It was sometime later that she sleepily woke to gentle, sleepy hands trailing her curves.. she smiled against his throat...he was still asleep! How adorable! She nuzzled closer still and arched happily...enjoying for however long it lasted. Those tender halting caresses.
He was warm, warmer than he should have been...he inhaled sofly, there was the soft scent of sandalwood near him...he shifted lightly feeling the warm lithe body against his.. unconciously his hands began to roam, hoping that by feel he would wake with some knowledge of who this was with him...down her hips, up her sides...
Mind still fogged by sleep, he arched pleasantly into as she did to him, as a hand found her left breast...there was the softest whimper against his throat and he opened his eyes, frozen...hand in place.
"Danielle..." He whispered, not trusting himself to speak much above that.
"Mmmmm?" Was her sleepy reply against his throat.
He still couldnt move. "Are you awake?" He asked voice quivvering slightly... even in his sleep he just broke the boundry between teacher and student!
She nodded into his throat and nipped lightly at his throat. "Yep. " Her left leg curled up over his hip and held him tightly against her. "You were getting a good start Severus..." She murmured voice sleepy but pleased.
"What stopped you?" She asked softly leaning back to look up at him.
So many emotions and thoughts ran through those dark eyes of his, as she rested a tender hand across his cheek. He shook his head and slid his hand from her breast to rest it in her hair...
"Its wrong." He murmured angrily at himself and her for being in such a situation.
A single ebony brow rose and she smiled. "No it isnt. And you can ask Uncle Albus if you want.." She leaned up, her lips a mere centemeter from his.
He shuddered and closed his eyes pulling back. "We shouldnt...You need to leave Danielle...Please. I need you to leave me. Now." His voice was strained, pained. Her eyes filled with worry, and just a bit of hurt...She nodded, leaned up and kissed his brow instead.
Slowly she untangled herself from him and rose out of his bed...she streched idly...sighing sadly, shoulders sagging...breifly she let her eyes take in the room.
On the chester drawers across the room, lay a violin, in its case. She glaced back at him, his eyes were closed as if trying to hold off his anguish until she left, she stepped across the room, opened the case, tightened the rosin, tuned the strings silently, by feel alone, and rested it delicately beneath her chin, she watched him and began to play.
It was a soft somber somewhat sad song, beautiful in its sorrow. His eyes flew open as she began to play, and she watched him with eyes that reflected his pain, she had hurt him, and had not meant to...
He was stunned to say the least...the peice was nothing he'd ever heard before and he sat up, burring his face in his hands, letting the music envelop him. She continued to play, watching him. The music filled him, suffocated him, and once again he lost control, and began to shake, his great shoulders wracked with his silent greif. He could not, would not allow himself the luxury of an intimate relationship, however, he could not deny that he craved what she had silently offered him. And in his fear and anguish, he had pushed her away...she was killing him, peice by peice!
The song ended, and the violin was restored to its proper place. He thought then she would leave him to his embarrassment. But he felt her sit beside him and hug him to her. He stiffened and growled. She could not understand, why must she persist! She trailed her fingers through his hair and pulled him against her once more. This time he did not resist, he simply curled into himself and burried his face against the fabric of her pants along her thigh and shook.
"Im sorry Severus. It wasnt my intention to hurt you.." Her voice sounded as sad as he. He shook his head, struggling in vain to regain his composure, What was it about this girl that caused him to lose all shread of his sheilding, his protection! He felt naked before her and helpless to escape. She raked his soul with her ebony eyes.
She simply caressed his hair, his back tenderly. "I will not do so again. You will come to me if you chose. I will not put you in this situation again...its cruel of me to do so...and I am sorry. " She bent down and rested her arms around his waist, half laying across his back...she kissed his spine and sighed sadly.
"I cannot help being what I am. I cannot help caring about people, or their emotions. I cant help what i feel for you." He'd somehow found his voice again.
"What do you feel?" He asked, not trying to dislodge her. She rested her cheek against his back and sighed.
"Affinity, Kindred, Affection...respect...and something that could be if we allowed it"
He shook his head. "Im a nasty greasy bat of the Dungeons. Why would you feel anything for the likes of myself?" He spat, suddenly defensive.
Her fingers trailed down his back...and she chuckled. "Because it was meant to be so." She murmured and straightened..."I'll leave you be for a while...Ive got some things to do before lessons..." She gently raised his head from her lap and cupped his face as he sat up glaring at her.
"Please Leave." he growled, not trusting himself not to lash out at her, not for what she had done, but for what she had made him feel. She nodded, let her fingers linger just a moment more on his face before rising and walking out of the door.
Leaving a very anguished, and hurt Severus behind.