Okay I'm back and I'm deeply sorry for the huge delay and all. I hope you all can understand the situation of being stressed as a vice president of my semester in college and a huge amount of work not to mention not having a strong base in studies making me hard to continue this story but never the less, I will never let this story a side. Thank you for waiting so long. I hope you enjoy this following chapter.
p/s: I'm using other kind of program and my beta reader is on holiday. Sorry for the bad grammar, structure and others.
2 Years Later...
"Natsuki? Hey, honey, wake up already. Its almost time to work now..." Shizuru called as she slightly shook my shoulders. Grumbling, I turn my body to another side ignoring Shizuru to pursuit my lovely sleep. "Another... 30 minutes please..." I said in my sleepy voice. "Natsuki, if your not waking up, I'm strictly going to throw a bucket of ice water straight on your lovable bed and dream!" Shizuru "ordered" in her annoying and irritated tone. Knowing it is only going to be a horrible fight if I protest with Shizuru, I drag myself out from the bed and continue to drag my lazy leg to the bathroom. "Arara, thats my obedient Natsuki-chan" Shizuru teased me as she place her right palm on her face and smiles. Ignoring her irritated and annoying not to mention her usual teasing self, I marched straight into the bathroom to get clean myself.
It has been 2 years that both of us quietly settle down in one of the small village town in Hokkaido. Shizuru started her small tea business and also teaching the young kids about traditional Japanese dancing and tea making to earn some daily money. As for me, we used up some of our earnings to open a small specialize motorcycle repairing shop just a walking distance from our small apartment and Shizuru makes up the profit we get and account when she is free. Our daily living is more less like the local fisherman here. Nothing is actually important except happiness. Money, fame, items are not important as we have got adapted to the living culture here in a very fast time. The most importantly is nothing else then us being together and living peacefully. 2 years back was a horrible and dangerous journey.
Shizuru's father haven't found us yet as we are here living a discreet life and hopefully we can stay on like this. Both me and Shizuru don't want to walk the path of hell again just to achieve what we what. When we were in Sendai 2 years ago, it was lucky that we met Mikoto and she was kind to help us to get over to Hokkaido without being noticed and also she helped us to be stay in this small village as well. Mikoto comes to visit us from time to time when she is free. Chie and Aoi also visited us a few times to relax their mind out of the work and city. Midori only sent us letters but never came to visit us yet though she said she will in time being. Other then that, both of us still hope we can live on like this without being disturbed.
"Natsuki!!! hurry up! You're going to be late if you keep on staring at your cute face!" Shizuru shouted from the kitchen making my face turn into chilly red. "Shi... Shizuru! You don't have to say that you know! I'm coming already!" I said back in my usual irritated tone. Walking behind Shizuru, I pulled her into a embrace from behind and inhale her scent. "Morning my tea... what's your work today hmm?" I said as I rubs my cheek on her back together with her soft hair. "hmm... no classes and business today. So I'm going to follow you to your work shop, my mayo." Shizuru answered as she turn towards me, placing her hands on my shoulder and plant a few kisses on my lips. "Go eat your breakfast and I'll take my bath." Shizuru said with a wink. Looking at her straight into my ruby eyes, I groaned. "Can't you eat breakfast with me?" Shizuru look at me and smiled. "If I do that, I'll end up looking at you instead of my food." Blushing, I look the other way round and concentrate on the breakfast while she slowly makes her way to the bathroom.
After we finish our breakfast, we went to my work shop and it only took a while until customers started to come like flies. As I was busy repairing and taking in motorcycle's to repair, Shizuru starts to do the accounting and budget management together with serving the clients with her superb skill she always had. "Natsuki, why don't you take a break? I made your favorite coffee and sandwich" Shizuru said as she brings a tray of food and place it on the table. Looking at her I smiled, " yea, hold on. Let me get my hands clean.". I walked to the bath room to clean my hand and walk my way to the table, Impatiently wanted to eat the sandwich.
"Hora... Natsuki, your face is full of oil and grease. Clean it first."Shizuru said as she brings out a towel and wipes my face causing my face to burn in red.
"Thanks Shizuru... how's our profit getting? Was it better?" I asked as I munches the sandwich.
"Well... we did get some profit. Additional 9 thousand for this month and last month." Shizuru said as she started to dig out the files which was kept at the table drawer.
"Something better then nothing I guess..." Shizuru smiled at my carefree attitude and said "Hmm... why don't you just say that you aren't worried cause all budget spending is being controlled by me instead of you? What might know the money went just in few weeks."
"Shi.. SHIZURU! I'm seriously NOT that type of person!" I said in an irritated tone as I roll my eyes to the other way.
Giggling, Shizuru leaned over and licks up the mayo which was at my lips. "Thats for not admitting your real self now" Shizuru said as she winked. Blushing, I stared at her dumbfounded as anger and embarrassment takes over my body. "SHIZURUUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
After work...
"God! I never knew you'll so something like that! In front of SO many god dammit people!" I said in a angry tone, still unable to forget what she did to me just now but Shizuru didn't even seem to regret what she was doing as she giggled every time I dig this topic up. "OI! It's NOT FUNNY! Stop your devilish giggling!"I continued.
"I'm sorry honey, but you were just too cute to resist and it's an additional ingredient to be added into you to make the food taste better." She said in her teasing way.
"Shizuru!!!! I'm not a dish! JESSUS!" I said as I slam out apartment door open.
