Fin's usually the one that gets into it with Munch, but

Apparently, this time, it was my turn.

If he hadn't disappeared with Amy Solway, then there wouldn't have been a problem

But he did, and Casey pulled strings so neither of them would get into it.

And I can't help but wonder why he did what he did.

It makes sense to me, it really does.

But it goes against the law, and both of us are cops, so there wasn't much I could do.

…to keep what he was doing under wraps, that is.

Casey would've found out sooner or later.

I want answers to things that aren't easy to answer, and I guess

That's part of my problem, because I go looking where I shouldn't,

And then I end up in a fight, with Munch, of all people, because I'm stubborn,

And so is he, and apparently, it never ends well.

So when I slide into the seat across from him at the café, I don't expect him to say anything.

But he does.

And somehow we end up in this whole discussion, and suddenly, I'm asking him for advice,

Because I really don't know who else to ask…

And I think he'd laugh if he didn't know I was serious, because it's really

The last thing I'd have ever thought of asking him, just because it doesn't really seem

All that likely that anything he tells me would help, much, given his track record and all

But he knows a lot more about it than any of us ever thought.

He didn't know.

In fact, he seems almost surprised by it, but…

To tell the truth, I'm really not.

Figured it was a long time coming, anyway, and Kathy's nothing less than a saint

For putting up with me all those years, and Munch tells me this, and ordinarily,

I might've ignored him, but this time, I don't.

And I don't know why, because I don't want to hear it, but at the same time…I do.

So we talk, and he tells me a few things that I never thought of,

Because I never bothered.

Or because I never wanted to.

I don't know.

But now I think of them, and he says nothing, because he knows better than anyone else

What I'm seeing, what I'm feeling.

And I wonder how he handled it so many times before, and I want to ask, but I don't.