A machine beeped in the distance. The steady beeping drove into my head like a jack hammer. I tried to move but my body was so weak I couldn't. Why couldn't I move?

With all the strength I had, I opened my eyes to see I was in a white room tightly tucked into a bed. I looked at my arms and saw they were strapped down by restraints. What was going on?

I jumped slightly as the door opened and a nurse walked in. Whoa hold on. Nurse? I blinked.

The nurse looked at me and smiled as she saw I was awake. She walked over and began making a fuss like fluffing my pillow and making sure the restraints weren't too tight. All while I lied there wondering what was going on.

She reached and touched my forehead checking my temperate. "How are you feeling my dear?" She asked in a disgusting sweet voice.

Finding my voice I ignored the question and asked my own. "What's going on? I don't get it. Why am I here?"

The nurse smiled sadly and looked at me sympathetically. "Dear you tried to kill yourself…"

I drew in a breath as my last memories flooded into my mind like a movie on fast forward. The party, Sam, my Aunty and the razor…

I must have looked startled because the nurse patted my arm and said, "Dear it's ok. You'll be fine. Your brother brought you here…" She kept talking but I didn't listen.

My brother… One of the only people in this world who still cares. Omg what must he have thought?! I'm all he has…

I sniffled and blinked as I realized I was crying. The nurse dabbed a tissue under my eyes and said, "It's going to be alright dear. You should be allowed out tomorrow. They are just keeping you on suicide watch for 24 hours."

Suicide watch…. This didn't make any sense. Why didn't I die? What went wrong? Couldn't anyone see I just wanted to die? This wasn't their decision to keep me alive! It was MY life.

The nurse headed out and I was left to dwell on what had happened. I tugged on the restraints. I wanted to get out of here. And fast. I didn't want to be here. I didn't want people to look at me like I was a helpless child.

Even though I wouldn't admit that I was…

In another part of the hospital

"Tala why the hell did you bring me here to see your grandmother?"

"Because I don't like coming to hospitals by myself. It makes me depressed."

"Great and you want me to be depressed as well"

The bluenette and red-head walked through the hospital. They walked past the reception desk when a name caught their attention.

"Yeah that's right. Natasha Royds. Poor girl. Yeah she just woke up. I know! A suicide attempt… Poor dear."

Kai and Tala looked at each other and hastily walked over to the reception desk. The nurse and receptionist looked up.

"May I help you?"

"Can you please tell us what room Natasha Royds is in?"

The nurse and receptionist frowned. "Friends or relatives?"

Kai opened his mouth to probably say neither but Tala elbowed him in the ribs and spoke quickly. "Kai's her boyfriend and I'm her cousin."

"Oh. Well in that case since she's on suicide watch we can only let relatives in. It's room 361."

"Thanks."

They walked off down the hall counting the rooms.

"357… 358…. 359… 360…. Aha! 361!"

They looked at each other before pushing the door open and walking in.

Tasha's POV

I heard the door open again. Argh! That god damn nurse is back! I kept my head away from the door and faced the opposite way. I didn't feel like talking.

"Tasha?"

I froze. Oh no. Anyone but them…

I swallowed hard and turned to look at the door and faced my suspicions.

"…"

They took a seat on either side of me so I couldn't look away. Damn them to hell the nosey bastards.

I felt a hand on my right arm and I looked and found myself looking into Tala's eyes. Crap! I called him Tala!

A hand on my left arm made me cringe and I slowly looked over to Hiwatari. His eyes were blank and emotionless much unlike mine. I couldn't stop the pain and hurt showing through my eyes.

"Why…?" I heard Valkov ask.

I chose to ignore him. I couldn't answer. I didn't want people to see me vulnerable and weak.

The door opened again and we all looked over to see a man in a white coat. I read the name tag and cringed when it said "Dr."

"Hello folks. I'm Dr. Himatock. Now the reception told me one of you two boys is Natasha's boyfriend?"

Tasha opened her mouth to protest but Tala drowned out her words.

"Yeah that's Kai" He said pointing to Kai.