"Arara... if Natsuki keeps doing that its seriously going to tear the door down. No matter how cute you are also my dear, you still can't keep the door away from breaking if you keep doing that you know..." Shizuru said as she place her palm on her cheek. Sighing, I look at Shizuru and said "look, I'm tired to even bother about your teases now Shizuru... just keep it for tomorrow, I don't wanna go busting on you out of no reason Shiz..." I said in a tiring tone as I turn my body to walk straight to the refrigerator to get myself a cold beer.
Opening the the door of the fridge, I took out a can of beer and took one of the left over beer I never manage to finish drinking it and pop it into my mouth. As I was drinking, the cold liquid flows down my throat and the refreshment of the coldness down towards my throat. "Natsuki honey... I'm sorry to have pissed you off..." Shizuru apologized as she slits her hands to my waist and pulled me close to her and started to kiss my neck and slowly down to my shoulders. "Mmm... Shiz... not now honey. I'm tired..." I said as I touch the back of her hair as she continues to plant kisses on my shoulders. Taking my hairs with her hands, she inhales the smell of my hair and said "Hmm... go take a cold shower honey, I'll prepare the things to give you a good massage."
Smiling, I close my eyes and turn towards her and kisses her lips. "Thank you Shizuru. It means a lot to me." I said that and search my way to the bathroom. Turning the water tap and sinking myself into the bath tub, I close my eyes and relaxes myself.
Recalling Dream...
Repairing my motorcycle which was in a bad condition, I thought that my bike have treated me in a way I can't never repay it. If it wasn't because of the speed of this bike and the good equipments which was installed, heck, me and Shizuru might have been in the ground with tomb stones carved with our names on it.
Suddenly, sounds of footsteps came into my work shop and knocks everything down. Shocked, I tried to stood up but before I manages to stand up, I heard the sound of a falling tray to the ground. There, Shizuru was standing there. Trembling, scared and looking dumbfounded, I quickly stood up and turn to took at the direction of where Shizuru was looking at. My heart stopped at that very moment as my mouth dropped. It was Shizuru's father and his guards there standing right in front of us. Slowly I tried to walk to Shizuru but I was too late.
The guard caught me by my hand and twisted my hand behind causing a sharp pain straight into my heart and I shouted of pain. He then kicked the posterior of my knees causing my legs to go weak for a split second and he pushed my down to the floor and maintain it like that so I couldn't escape.
"Natsuki! Father! Let go of Natsuki!" Shizuru demanded as she, herself tried to run towards me only to be blocked by her father's guards. Shizuru's father stares straight into Shizuru eyes and it looked like his eyes is burning with vicious fire.
"Shizuru! Come back with us now! How dare you dishonor Fujino family!" Shizuru's father shouted is anger. Pointing the gun straightly at my direction. Trembling, I was calling for Duran in my heart, hoping it'll come and save me right now.
"Father, I'll never go back to you. I'm not longer Fujino! I'm Shizuru Kuga!" Shizuru shouted back to the peak of her voice. "Last warning Shizuru. Come back with us or your regret it!" Her father commaned again. Shizuru looked at me and I shook my head giving the negative answer. Filled with tears, Shizuru followed my answer and said "No… I'm sick of your orders father… I have my own life, my own love…. And it is right here with Natsuki!"
"BANG!", the sound of the gun shoot echoed…I didn't know what happen, I felt nothing, but I could feel myself falling and blood was spreading out from my chest. I look at Shizuru and I could see her running towards me bursting out in tears. 'Shi… Shizuru… I… was shoot?' My eyes started to filled up with blackness. "NATSUKI!!!" Shizuru shouted and instantly everything went black…
Opening my eyes slowly, I look up at the ceiling and I was thinking if it was a warning. The dream just kept coming back as if its warning me that something like that is going to happen. Sighing, I came out from the bath tub and dries up myself and wore a oversized T-shirt with tights and walks out from the bathroom to see Shizuru lighting up candles all over our bed room and a towel laid prepaired for me and my angel of love standing there smiling.
Walking towards me, she takes my hand and kisses my forehead before leading me to the bed. "Lie down on your chest, I'll take care of everything for you." Shizuru said between her smile.
I got up and bed and lie down on my stomach and closses my eyes as Shizuru trace her finger from my shoulder down to my waist. "Hora... Shizuru... your suppose to massage. Not this."
Giggling, Shizuru answered "Gomenasai, your body is too mouth dripping thats why." "Whatever" I said as Shizuru started to massage my body. Shizuru's slender hands were hot and smooth as she expertly massages my sore body slowly and tenderly. Feeling her strong fingers giving out strong and smooth strokes and her breath showering my body was so nice as it started to get me aroused.
The night eventually turns out to be romantic night rather then a massage which Shizuru promised it to be. The next day, I woke up feeling very weird in my heart as if its very uncomfortable. Looking at Shizuru under the blanket, I touced her cheeks and strokes it down with my small finger softly. Slowly, she opens her ruby eyes and smiled at me. "Morning love. How's you today morning?" Shizuru asked as she plays with my hair but never broke our eye contact.
Smiling back at her, I kissed her forehead. "I'm fine. Thanks for yesterday. I feel much more better now." For the first time, Shizuru blushed and sat up. "Looks like someone got me eventually." Hell yea, as if I'm that good.
"Hmm... it depends Natsuki. No matter how much I tease you, I'll still lose to you no matter what I can ever do to you" Blushing, I look at Shizuru and sighs.
"Whats wrong? You seem to be troubled with something. Care to tell me?" Shizuru as she turn her sitting position facing me. Looking at her eyes, it was enough to kill my heart. I shook my head and said "No... it was nothing. Just the same dream which I have since last time. And I still can't figure what message it's trying to carry. I... I don't know Shizuru... I'm getting worried as the things is getting clearer and clearer each passing day."
