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Max's POV:
I landed ungracefully, tears stinging my eyes and blurring my world. Fight them back Maximum. I was adamant no one would see me cry, especially not Fang. I roughly brushed away the tears from my cheeks that had escaped my eyes. Pull it together; you're better than this. I couldn't understand why she pissed me off so much, which frustrated me even more. I didn't have a clue what was going on in my head and worst of all I was taking it out on Fang…my best friend.
A tight lump formed at the pit of my throat that restricted my breathing. I took slow, shallow breaths, my chest heaving and my kidneys still bearing unbearably. Calm down. That's all I have to do. Just sort my head out. I began pacing back and forth, thinking things through. So what if Fang talks to her, right? That doesn't bother me at all. She wasn't that good looking anyway, was she? I sighed, I really have to get my lying under control.
The sound of wings whooshing in the air made anger and hurt well back up inside of me. Tears sprung to my eyes more. Lock it down Max. Never show your hurt. A lesson I'd learnt well from Fang. There he was…hovering above the ground, gazing at me intently. I clenched my jaw tight; all I wanted was for him to hug me, hold me close, and remind me he cared. But at the same time I wanted to throttle him for making me feel all of this. He began to walk towards me, concern painted on his face…. I couldn't handle this. I shook my heads and turned to run away like the coward I felt inside. I needed to be away from it all, when his voice was harsh, like I'd never heard it before.
Fang's POV:
As I landed her face turned to me full of confusion and hurt and she turned to run away from me. I couldn't handle her not being near me right now. "Don't you dare even think about running away!"
Max's POV:
Fang's never ordered me to do anything before, and boy, there was a reason. I hated being told what to do and rage took over me.
Fang's POV:
I knew if there was one thing she hated in the world, other than whitecoats, the director etc. it was being told what to do and fire ignited in her eyes. Oh shit. Here we go.
Max's POV:
"How dare you even think about telling me what to do after the way you've been acting?!" I screeched, practically deafening myself. Why was I doing this to Fang and me? I just couldn't control my mouth, though. I felt like Nudge, but angry. I expected Fang to shout back at me and shove or even hit me. I know I would have if Fang had just shouted at me for doing nothing. Instead I saw Fang's jaw clench together and if I'd have blinked I'd have missed it….but I didn't. I saw his eyes well up with tears and in an instant they were gone. But even that didn't stop me.
"You just think you're so hot and that all the girls fancy you! But they don't! You just have a huge ego and it's only sluts who like you!" I was screaming now and uncontrollable tears were streaming down my face. I hated how I sounded like a jealous little girl and I knew what I'd said wasn't true…I mean I liked Fang and he hardly had an ego, let alone a big one. My whole body shook and I couldn't look him in the eye. I was so angry but I didn't mean to say anything that had come out of my mouth.
Fang stood strong and silent, but I could see it was affecting him and it tore me up completely. But suddenly, I saw something click in his eyes and I knew he wasn't going to take this lying down.
"Do you know how ridiculous you sound? Since when do I think stuff like 'I'm so hot' and that 'all the girls fancy me'? Newsflash Maximum: I don't" His face was bitter and his tone harsh and he hadn't called me Maximum for years. I'd done it this time I sighed in my head, angrily with myself.
"And for your info Lissa was not a slut." He swallowed hard and my eyes narrowed at him. Why the hell was he bringing Lissa into this? I didn't care about her. At all.
"Newsflash Fang: I don't give a shit." I spat matching his tone.
He raised his eyebrows pointedly at me "Oh really?!" his voice sarcastic "So, why did you bring it up? Didn't expect me to say anything back to you, right? 'Course I wouldn't dare to do thing like that 'cause you're always right, never wrong, always perfect. Aren't you Maximum?" His eyes, once emotionless, were full of hate? Power? Something I couldn't recognise and his harsh words left me speechless, for once.
I swear I had absolutely no control over what came out of my mouth next. It was my emotions talking, something I've never let happen before.
"You know what?!" I started, my voice exasperated, then I softened, shaking my head in despair, "You're right. I've been kidding myself practically my whole life. I'm not strong enough, pretty enough, caring enough, capable enough to do what's expected of me. I'm not good enough to be leader of the flock and I'm certainly not good enough to keep saving the world"
He blinked at me, astonished at my sudden break down. Then the emotions were gone from him once more. I suddenly felt like I wasn't good enough for anything anymore. I felt completely hopeless, one emotion I'd only felt one other time in my life: when Jeb left us. Tears slid down my face, no matter how hard I tried to resist them.
I felt like a kid again, my shoulders sagging and my head hunched down. I was contemplating walking away, when unexpectedly and totally out of character, Fang stepped forward and surrounded me. Enveloped by his body I felt secure in myself again and it was as if he was transferring some if his power into me and I was grateful. I was also in total shock that Fang the unbendable statue, the Iron man was comforting me, holding me close and reminding me he cared.
"Max…" His voice cracked and I realised how seeing me like this was hurting him, but I couldn't say anything, I didn't trust myself.
"Max, please, I honestly didn't mean, no want to put her in front of you. And what I said earlier, I meant. When the flock split, when we split, I felt like I was half a person, I need our talks, our laughs, our time together to make me feel remotely whole. I couldn't handle being away from you because you're my world, my universe Max. You're the only person who has been through as much as I have, we grew up together, suffered together and you made my life worth living. I don't think it'd be possible to live my life without you."
I looked up, searching his eyes. I swear that was the longest thing Fang has ever said to me, as well as the most emotive. Those were his first words in which he showed any true emotion, and boy did it have some. My heart squeezed at his words and my stomach did somersaults. It must have taken some guts for him to say that in front of me, of all people. But, I still wasn't sure about it, I mean, when Fang kissed me before my reaction was somewhat dramatic because I wasn't sure what my feelings were for him. He returned my gaze, looking at me hopefully, pressing his lips tightly together, his eyes full of concern. I took a step back from him, breaking our contact and he clenched his jaw tight and his brow furrowed, seeing it as a rejection. The look on his face jolted me into a response,
"I felt-feel the same way…" I paused as his eyes lit back up again and he smiled briefly "I couldn't bear not having you in the flock with me and I wouldn't ever want to go through that again." It dawned on me how much he meant to me, I was still hurt by his session with Phoeno, and couldn't understand his total change in character when he was with her, but after what he'd just said, it didn't matter anymore. We remained silent and he stepped forward and rubbed his hand down my arm reassuringly. After a long silence, we wordlessly leapt into the air to return to the kids and I still had my doubts, but I was happy, for now. I sighed, but when have I ever stayed it?