Kai glared at him and looked at the doctor. The doctor paid no attention and scribbled on his clipboard in his hand. "Can I see you outside for a moment?"

Kai nodded and followed the doctor out.

With Tasha and Tala

"Tasha what's going on with you?"

"Just go away Valkov. I'm really not in the mood."

Tala frowned. "Tasha I'm serious. This is really bad. Why would you want to kill yourself?"

She turned to face him. "I don't expect you to understand Mr. I'm-so-fucking-perfect!"

She could feel the tears pushing against her eyelids and she bit her lip to stop them falling. She let a sob slip and a few tears fell against her wishes. Tala reached up and brushed them away with his thumb.

"We only want to help you Tash…"

She laughed bitterly. "Help me? You can't be fucking serious. I don't need help. I'm absolutely fucking fine!"

Tala sighed in frustration. "Yes because that is why you have cuts all over your body. And that's why you are always covered in bruises. Oh! And that's why we found you unconscious at the party with your knickers ripped. And yes that's why you try to hide all your problems and just say that you are 'absolutely fucking fine'! Am I right?"

She sobbed loudly unable to hold it in any longer. She tugged at the restraints viciously, wanting nothing more than to hide her face in her hands.

Tala put his hand over hers. "Tash… you don't have to be like this. You don't need to sell yourself or abuse yourself. There's other ways to relieve the pressure of life."

"… Like you would know" Came a reply in a small voice.

This time Tala laughed. "Are you serious? You know my history. You know what I went through. You know what Kai went through too. Don't you remember when your first day? I didn't remember you. And Kai didn't even. You weren't the one who got beaten and drugged and made into some artificial perfect person. I've told you a thousand times and more that I was sorry about Nardi and I was sorry about your mum. I couldn't stop them and you know it!"

At the mention of her mum and sister, Tash cried even louder.

With Kai and Mr. Himatock

"Thank you for coming out. You are?"

"Kai Hiwatari."

"Well Mr. Hiwatari I'll be brief and honest. Do you hit Miss Royds?"

Kai's eyes narrowed at the question. "I would never hit a female. Ever."

"Uh…well that's good but she really isn't in good shape Mr. Hiwatari. She's suffering from malnutrition which seems to indicate an eating disorder, she's covered in a number of bruises and she has a fair amount of cuts on her body from self-mutilation and she's pregnant."

Kai looked up. "What?" The doctor looked uneasy at the temper of the young boy in front of him.

"She's pregnant… "

The shock must have read on Kai's face because the doctor then proceeded. "Have you and Miss. Royds ever had sexual relations Mr. Hiwatari."

Kai threw a glare at him. "No."

The doctor looked confused. "Oh… uh…"

Kai growled. "She would never ever cheat on anyone willingly."

The doctor stared at him for a moment trying to take in what he said. "… Mr. Hiwatari are you saying that Miss. Royds was raped?"

Kai exhaled deeply. "That's exactly what I'm saying"

He turned his back to the doctor and walked back in.

Tala and Tasha looked over at Kai and the doctor as they walked back in. Kai looked straight at her as if looking into her soul. Her tear stained face stared back.

Dr. Himatock looked at the three of them deciding that it was best if Kai told her. "I'll be back later Miss. Royds." With that he left leaving the other two to look at Kai.

Kai sighed and sat down. He looked at Tasha wishing he wasn't the one who had to deliver the news.

"Natasha… I… The doctor told me something that you should know…"

Tala frowned in worry and confusion. Tasha blinked and waited for his reply.

"… You're…. hm…. You're pregnant…."

"W-what?" Her voice was choked and laced with pain.

Tala sat there wide eyed waiting for Kai to suddenly yell 'April Fools!'

Kai looked at her sadly. "I know you know something we don't. I know you know who hurt you. You need to let us help you. Do you know who it is?"

Without thinking she nodded, her lip near bleeding from biting it so hard.

Tala touched her arm, making her look at him. "Was it Tinnerman?"

She sat quiet for a moment. Sam's words going over in her head. 'Don't you dare tell anyone about this!'

She closed her eyes then almost immediately opened them again.

"No. It wasn't"

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