"The same dream about you bring shot by my father?" Shizuru asked and I nodded my head.
"Yea... it was practically the same and suprisingly it never changes. It just stays the same ever since I dream about it. The only thing that changes is the background image is getting clearer and clearer... Yesterday's dream is heck too real as if it was real life..."
Silence then took over the conversation as I stares down at the sheets while Shizuru places her hand on top of mine. "I don't think god's going to be so cruel to break us apart again... If it does, it might be another of our trial..." Shizuru said in her worried tone though she tried to sound as if she's very calm and confident with her words.
Closing my eyes, I hugged Shizuru close to me and kiss her ears. "Lets get ready to go to the work shop." Both of us got out from out bed, Shizuru went to make breakfast while I went straight into the bathroom to get myself washed. Looking on my reflection on the mirror, I closed my eyes as I sighs.
Flashback
It was raining heavily for weeks already. I was in the school garden where I met Shizuru under the shower of the rain, I stared at one of the rosses there. "You took alot of time and energy to bloom this beautiful didn't you?" I said as I touches the rose. Those were the words that Shizuru said when I almost crushed one of the rose here. 'Shizuru... Why can't I ever take her image off from me... Hime festival is over, will I be able to see her again? There's no longer anymore use if I go and use her laptop since Hime festival is long over and I can never get any information about my mother using the school's information...' I thought.
Then, the image of Shizuru's lips coming near me came into my mind and I blushed. Touching my lips with my index finger, I imagine Shizuru's soft lips were pressing on mine. 'WAIT! What the hell!? Why am I thinking about this! JESSUS!' I suddenly realise what I was thinking and my face turned red. Shaking my head hard from left and right I tried to throw that image out of my mind but it failed.
"Why do I bother to lie to myself... It's only going to be a lie if I were to admit she's only like a friend to me when she's not..." I whispered only to myself. Sighing, I sat up straight and place my palm on my forehead as I stared down at the grass. 'I wonder how she felt when I just avoided her right after the kiss I gave her... and also the Hime festival... Will she be hurt?' I thought as I was too caught up with my emotion about her. Frusfrated, I stood up and walked my way to the student coucil room knowing Shizuru will be there at this time.
Before I reached the student council room, I saw Shizuru coming out from the room and I hid myself to avoid Shizuru from noticing me. It was then Haruka, shouted at Shizuru's name with Yukino behind her trying to calm her down. After confronting with Shizuru, they all went back into the room. Must be about something to do with the school again I said as I massages my forehead. Leaning on the wall, I closed my eyes and waited for Haruka and Yukino to finish their "talk".
It took them about 45 minutes to finish their meeting as Haruka and Yukino comes out from the room and paid respect to Shizuru before heading back to their hostel. But I wasn't concerntrating on them, I was waiting for Shizuru but her image was no where to be seen. The door closses and I knew Shizuru decided to stay in the room. 'Thats so not her. She's usually eager to leave the room since its so boring and it only cause her tension to grow when ever she's there.' I thought. Though I was worried about her, it took me sometime to actually collect my guts to walk to the door. I raised up my hand and before I opne the door, I heard as if it was someone crying. 'Crying? Wait... the only person in that room is Shizuru... Why... Why is she crying?' I thought. 'Was it because of me?...'
Slowly I open the door and peeked inside to see Shizuru covering her mouth and cried softly. My heart ached as I see her crying. "Natsuki... why did you avoid me... Why..." Shizuru said between her sobs. A stab of pain went straight into my heart. 'It's... because of me... Oh god... Shizuru I'm sorry... I didn't...' I thought as tears suddenly flowed out from my eyes. Closing the door, I wiped my tears away and walked towards the rest room to refresh myself. 'I shouldn't have avoided her since I knew how she felt and my feelings as well.' I blamed myself again.
After I finish composing myself, I walked out from the rest room only to see Shizuru peeking into Mai's classroom and I hid myself in the rest room again. I stared at Shizuru silently as I witness that Shizuru's eyes enlarged and she walked away very fast. 'Okay... Natsuki, this is the very nice time to tell her the truth...' I thought. But still, I was afraid to confront her. 'Gah! If I don't approach her, I'm only going to lose her and I'm sick of this lonesome feeling.'
Following her, my eyes was wide open when I saw Shizuru walked straight into the rain heard Shizuru said "I shouldn't have open that door! I shouldn't!". Worried, I randomly grabbed someone's umbrella to have shelter and chased towards Shizuru. "Thats so not you to walk under the rain you know" I blurred out as I see Shizuru looked at me in a awkward way. "Arara, Natsuki's worried about me, Ookini." She answered back.
Our conversation then turned silence as we walked. I wanted to say something when I heard Shizuru said "Ne... Natsuki? I.." I was eagerly wanting to know what happen when the god damn rain began to pour like mad. Both of us then made our way as fast as possible to the nearest shop which was already closed. We stood there and again the awkward silence began to take over. "What is it you want to tell me?" I broke the silence as it was contaminating us for too long. "Huh?, ara, it was nothing. Don't worry about it." Shizuru said and I knew she was trying to hide something from me.
"Oh, Okey. Can I ask you something then?" I said as I look into her eyes. Shizuru approved and smiled. Relieved I wanted to ask her for a relationshipbut I fear it's only going to be too straightforward so I ended up asking why was she saying that she shouldn't open the door. Shizuru's facial expression changed and she hugged me in the sudden. "Shi... Shizuru?" I called out her name in fear. "atashi mo anta wa suki dayo, Natsuki." Shizuru whispered into my ears and pushed me apart causing my face to turn chilly red.
