I take too many things for granted.

And the thought makes me laugh, because I should've figured that out a while ago

But I didn't, and now, I'm trying to save a colleague's name, because

The city thinks he shot two kids out of cold blood, but I know Fin, and so does the unit,

And there's no way in hell we're going to believe that, so we investigate, because that's

Just what we do, and if the city doesn't like it, then they can deal with it, because

We've got a fallen comrade out there, and like hell am I gonna sit and do nothing.

The others agree with me.

But Fin's going to make it, and I just know a collective sigh of relief is going around

Every squad, every precinct, every borough…every floor of headquarters.

Liv says that Fin's son came by to see him, which is a good thing, 'cause

For a while, we didn't think there was anyone to call, and I wonder what would happen

If something like this happened to me, and they called, 'cause I know they would; they have to.

But I still wonder if anyone would come.

…Can't stand the thought of going home now.

It's funny, 'cause before, I never seemed to have a problem.

It was where I wanted to be, but now, I'd rather be in the squad room, because

There are people there, and at home, there's nothing, where there used to be something.

Paperwork suddenly seems a lot more interesting than it should,

And it makes me want to laugh, 'cause usually I hate the stuff,

But there's nothing better to do, and at least here, I don't have to hear myself think.

Not sure it's what I need right now, to be able to

Hear myself think, 'cause my thoughts aren't ones I thought I'd ever be having,

And yet I'm having them, because of this, and I don't blame Fin one bit, because

He was just doing his job, same way any of us might have, but it's

Things like this that always make us think, and all it does is show us that

We're not invincible, like we'd like to think we are.

There's always something out there that can bring us down…

Something like this. Something that seems so simple, but really isn't,

Because of all those little things. I didn't do this, she didn't do that,

The kids are acting out in school and suddenly it's all my fault, 'cause

I'm never around, so what am I going to do about it, and suddenly,

It turns into something like this, something unexpected.

It's not really supposed to be amusing, but it kind of is, because

In the academy…they never tell us how to prepare to get left behind.