Stay in school, says Fin, when we go to arrest this girl, and
It's all I can do not to laugh at him, not because I don't expect him to say this,
But because of the timing.
Later on, this little story is recounted while we sit, side by side, the four of us,
Two sets of partners across from each other, at the usual place,
And all of us laugh.
It feels…almost normal. And it feels pretty damn good.
We talk, and it feels like the wall of silence has been finally lifted.
And I'm an idiot for not doing this before, and I know it, but…
Somehow it felt wrong before this, and I know it's ridiculous, but I guess it's
Just because I'm too damn stubborn for my own good.
But the squad…they were always there, in that quiet way they have,
Even when I didn't say anything…
Because there wasn't anything to say.
But there's always something to say, Liv tells me,
And makes me feel guilty, because I've been a jerk,
To her, and the other two, and I wonder if it'll come back to bite me,
The way the whole cheating thing came back to bite these kids,
To the point where someone ended up dead over it.
I wonder how that works, and think of my own oldest, still in college,
And hope to heaven that it never gets to that point for her.
I know it won't, though.
Maureen is a good kid, she wouldn't try anything like this,
No matter how screwed up she thinks her mother and I are right now,
She wouldn't do any of that, it's not something she'd consider.
The thought gives a considerable amount of comfort,
And I know why.
No matter what happens to Kathy and me, we raised good kids.
And it's with this in mind that I leave, with the other three, and
We're all walking, because we've had drinks, but it's nice out, for once,
So none of us mind, and we keep talking, because it feels like old times, still,
And none of us are quite ready to give that up,
Because come tomorrow, it'll go back to the way it's been,
Just like it always does, because that's just the way it is,
And the one good thing is that no matter what, it's still the four of us.