Shocked, I asked, "Shizuru... thats not the answer I..." Shizuru cut me short as she pulled me into an embrace and kissed me. That was a little bit too much for me to take in the sudden so I ended up struggling with her but relaxed after Shizuru slits her tongue into my mouth. I started to kiss her back when her hand suddenly came up to my breast and cupped it. Nevertheless, I was shocked and I started to struggle again and she released me. All the action made my knee's goes weak as I fall straight on my knees, tears flowed out from my eyes and I couldn't imagine what Shizuru did to me.
"I... I'm sorry... I... didn't mean to... I mean... I'm sorry Natsuki!" Shizuru said as she broke out in tears and ran off towards the rain. I looked up and wanted to chase her but the rain was pouring too heavy I failed to locate where she went at all. I stared down at the floor and trace my lip line. 'Thats it... I'm going to tell her tomorrow. I can't lose her... this is too painful to bear.' I thought as I stood up, wiped my tears dry, took the umbrella and walked to the place where I parked my motorcycle.
The next day in school, I didn't get to see Shizuru anywhere. I searched up and down the whole school for her and yet I never seem to have see her anywhere. ' Did she fall sick? She did after all ran into the rain yesterday...' I thought. Then I went to the student council room and I notice that she's not there but there's a written annoucement in the board saying there's a meeting and I looked at my watch. 'She's in the meeting...' I thought. I was about to walk away from the room when I thought 'She might want to avoid me for what she did yesterday... No... I'm going to make her come out from her room.' I walked to the frus where she always kept her hot water and pour them all away. 'In this way, she'll have no choice but to come out from this room to the canteen to get hot water.' I walk out from the room and close the door shut and went to the canteen to wait for her.
Waiting for about 25 minutes, I heard the bell going off. Looking at my time I realise that it was already lunch time. My eyes started to search for her in the canteen and eventually I was right, though it took another 30 minutes. Shizuru was carring a bottle without the cover to ask for hot water. Not wasting anymore time, I walk towards her until I was behind her. 'Dub, Dub, Dub,' My heart started to pump loudly as my hands starts to tremble. Waiting for her, I see her taking the hot water from the canteen helper asking her to becareful of the hot water. When Shizuru turned, I looked at her straight into her eyes and she was startled. Dropping the hot water, I was in time to avoid it hot water while Shizuru didn't. The hot water splashed at her hand and quickly she covers her hand and closses her eyes in pain. Paniced, I quickly grab a cup filled with ice and place it on Shizuru's hand and I was still looking at her face. I noticed that her tears was forming and just in a split second, she ran off before I could even know.
'DAMN! She's fast!' I thought as I started to chase after her. "Shizuru! I need to talk to you! Hold up!" I shouted as I chased her. Our chase games almost came to the end when she was nearing the student council room when suddenly she seems to be weak and she had to support herself from falling, fearing she that something was wrong I supported her elbow only to be rewards by a painful scream from her. Quickly, I let go of her elbow and I notice her eyes started to close and her body went limb. Instantly I supported her with my body. "Shizuru! Get hold of yourself!" I said but Shizuru fainted. I place my hand on her forehead and to my shock, she was having high fever.
Looking left and right, I saw everyone looking at me as if I did something wrong to their "precious" president. 'I need to bring her off from here before her fans comes and kill me thinking I made her faint!' I thought as I carried her and ran to take my bike.
I brought her back to my home and place her on my bed. I ran to the bathroom to get a wet cloth to place on her forehead and covers her with my blanket. Touching her cheek and slowly going down to her lips I bend down and kissed her lips soflty. "Shizuru... I'm sorry to have avoided you. I shouldn't have... I... I love you..." I said as I sat down beside her and took her hand in mine. I was looking at her breathing when I suddenly fell asleep.
"Dum." the sound of my door closing which woke me up. I was still sleepy when I realise that the dum sound is the closing of my main door and when I look down at the bed, I was already too late. Shizuru already left with a note there. Reading the note, I felt the anger filled my body. "DAMN IT!" I shouted as I wore my leader suit, took my keys and rode my way to her hostel hoping she'll be there. If she's not there, she might be in the school. 'why did I fall asleep...' I thought.
I reached in her hostel and banged on her door. "Shizuru! Open up!" I said then my eyes started to search for her shoes but it wasn't there. Turning my body I ran down the stairs and hop back on to my bike and headed to the school. Just as I reached the school, I took off my helmet and place it on my bike and made my way to the student council room in a constant speed and I stop my track just in front of the room. I almost slid the door open when I heard footsteps coming nearer and nearer and so I waited there, knowing Shizuru will eventually open the door.
It seems like forever for the door to eventually open and Shizuru froze in her place as she looks at me with her mouth dropped to the floor. "What... wha..." Shizuru tried to say something but I pushed her slightly which caused her to back off a little as I step into the room and close the room shut. I stood up straight and stares straight into her eyes waiting for an answer. It was then, Shizuru place a fake smile and said "Natsuki, I got to go now. I need to do something." Not letting her walk away like that, I grab hold of her wrist and pulled her towards me as I pressed my lips on her's. Slowly, her hands slits around my wet waist and started to return my kiss.
