Left Outside Alone

Look I mean I know people are trying to help but there making me feel worse. I let myself fall against the cold tiled wall. What has happened? What have I become. When I was younger I wanted to get married-live a fairytale life. But that's what they are-fairytales, A fantasy. They shouldn't be aloud. They create false impressions, False hopes and dreams.

All my life I've been waiting
For you to bring a fairytale my way

I thought I was so happy, I thought everything was right. But it was never right.


Been living in a fantasy without meaning

What's going to happen. This is the job I've always wanted to do, but now I could end up in prison.

It's not okay, I don't feel safe
I don't feel safe...

I can hear people walking around outside and cell door's banging. I can hear Smithy and the supers voice in the distance.

Left broken empty in despair
Want to breathe, can't find air
Thought you were sent from up above
But you and me never had love
So much more I have to say
Help me find a way

I wish Will was here now. I want something to pull me close and tell me its all right. Someone to say its all a bad nightmare and I'll wake up soon.

And I wonder if you know
How it really feels
To be left outside alone
When it's cold out here
Well maybe you should know
Just how it feels
To be left outside alone
To be left outside alone...

Part of me wishes that I was still with Matt now, at home, in are warm bed, that's one thing I know however cold the atmosphere is my bed always seems so inviting. Maybe its because my dreams take me to a place that is not real, a world of make-believe. The place where the biggest problems are more to do with whether to have coffee or tea instead of deciding that your whole life you've waited for something and know its here its like a living hell.


I tell ya..
All my life I've been waiting
For you to bring a fairytale my way
Been living in a fantasy without meaning
It's not okay, I don't feel safe
I need to... pray

I used to go to Sunday School, I went because my friends went. I never believed in heaven and hell, but now if your out there, whoever you are, if your really there your get me out of here.


Why do you play me like a game?
Always someone else to blame
Careless, helpless little man
Someday you might understand
There's not much more to say
But I hope you find a way

I can't believe that bluddy FME "no conclusive evidence" god you can fucking see them. I wish there was someone else here. Its driving me mad. That's another thing what will Dad say. I hope he doesn't investigate. He'll probably throw the book at me (make an example.) It always been important to him, his job, but I'm still Daddy's Little Girl aren't I?


Still I wonder if you know
How it really feels
To be left outside alone
When it's cold out here
Well maybe you should know
Just how it feels
To be left outside alone
To be left outside alone

I tell ya...
All my life I've been waiting
For you to bring a fairytale my way
Been living in a fantasy without meaning
It's not okay, I don't feel safe
I need to pray

Oh pray
(Heavenly father)
Ohh heavenly father
(Please, save me)
Oh save me

And I wonder if you know
How it really feels
To be left outside alone
When it's cold out here
Well maybe you should know
Just how it feels
To be left outside alone
To be left outside alone

All my life I've been waiting
For you to bring a fairytale my way
Been living in a fantasy without meaning
It's not okay, I don't feel safe
I need to.. pray

I feel my eyelids drop as for the first time since we got to Sun Hill a hear runs down my face. If your there heavenly father, take me away, find a way.