Chapter Two - A Knife To The Heart
It was like a knife to the heart. Like a blow to the stomach. Her next breath hitched in her throat, and her mouth began to dry up as she searched for some way to speak. Some way to breathe. She wanted to walk out. She wanted to get away from it all. But, her feet wouldn't move any more than her lips would. So, Brooke Davis just stood still. Silent. All she could do was watch as all that she'd known since she was ten years old come crashing down.
"Your getting married?…" Nathan repeated the words just to make sure he'd heard correctly, as Lucas gave him a small nod in response "In two weeks?" he continued with his mouth wide open
"Don't you think you should wait a little longer?" Haley rubbed the side of Lucas' arm as she spoke
"Why?…its what we want" he told them all convincingly, whilst Brooke still didn't speak. Still didn't move.
"But, its so soon" Keith told his nephew from the kitchen table
"You and mom got married a month after you proposed…" he pointed towards Keith as he spoke "And, you guys got married a few months after you met…" he now directed his words at Nathan and Haley.
The four of them; Keith, Karen, Nathan and Haley all looked round at each other. Lucas was right. They'd all got married quickly and they were all happy together. There was no reason why Lucas and Peyton's relationship shouldn't work out the same way "And, this is what you want?" Karen looked Lucas dead in the eye. She needed to know that this was what her son truly wanted. That there was nothing that he wanted more than to make Peyton his wife
"This is what I want, mom…I love her" the blonde young man answered as he gripped Peyton's waist tighter and planted a soft kiss upon her lips. Brooke's hazel eyes shifted away from the happy couple as she felt her stomach plummet. If this was the feeling she was going to get every time Lucas touched or talked of Peyton, she was in for a rough ride.
"Then I guess we should get planning…" Karen's concerned frown turned into a proud smile as she clasped her sons face into her hands and kissed him on the cheek. Brooke failed to even provide a smile as everyone congratulated Lucas and Peyton. She wanted to act like everything was ok. But, that's what it would be; an act. She'd always been good at acting. At pretending. She'd always been good at hiding her pain. But, not to Lucas. He could always tell what she was really feeling. He could always break down the walls she'd build around her.
Lucas distanced himself from others, who were searching the fridge for a bottle of champagne and making wedding arrangements "So, what d'ya think?" he asked Brooke. His familiar blue eyes focusing on hers. She could see there was so much hapiness behind those eyes. The kind of hapiness that she'd thought only she could be the reason for. But, she was wrong. Peyton was the reason for his hapiness. For his wide grin and his nervous figating. She was the reason for it all
"It's, it's…" she stuttered in search of an answer, any answer that wasn't the truth whilst the others spoke excitedly among themselves
"I wanted to tell you sooner, but Peyton wanted to be here when I did…" he explained with his hands grasping hers
"I'm a little shocked…" she understated "I mean, this is so unlike you…you don't do spontaneous stuff like this" she was right. He never did anything like this. He never just acted in the moment. He never just did something that surprised her
"I know its crazy, alright…but this feels right" he couldn't shift the smile from his lips "I cant do this without you, Brooke" he told her genuinely with a tone that made her go weak at the knees "I need you" he stated bluntly. He did need her. He'd always needed her.
She didn't want to cry. So she put all her strength into fighting it back. All her strength into pretending that she was happy for him "Congratulations, Luke" she told him before pulling him into a hug before he could notice her lips begin to tremble.
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Brooke glanced over at Lucas and Peyton who were laid together on the sofa chair at the other side of the living room. There bodies were intertwined, and he would constantly touch the tip of her nose or squeeze her tiny hips as he whispered things into her ear. Brooke didn't know why she was allowing herself to look at them together. She didn't know why she was straining to hear there whispers. She knew deep down inside that whatever she was seeing, whatever she was hearing was only going to hurt her more. It'd always been her and Lucas that would sit together whilst watching movies with the rest of the family. It would always be her he'd whisper things too. But, now things were different and she wasn't sure she'd ever be able to accept that.
"Which flowers do you like?" Peyton murmured just loud enough for Brooke to hear as she flipped through the pages of the magazine on her lap whilst the Nathan, Haley, Karen and Keith continued to watch the movie
"The yellow ones" Lucas answered almost immediately with no effort
"Well, I'm glad you took the time to think about it" the curly blonde replied sarcastically
"The flowers could be dead for all I care…all that matters is that you say 'I do'" Lucas planted a soft kiss on Peyton's head as Brooke couldn't help but to turn away. To focus on anything that wasn't them
"How romantic" Peyton rolled her eyes and continued to flip through the pages of the wedding magazine Karen had picked up earlier
"How about instead of organising stuff for the wedding day, we practice for the wedding night" Lucas raised his eyebrows suggestively and planted warm kisses in the nave of Peyton's neck
Without another thought Brooke rose to her feet and swiftly exited the room. When out of sight she leant with her back against the living room door and closed her eyes. Opening them back up again, she blinked once and that's all it took to squeeze out a single tear. A single tear which she instantly wiped away before anyone, including herself had chance to acknowledge it had ever fallen. Composing herself, Brooke walked down the hallway, stopping at Lilly's open door and smiling warmly to herself.
"Auntie Brookie…" the small, brunette girl called to Brooke who slowly walked into her room and sat on the side of the bed
"What?" Brooke answered, before taking a glance into the nearest mirror to check that there were no signs of her sadness
"Are Luke and Peyton getting married like mom and dad did?" she asked, innocently, whilst keeping focus on her candy pink teddy rabbit. The candy pink rabbit Brooke had bought her one day when her and Lucas had taken Lilly shopping. Lucas had mentioned that Brooke had one just like it when they were kids. He'd told Lilly that Brooke had still carried it around with her until she was eighteen years old and that he had always teased her for it. Brooke had bought Lilly one just to prove a point to him.
"Yeah…" Brooke replied, trying desperately to get rid of the lump that had formed in her throat "What's wrong?" she asked, after seeing the disappointed expression on the little girls face
Lilly looked down with a little embarrassment "I wanted you to be my sister" she told Brooke with a child like tone
"Awww, Lills…I still can be" Brooke lifted Lilly's chin up so that they were eye to eye and rubbed their noses together before trying her best to put on a smile "Besides Peyton is just as good of a sister as I am" she tried to reassure the young girl she'd grown to love more than anything
"But, she doesn't put the little marshmallows in my chocolate drink…and she wont have water fights with me in the house like you and Luke do" Lilly hung her head in disappointment, whilst all Brooke could do was reminisce over old memories in her head. Memories of her, Lucas and Lilly playing games and staying up through the night. Memories of the late night chats, and the midnight walks and the Christmas presents her and Lucas would spend ages shopping for because they could never agree on what to buy. Brooke would always get her own way though. With just one flutter of her eyelashes. With just one dimpled smile. She would have Lucas right were she wanted him. But, not anymore. They'd grown up but now they were about to grow apart. There was nothing she could do about it. Nothing but to admit her feelings and risk losing Lucas forever.
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Thankyou guys soooooo much for the comments and the support for this idea so far, you've all been awesome. A lot of you guys have asked if its gonna be BL or LP in the end, well obviously I'm not gonna tell you haha then you'll have to keep reading to find out more. Anyways, sorry this chapter was so short, its really just a filler chapter for the stuff to come in the next few chapters so please be kind with the comments haha.
Love you guys,
Sophia x