It lasted a couple of minutes before we broke up for air and Shizuru instantly avoided from looking at me as she stares at the ground and started to cry. I raise up her face and she turned another direction, I look at her with an aching heart to see someone I love suffers so much because of me. "Shizuru... I love you" I said straight into her ears. I felt a sudden reaction as she turns to look at me and tears were coming out of her eyes as she covers them with her hand. 'Shizuru... what have I done to you... I shouldn't have done something like this...' I thought. Closing my eyes tight, I pulled her close to me as made sure her head rested on my shoulders.
"Shh... don't cry now... I'm sorry Shizuru..." Shizuru started to cry harder as I said those words and I let silence take over us as I held on to Shizuru and slightly pat her head. After a while, Shizuru pushed me and I released her only to hear she saying "Why are you saying sorry?" Shizuru said as she wipes her tears off. "I'm sorry to have avoided you after the Hime festival. I didn't knew what I'm fear off..." I answered her back. It was then, Shizuru started to giggle. "You're just scared that your feelings towards Masashi Takeda will fade off..." 'WHAT!?' I thought without taking notice of what Shizuru is still saying and I pressed my lips towards hers.
"It's okay, what's past is a past and Masashi Takeda can't compare to you Shizuru..." I said as I hug her again and this time, Shizuru hugged me back. The feeling of joy and happiness was overwhelming me as I felt like my heart just skipped a few beats.
"Shizuru..." I called.
"Yes?" "It's best if you go see the doctor now, you're having high fever..." I adviced Shizuru only to be get back a shocked Shizuru. "Oh." She answered. 'Don't tell me...' I thought.
"You didn't know your sick!?" I said in a high tone to indecate that I'm shocked.
"Well... I can't think of something wrong with me when I keep thinking about how much you will hate me..." Shizuru said with a smile and looked down. "Shizuru... What's wrong? Feeling uncomfortable?" I asked at her sudden changes.
"Natsuki... please... please don't hate me..." Shizuru said as she started to sob.
"What? I can never hate you. Not in a billion years!" I reassure her about my feelings towards her.
"Promise?" She asked. I look at her glassy eyes and replied "Yes, if we could stop talking and get you to see the doctor"
Immediately, her face changed horrified as she said "Doc... Doctor? Can't we just go see Yohko Sensei?" She asked. "No! No excuses! Don't tell me the president of student council is afraid of the doctor when she can kill them easily" I said in a grin.
"Nat... NATSUKI!" Shizuru shouted as her face turned red. 'Gotcha!' I said in my heart. Giggling upon her action, I whispered to her "Don't worry, if he dares to hurt you, he'll be the first to eat my gun"
Shizuru smiled and I kissed her before bringing her to the clinic.
End of flashback...
"Honey, breakfast's ready!" Shizuru shouted from the kitchen. A smile creep into my face. "I'll be there in a second!" I said as I exits the bathroom and to the dinning table to see Shizuru sipping her morning tea. "Traditional japanese breakfast eh?" I said as I sat down and started to dig in. "Hmm if you eat slowly, you'll know the additional ingredient I added into it." Shizuru said as she winked her eyes to me. "I notice, you added mayo into my one. Thanks." I said as I started to chew it slower.
"Ne... Natsuki? You think my father will actually accept us now? I mean its been 2 years since we are hiding in this small village..." Shizuru with a sad tone. Looking at her, I knew how she felt. She still have her mother and father over there. The one that brought her to this world and to live on and yet she's here ignoring and protesting her parent's words to be with me in this small village. Moreover, I'm sure she's very worried about her family conditions over there as she can't get a brief infomation about it anywhere near here.
Sighing, I stared down at my food. "Shizuru... I know how you feel completely... you are worried abouot your parents and their health not to mention how they are progressing after the things that have happened. But... I don't think your father is going to accept us, Shizuru. Look at us, we are both females. Which parents would want anyone to know his or her daugther is a lesbian... expecially that you are well-known in Japan..."
Shizuru's facial remain unchanged as tears started to flow out. "I missed them, Natsuki... I missed them alot... I know I'm happy with you, but I'm seriously, seriously missing them..." She between her sobs.
I got up from my seat and embraced her tight. I held her tight as she turned her face to look at me. "Will god ever forgive this disgraced child?" She asked. Hearing those words, I can feel the pain and coldness in her heart effecting mine. "Shh... I'm sure god will still have love on both of us though we are against the human law..." I said and peeked a kiss on her lips.
I was about to walk back to my seat when I felt a sudden pull by my wirst. Caught unbalanced, I tripped and fall down to the floor. "Argh... that hurts..." I said and felt two hands wrapping my waist. 'Shizuru...' I thought as she burried her face on my shoulders. I stayed in that position, on top of Shizuru in her embrace. "Shizuru... it is up to you if you want to go back. No matter what, I'll alwats be with you and that I promise you. Even if it is only gonna be a death way back I don't mind. I just want you to be happy..."
Shizuru said nothing except shaking her head in replace of the answer no. 'If only I can do something to make her sadness go away and her parents to accept me... I don't mind doing it just for you Shizuru...' I thought as I separate her from my shoulders and gave her a long and passionate kiss.
Outside the work shop...
"Shizuru... wait." I said as I realise something. Shizuru stopped her track and turn around to look at me. "Whats wrong? You forgotten something?" She asked. "No... but... this image... The Yamaha motorcycle on the left..." I walked to the letter boxed and said "A letter saying my external wire and top graded engine will be sent tomorrow..." Just as a said that, I place my hand into the letter box and pulled out a letter indicating the same thing I just mentioned. Shizuru's facial became horrified and ran to open the garage door to see the Yamaha motorcycle lying on the left side of the work shop. "Last but not least..." I said as I turn my body around facing the road and stared at the a number of black mercedes-benz parked not far from out workshop. "Your father's bodyguard ready to arrest us... and to kill me." I continued. Shizuru's eyers became wide open as she turned around hard to see the mercedes- benz there.
