seems to have Shizuru's personality. The same way that Shizuru always tease me. "Does everyone in Kyoto like to tease people.." I said.
He just smiled before replying "Its up to you to say that. Anyway, My name is Nosindo Senya. You can call me Senya.". As if I was going too call him. 'Wait, did he said Nosindo?' I thought. "Nosindo.. your Nosindo company's son?" I said in quite a high tone.
He nodded "Indeed and I'll be marrying Shizuru tomorrow. And I really hope you don't disturb my future wife…. You good for nothing N..a..t..s..u..k..i" I felt myself burn up. Clenching my fist hard I closed my eyes.
Flash back….
"Natsuki.. I have something to talk with you." Shizuru's voice doesn't seem normal. I turn to look at her.. To my surprise, her face isn't as calm as usual. Its full with sadness and pain.
"Shizuru? What's wrong? What's going on?" I asked walking towards her. She didn't answer instead she just look down on the floor. I cubed her face and look deep into her ruby eyes. She embrace me in a sudden. I was shock but I replied her embrace.
We walked to the crouch and sit down. "Shizuru what's going on? Its not like you. Something happened?" I asked again hoping to get some answer. Looking into her eyes without parting, she sigh in defeat and hand me a letter. The letter is full with flowery scent. "From your parents?" I asked again.
She nodded. "I just received it.. Natsuki.. I.." I didn't let her finish her sentence as I place my finger on her lips. "Its ok.. let me read first." . She didn't say anything. She touched my right hand and we entwined our fingers together. I started to read the letter then.
Dear Shizuru,
How are you there? I hope your fine there. Anyway straight to the point, Your father and I had decided to marry you with the noble son of Nosindo Company. I know its still early but this is for our company's sake.. Please understand this situation. Your father does not want any excuses. Please come back to Kyoto before next month.
p/s: I hope you don't disappoint our wish.
From your dearest mother.
I was froze. Froze in both movement and sentence. "What.. What type of parents is this!" I told Shizuru. "Natsuki.. Please.. I can't do anything.." Shizuru started crying. I tighten our fingers. Looking at her crying, I wish I could just go to Kyoto and slap her parents face.
Shizuru turned towards me and crash herself onto me.. Crying even harder. "Natsuki.. Natsuki.." She called out my name multiple times. I hug her and rested my head on her head. "Shh.. Shizuru don't cry now.. Shh.." I said hoping to calm her down.
"Natsuki.. I don't want to marry anyone except.. except you.. Natsuki.." She said between sobs. Brushing herself on my chest. I was speechless. I'm not really good in comforting any one.. Curse myself on that! Why in times when I'm sad, Shizuru's always there for me.. Why can I do the same to her. I can't even comfort when she's sad.
I pat on her head until she relaxed herself. Her grip on my shoulder loosen and she sat up straight wiping her tears dry. I look at my precious ruby eyes. I cubed her face "Shizuru.. you don't wish to marry that guy right?" She nodded in agreement.
"Then I promise you Shizuru.. I promise I will not let that guy marry you. I'm not letting you out from my hands. There must be a way or another." With that I was rewarded with Shizuru's warm lips. I felt her tears wetting my face. Heck I care about it.
We kissed for quite some time before breaking the kiss for air. "Promise?" She said, her voice changed with all those crying. "Yes. I love you, Shizuru and I won't let anyone to hurt you and to take you away from me." She smiled to me but from that smile I knew she is forcing herself. It was a fake smile. "Ookini, Natsuki. Then I promise you that I'll always be yours.."
I assist her to the bathroom to fresh herself up. While she's washing away all the tears, I crash myself on the bed and relax myself. Closing my eyes, I started to think a way to bring Shizuru out from this nightmare. No way I'm going to lose her because of her god damn parents wish.
After washing her face and so, she changed to her nightgown and sleep beside me. I open my eyes when I felt her warm lips kissing and teasing my ears. She already all calm down. She rest her head on my shoulder and started to play on the edge of my hair. We didn't talk until we fell asleep.
End flash back…
"Shizuru.. Last week when you told me that your going to discuss with your parents. I was so stupid enough to let you go.. Just after a few minutes of your departure, you called back saying you had to marry that guy your parents arranged for you, I finish all my assignment and rush myself here, not only I skipped my college classes, I also skipped my job, Shizuru." I told Shizuru.
"And for your information, I haven't and will never forget the promises we made. I really hope you don't forget yours as well." After saying that I position myself again for another fist fight. Everyone in the house were shock with my action including Nosindo Senya.
"Like what I promised, I'll never let you go.. So please Shizuru… Please… keep your promise.." I started crying. Millions of daggers had pierce through me already. Pain, coldness and loneliness.. I really hope that I could never experience that feeling again. Tears are flowing out like rivers. Clenching my fist, I look into Shizuru's eyes waiting for her answer.
TO BE CONTINUED…
Sorry I couldn't finish this story yet... Anyway Nosindo Senya is just a created character … I'll try to upload the third chapter as soon as I could find some times again. Sorry for the inconvenient. Oh ya to those who had send my reviews. Thank you very much. Arigato Gozaimas!