Tasha's eyes flicked open. Light was pouring into the room. She blinked and sat up, a wince escaping her lips as she did so. Memories of the previous night rushed through her mind.

Her body felt numb. It felt empty. Dirty even. She wanted to burst out into tears but she couldn't summon the strength to do that.

She looked around the room she was in. 'Where am I???...' She thought to herself frantically.

The creak of the door opening brought her out of her thoughts as her head turned fast towards the door, her neck cracking loudly.

She relaxed slightly when she saw it was only Kai. His expression was blank as usual as he walked over to the bed she was in and sat down on the edge.

Neither of them spoke as awkwardness took over. Neither one could think of anything to say. It was just too…strange.

Tasha hugged herself protectively, as if afraid Kai might lash out any moment and attack her.

Kai looked over her tired and weak bruised form. "How are you feeling?..."

She shrugged as a reply as she tried to think of how she did feel. What could she say? When nothing came to mind, she replied with only one word.

"Fine."

Kai sighed. "Well that doesn't answer anything except that you aren't fine. You should probably go to the doctors…"

She shook her head almost violently. "No… I can't…"

The door creaked again as Tala walked in. A slight reassuring smile played his lips as he walked over to the bed and stood near Kai.

She couldn't fight this forever. She couldn't just pretend it didn't happen. She needed to know.

"… Who?"

Kai and Tala looked at each other, their eyes trying to decide who would speak. Kai broke his eyes away from Tala's to look at Tasha's.

"We think it was Tinnerman."

She looked up at him, a look that was full of anger, hurt, shocked and even fear.

"No. It can't have been. He wouldn't do that to me. I know you two hate him but how dare you come in here and try and tell me that my like only friend RAPED ME!!!"

At that moment, she couldn't hold it in anymore as she burst into tears.

Tala was looking sympathetic but Kai just looked scary.

"Us hating him has nothing to do with his reputation. I've told you before… he's dangerous."

Tala started to sense that the two stubborn teens in front of him could emerge in a fight soon so he spoke up.

"Well…all we know is that your drink was spiked. It's just we couldn't see Tinnerman anywhere after we found you. Do you remember anything about them?"

Tasha thought for a moment before shaking her head. She turned her back away from them and hugged the pillow. "Just leave me alone."

She could feel their eyes on her but she mentally and physically ignored them.

She heard footsteps cross the room and leave and the door close but she could still sense another presence in the room.

"Kai just leave."

Kai sighed in frustration. "Look, I don't know anything about you. I don't know what your favorite color is, or why you are here in my bed, or even why I care. But I do ok? So does Tala. If you would only listen to us, he is dangerous. I've seen him do it to other girls."

She still wouldn't face him, his words affecting her more than she wished. She brushed away a tear without him noticing.

He sighed again before continuing.

"I don't have much memory from my childhood… But I do know that you grew up with me and Tala and the others. I know what you've been through and I know what you felt. I wish you would just believe me."

She heard him get out and walk across the room and out the door, the clicking noise reassuring privacy.

Tala and Kai were sitting at the table in silence. Tasha hadn't come down all day and to their own surprise, they were both worried.

"Kai… What if she's pregnant? Or worse, Tinnerman could have diseases."

"She won't go to the doctors. We just have to hope for the best."

Tala nodded in agreement, though he was deep in thought. Kai seemed to just be sitting there with his eyes closed as if asleep.

Time passed and neither of them seemed to think of a solution.

Tasha sat up and looked around. She spotted another door in the room, which she presumed led to the bathroom.

She got out of the bed and headed over to the door and opened it, revealing that she was right. She headed into the bathroom and looked over her reflection. 'God I look like shit…'

She turned to walk back out when something caught her eye… something that use to make the pain go away. Maybe it still could.

Kai looked at Tala, who was still in deep thought.

"What's on your mind Valkov?"

Tala looked up. "Huh? .. Oh. Umm… I'm just worried. What if she goes and tries to hurt herself or something?"

Kai tilted his head slightly in confused. "What you mean?"

Tala sighed, knowing he had to explain. "Last night, when we found her, did you notice her legs?"

Kai gave him a perverted look. "No, not really. Why?"

Tala ran a hand through his hair, making it seem more untidy them it was normally. "Her legs were covered in cuts and scars. And if I remember correctly, so were her arms. I think she may be a cutter."

Kai stayed silent, his mind wondering why she would do that.

Tala stood up. "I think I'm going to go check on her to make sure she's ok."

Tasha was sitting on the floor in the bathroom, the cold tiles numbing her. On the floor beside her were a few drops of blood. A razor was in her hand, having just reached its target. She couldn't do it deep. She just couldn't. Something was holding her back. But as she watched the blood drip down her arm, the feeling of relief washed over her.

There was a knock at the door. She jumped up quickly and hid her arms behind her back, successfully keeping the razor and her wounds from view.

The door opened and Tala walked in. "Everything ok?"

She smiled brightly, it being almost convincing, ignoring the fact she was just beaten and raped. "Yer great!"

Tala's eyes narrowed slightly. He knew she was lying straight away. She is always a bitch to him but she was being nice.

"Tash… you know, you don't have to lie. You can just tell me."

"But I am fine! I'm doing great!" She smiled forcefully.

Tala sighed. "If you insist." He turned to leave but before he could, something caught his eye. "What's that on the floor?"

Tasha looked to where he was looking and mentally cursed at the blood. "I don't know. Maybe it's Kai's?"

Tala's eyes narrowed. "Give me your wrist."

"W-what? …"

"You heard me."

Tasha tried to keep her composure cool. "But there's no reason to." She stepped back as Tala stepped closer. "Tasha… I'm not an idiot."

"Phhf! Well you fooled me."

Tala blocked her from stepping back any further. "Just give me a look. If there's no reason to then you won't mind proving me wrong?"

Tasha's eyes narrowed. She knew she was caught. "Red fuck off."

Tala's arms reached out and grabbed hers before she could resist, he pulled them in front of her and his eyes went from the razor to her bloody wrist.

"Tasha why are you doing this???"

She pulled her arms out of his grip with a violent force. "Get out. Now!"

Before Tala could reply, the door opened more and Kai walked in. He looked from Tala to Tasha to her wrist and to the razor.

Tasha's hormones were running high. She grabbed the nearest object, the shampoo bottle, and hurled it at the boys. Both moved out of the way in time.

"Tasha you need help."

"Fuck off! I hate you both!" She was picking up random objects and hurling them at the boys.

Tala jumped forward and grabbed her and pinned her down to the ground, unfazed by the blood that was getting on him. Tasha screamed and squirmed and tried to get away. Kai leant down next to her. "Natasha stop"

The tone of his voice scared her and she stopped all movements and looked at him. "Why the fuck do either of you care?" Tears were streaming down her face

"Why shouldn't we care?"

She sniffled. "Just leave me alone… I don't need nobody."

Tala and Kai shared a glance before exiting the bathroom, making sure to grab all sharp objects on exit.

Tasha curled up in a ball and hugged herself, trying to hold back the sobs but failing miserably.

Life just seemed to get worse and worse….