"Just like in your dream?" Shizuru asked in a fearful voice. "101 percent..." I said and pulled Shizuru's hand to run away from there. Shizuru never hessitated to stop and continued to follow me as I ran as fast as my legs can take me. 'Damn it! I shouldn't have ordered the parts using my name!' I thought as I look behind to see the bodyguards chasing over as well.
"How did they find us!? I just thought about them today and god sent them here!?" Shizuru shouted at me as we find over way where no cars can come in and went straight to the forest. "NO! I was wrong to order the parts using my name knowing that they might have checked with the goverment for my information!" I answered. Shizuru shook her head and continue to run.
Just as we reached the forest, Shizuru tripped and fall down. "Shizuru!" I shouted as I stop and run towards her. "You alright?" I asked as I can see bleeding on her knee. Shizuru tried to stand up but she couldn't. Tears were already formed in her eyes. "I can't go on..." She said as she held on to me tight. In just minutes, the bodyguards were surrounding us as I hugged Shizuru close to me and stared at them. Clenching my hand into a fist, I wanted to pounch at them and give them a painful experience but Shizuru's father came into sight and pointed the gun straight at my head. Shizuru was shocked and her mouth dropped.
"Father! Put down that gun!" Shizuru demanded as she stared at her father. "Away from her Shizuru. Away from her. Don't make me pull the trigger." He said in a strict and angry tone. "What will happen if I don't want to let her go?" Shizuru asked as her hands started to tremble. I look at her trembling hardand look back at her father holding her hand tight.
"God knows." her father replied.
Shizuru then turn to look into my eyes seaching for a path and I look back at her. "You know my answer Shizuru... I'm happy to be with you, and it is up to you to choose the path you want. As long as you are happy, so am I." I whispered to her.
"Father, the answer is no... I'm happy with who I am with and I have no regrets on going against you. And if you were to pull that trigger on Natsuki..." She said as she searched her poket and brought out a penknife. My eyes was wide open when I saw the penknife being shown from its hidding place. "I'll never hessitate to follow her as well." She finishes her words and stared at her father.
"Last chance Shizuru. I AM being serious here. Follow me back to Kyoto and return to the life we use to have!" He demanded.
"Father... My answer is solid and clear as well. I, myself is being serious with my answer." She replied her father back. 'Shizuru...' I thought as I felt her girp on her hand thigten against mine.
Her father pointed the gun down and sighed. "Why are you so stubborn... Why Shizuru... you have a bright future ahead of you. Why ruining it." He asked. "I am not being stubborn father. I'm only chasing over hapiness. Money was never once the important thing I have in my eyes. Never was. Father... Even if you want to break us apart, I'll never marry others. I'm already married to Natsuki." She answered back. I look at Shizuru and closed my eyes. "I know how you feel Mr Fujino, but I can assure you that my love to Shizuru can't be changed. I love her more then I can love anyone and if I can proof to you that your daughter will happy with me and she never suffered, I'll take the challenge." I gave her father a foward answer as I held her hand tightly.
Her father remained silence and kept his guns away. "If I were to shoot you, I'll only lose my daughter or... putting her in a state I never wanted to." He said as he looked at one of the bodyguard and to my guess, it the leader that leads all of them. "You win... I can never ever lay a finger to hurt my daughter's feeling. Though I have to accept her being with you." He continued as he signal to all his body guard to lower their weapon.
Shizuru looked at her father with her mouth wide open as her tears flowed out. My mouth dropped down as well as I couldn't believe my eyes on the things he had said. "Oh, my god... Thank you father... Thank you..." She said as she started to cry. Pulling her head to rest on my shoulders, I look at her father and said "I owe you everything Mr Fujino... Thank you for accepting me." I said as tears automatically flowed out from my eyes.
"I think you should be calling my father just like Shizuru. I saw your married papers and I didn't know how did it got approved... It was a shocked when I got a copy of it." He answered and a soft smile. Blushing,I stared at the floor and silently said thank you enough for him and Shizuru to hear.
"Ahh, family happiness... How nice could that be?" Someone said. 'That voice is familier...' I thought. The unknown person eventually showed his face out and it was a shock to us all. 'No... Nosindo Senya!' I thought as I clearly remember him almost marrying Shizuru.
"Nosindo! Why are you doing here!" Her father asked but he never bothered to even look at him. His eyes were fixed on me. "Because of you disturbing my married with Ms Fujino, My family turned broked!" He shouted at me. I stared at him and notice his hands digging into her poket and draw out a gun. 'another one... ' I thought. "My father had to steal the charity money to get our days passed and thanks to you. We are completely broke!" He said in a sinister laugh.
"You... Lied to us!?" Shizuru's father said in a shocked tone. "What DO you expect!? I was having my Fucking patients in order to marry your daughter and SHE ruined it. AND as for your biliant daughter, I didn't know how you taught her to be that moronic clever to know that my family is going broke!" he said as he pointed the gun at me. "Time to suffer.. Fujino.. SHIZURU!!!!"
BANG!!!
The echo sound filled up my ears as I felt numbness on my body. 'I... I thought it was over...' I thought. "NATSUKI!" I heard Shizuru shouted my name as my body went weak and was supported by her. 'Shi... Shizuru..' I thought as I felt coldness overwhelming my body. "Natsuki! Get hold of yourself! PLEASE!" She said as tears started to flow out again. "Someone call the ambulance and get that get hold of that psycho guy!" I heard someone's voice ordering things.
"Shi...zuru... I'm, cold..." I said as my eyes started to become heavier. "No... no no no... stay with me. Please!" Shizuru said as she started to put pressure on my chest. "Dont... don't leave me alone..." Shizuru said as I used my strenght to smile. "I... love you... always... Shizu..." I wanted to finish up my words but darkness already cover my sight and it felt like every part of my body were energyless. But I can feel, tears dropping on my face and thats the end of it. I felt nothing more.
Third person point of view starts here.(sorry for the inconvenient).
Step by step Shizuru took to find her way to room 223. A private room where her love of life is placed. Breathing in and out, she place her hand on the handle of the room 223. There she was, standing infront of the room door after she received call from the nurse who was taking care of Natsuki saying there is a slight movement from her. It was enough to make Shizuru rise to heaven to hear an improvement on Natsuki.
"Natsuki..." Shizuru whispered as she open the door and stepped inside. Shizuru's eyes then open wide when she sees 3 nurses there doing something. Her breathing seems to be caught in her throat as she needs to inhale hard to get oxygen into her lungs. Automatically, her legs moved towards the nurses and with all her strenght she asked "Excuse me nurse Sanaka, what's going on?". The nurse in the middle then turn around and look at Shizuru. A smile creep Sanaka's face as she smiled.
"Fujino-sama, I'm glad you are here. There's nothing to worry about Natsuki-sama as she is recovering in a tremendously and I'm also glad to say that she'll be waking up in a few minutes time. From our analyse that is." Sanaka said in a joyful tone.
Skipping a beat in Shizuru's heart, she look at Sanaka as her eyes becomes glassy. "You're serious?" Shizuru asked Sanaka.
"We can't be a hundred percent sure about that Fujino-san. It is just an analyse we made. It might take longer then that but there is one thing we can be sure of which is, Natsuki-san will be fine as her tempreture and other vital signs are in a stable condition. Now is just to wait for her to be awake." another nurse by the name of Yurisa informed Shizuru.
"I'm sure she'll be awake in this week. From what I can see, she's a strong person to give up just like that." Sanaka said to ensure Shizuru. The last nurse is rather shy but she just smiled and nodded her head.
"Thank you so much for everything... I owe you a big time here Sanaka-chan and all of you as well." Shizuru thanked Sanaka and her co-workers. "There's no reason to thank us Shizuru-san. If its not because of you, we would have still stayed poor and orphaned. It was you who saved us from the horrible fate." Yurisa said
"Not to mention, you even convinced your parents to support us until we can support ourselves as well" Sanaka said in a wink. "Therefore... I don't think you should thank us... we are just giving out help... which you would give as well..." Maya, the last and the youngest nurse said as she started to blush hard.
Smiling, Shizuru gave them each a hug before they excuse themselves to provide privacy to Shizuru and Natsuki. Shizuru's eyes followed the nurses out before she takes a sit just beside Natsuki. "Natsuki... My love... I'm glad your getting better..." Shizuru said as she hold to Natsuki's hand. Bringing up her hand to the level of her cheek, Shizuru kissed Natsuki's hand and pressed it towards her cheek to feel the warmth of her lover.
Hearing Shizuru's voice, Natsuki lying unconscious was trying to open her eyes but it was way to hard for her to open her eyes. Then, she felt her hand being lifted off by an angel's touch. 'Shizuru... God damn it! I... want to see her...' Natsuki said in her dark world. Feeling the pain in the heart for being unable to see Shizuru, Natsuki felt desperate. 'If it was you, Shizuru... what will you do...'
"Natsuki... this is the song I made for you. Expecially for you. I have longed to share it with you since I wrote it in high school." Shizuru said into Natsuki's ear.
I couldn't say, "Don't lose your way."
And there are feelings that couldn't reach you.
Shake off that all too lonely smile,
And to that wound-like loneliness, good-bye.
'Shi... Shizuru...'
Even passion hurts.
Chasing after the fragments of eternity,
You were my sky, you were my dream.
Turn the days thawed by passion...
Into unforgettable memories,
And adorn them on your chest.
'You wrote it since... high school?... Why didn't you tell me... Why didn't you sing to me..'
Search for my life, we will meet again someday.
I loved your clear eyes.
Now we are on different paths, making our way to "RESTARTING"
We slept without understanding each other.
I felt your weakness and your pain.
Though I loved you without a thought, Time is over.
That's it... I'm not gonna give up... I need to see you... I missed you alot...' Natsuki thought as she again tried her best to open her eyes or to hold Shizuru's hand. Trying again and again, harder and harder each time but she just kept failing no matter how hard she tried.
Hold me close.
I feel my heart disappearing and I'm afraid.
In the clinging night, the stars
Were all we saw.
In the midst of time, we were entwined by destiny.
The dancing feathers are heading towards our desired tomorrow.
Wishin' for my love, I will fly beautifully.
Give me a gentle smile and kiss me.
Almost giving up, Natsuki started to lose hope when she had an image of Shizuru came into her mind. 'Shi... Shizuru..' Natsuki thought for once last time before she tried to reach out for that image. She tried to run as fast as she to reach Shizuru's image, hoping to reach her, to be with her and to stay with her.
Where are you going? That gentle voice of yours.
When I looked up, you were my sky.
The dancing feathers were a dream.
Wishin' for my love, I will fly beautifully.
Turn the sky blue times we passed by,
Into unforgettable memories,
And adorn them on your chest.
Search for my life, we will meet again someday.
I loved your clear eyes.
Now we are on different paths, making our way to "RESTARTING"
Just after Shizuru stop singing, she felt a light pressure on her hand. Her heart started to beat hard as she slowly turn to look at Natsuki.
"You have the nicest voice of all, love." Natsuki said in a very soft tone after trying her best to speak with her dry throat. Instantly, Shizuru's heart stop at the very moment when she heard Natsuki's voice. "My... god... NATSUKI!" Shizuru shouted as she hugged Natsuki. "Oi... oi... I don't have that much strenght to support you just yet..." Natsuki said as she closes her eyes to allow tears to flow out. "I missed you so so much... I thought I lost you when Nosindo shot you 5 months ago..." Shizuru said as she sobbed into Natsuki's shoulder.
'5 MONTHS!? I was unconscious for THAT long!?' Natsuki thought when she heard the news. Unwanted to talk, both of them stayed quiet as sobbings took over the conversation. They stayed there hugging and cuddling to each other for a period of time until the doctor comes.
"Ahh...She's awake. Congratulation Fujino-san." The doctor said as he smiled. Shizuru broke their embraced and wipe her tears before looking at the doctor. "Yes, thank you. I appreciate your help for this 5 months."
"Don't bother about it now Fujino-san. We should thank you for all the help you have gave us for the past few years to keep this hospital alive."
"And I thought this hospital is for the public" Natsuki said as she rolled her eyes. Giggling, Shizuru look at Natsuki and gave her a kiss on her forehead. "We gave money to this hospital for charity to support the poor, Natsu-chan."
"I'm sorry for the inconvinient Fujino-san, but we have to have a check up on Kuga-san for now." Nurse Sanaka said as she place down the patient chart on the overhead table. Standing up, Shizuru was about to leave until Natsuki pulled her hand. "Can't... she stay?" Natsuki said to the doctor. "Well... I see no problem on it, so why not?" He answered. "I'm Doctor Manasa for your information Kuga-san." he continued.
"Don't have to tell me that, I can see it from your name tag." Natsuki said, annoyed because of the interuption between her and Shizuru. The doctor notice the annoyed feeling of Natsuki and started to proceed his work as soon as possible. After making sure Natsuki was well from head to bottom, he annouced that Natsuki can be discard in another 3 days time. Overwhelm with joy, Shizuru hugged nurse Sanaka and hand shaked Dr. Manasa before sitting back down beside Natsuki.
"You know... there is one thing I regretted after all this years, Shizuru..." Natsuki said after the doctor and nurses excused themselves. Shizuru look at Natsuki and asked "What is it?". "I regretted for not telling you my feelings earlier... I regretted for making you sad during the HIME festival and... regretted for avoiding you after the festival..." Natsuki said as she stared on the ceiling.
"Don't bother about it now. The most important thing is that we can now be together and if there's any obstacle coming into us again, we shall again overcome it like we have been doing for the past few years." Shizuru said in a supporting and ensure tone.
After Natsuki was discard from the hospital, she was brought back to Fujino Estate together with Shizuru and she got a very warm greets from Shizuru's. After a month, an official married for Shizuru and Natsuki was held in the Fujino Estate and everything went well as everyone accepted their life, their love and their happiness. Both Natsuki and Shizuru settled down and they started their life again but this time, they no longer have to hide themselves from the public and Shizuru's parents.
Though everything went well, there is always difficulties for them as they have to manage financial and family issues expecially Natsuki for having a hard time trying to get adapt to Fujino culture and regulations.
"Ne... Natsuki?" Shizuru said as she cuddles beside Natsuki.
"Yea? Anything?" Natsuki asked as she look at Shizuru.
"I have this poem in my mind... wanna hear it?" Shizuru said as she look into Natsuki's eyes.
Natsuki smiled and kissed Shizuru's forehead before nodding her head for approval.
Astonished by what I see in your eyes
seeking the poetic wonders of your delicate smile
enthralled by rose petals
wrapping around your perfect body
the scent of your caress delighting me
like raindrops falling on a sea of roses.
Your perfection that is drawn to my eyes
grows more beautiful with each waking hour
a single moment of frozen time
evaporates and melts away
leaving nothing behind
but a false mirage of your seductive state of mind.
Skin deep fantasies, only dreams?
I've never felt anything so real
although you are not beside me
unable to hold your hand, to kiss you sweetly
you are burned in my memory
and yet I can still feel your soft, alluring touch.
A glimmer of hope, a dream forseen
an illusion forced to carry on
a hand reaching toward the light
reaching for you...and the sound of your sweet voice
silently calling out my name
but still you are not there.
Step out of my dreams
I need to feel your complexity
I want to hold you in my arms
feeling your warmth overlapping mine
a desperate wish determined to enter your heart
...and all I need is you...
'Thank you for everything Natsuki... I never regretted for riding off with you... never once doubt you for your decision. Never before losing hope even when we met the hardest time and almost encounting death. Love you forever, my love... my Natsuki Kuga' -Shizuru Fujino-
'Shizuru... nothing is worth more then when you decided to ride off with me. I am happy enough to be with you even if I were to met death beside you. Thank you for helping me to accept humans again. Thank you for being with me all this time and thank you for the happiness you have gave me. I am yours and never others. I'll love you to my fullest, Shizuru... Fujino...'-Natsuki Kuga-
The End...
Thank you for your patients. I hope all of you enjoyed this story as much as how I love to write about it.As you can see and if you did read my first fic, "Please Don't Hate Me", this is a suprise as this story is a continuation from it but in Natsuki's view. I'm sorry for any harsh words or bad english through out this story as English isn't my strong language. Thank you!