Chapter 3

Everyone sat down at the table and Tabitha said grace. Everyone started digging in except me.

"What's wrong savvy?" Adam asked with a mouthful of food

"Nothing Adam, I lost my appetite around animals like those present"

Everyone stopped eating and looked at me.

"SAVANNAH! How dare you refer to our guests like that!!" Tabitha yelled

"News-flash MOM, I wasn't talking about the meatheads I was talking about you" I screamed.

"How dare you talk to me like that! Oh I just don't know where I went wrong…why couldn't you be like your brother? Smart, successful, nice, funny, and well mannered?"

"THAT'S IT! FUCK THIS SHIT! I'M OUTTA HERE!" I screamed "Adam…everyone else…I'm sorry that you had to witness this everyday occurrence at the Copeland household, nice to meet everyone."

Everyone just stared at me as I stomped up the stairs and slammed the door to my room. I sat down on the bathroom floor and just started to cry. I let it all out…all the pain and sorrow that I had been holding inside. I just cried and cried for what seemed like hours until I spotted the little pink razor in my shower. I took it and hoped that what I had heard was true…when you cut yourself your brain releases endorphins. The deeper you cut the more the endorphins. So with that I removed my watch and my bracelets and began to cut. The last thing I remember is someone knocking on my door with the most beautiful southern voice that I had ever heard.

When I woke up, I was in a hospital surrounded by Adam, Tabitha and Matt and Jeff. Everyone had tears in their eyes. When I finally mustered enough strength to speak, I asked, " What happened, where…where am I?"

"You're in the hospital Savannah" Adam said

"OH how could you do this to me??!! You're my daughter I love you why would you do this to me?" Tabitha screamed

"Adam" I said in a very small voice "could you please get her out of here before I try to kill her?"

"Yea, sure, no problem Savvy" Adam smiled.

As he led Tabitha out of the room I sat up with help from Matt and Jeff.

"What happened?" I asked them both

"Well after the dinner some of up helped your mom clean up and Jay and Chris left to take care of some WWE business. Adam went to the bathroom and Jeff had to go so your mom told him to use yours" Matt said

"Yea so I went upstairs to use your bathroom and when I got up there I heard you in there crying." Jeff said "So I just sat there and waited for you to stop and after I heard you stop I knocked on the door but you didn't answer, so I tried to open the door but it was locked so I called your brother up there. Together we broke down the door and we saw you there sitting on the floor in a big pool of blood. Adam went downstairs and called 911 and Matt and I carried you downstairs. Adam took your mom and Matt to the hospital and I rode with you in the ambulance." Jeff said.

"Yea when you got here you were pronounced legally dead," Adam said as he walked back in the room "But they were able to revive you. You've lost a lot of blood. But the doctors say that you're going to be okay"

"Wow, thank you all so much" I said but really only looking at Jeff "Thank you Jeff for riding with me."

"Oh no problem Savannah, you're worth it." Jeff said then he left the room realizing what he had just said.

"So Savannah, mom tells me that you're not doing so good. You're into drugs, alcohol and sleeping with all these boys. Savannah what's going on with you lately? You were on the honor roll at school you were on the dean's list and graduated high school at the top of your class. What happened Savvy?"

"Well I don't know Adam when you left everything went to shit. Mom turned into a totally different person…she started to charge me rent and she wanted me to pay all the bills and she didn't want to work. I didn't go to school because I was afraid that I would have no place to go. I didn't want to call and ask you for help because you have your own life and your own problems." I said "I don't know I guess I just got sick of life, so went and got a job at a local dive bar to pay the bills and I guess I just got into the life of sex, drugs and rock and roll."

"Well Savannah that's all gonna change starting now." Adam said matter-of-factly

"Oh really Adam" I said in a non believing tone

"Yes Savvy, as soon as you can leave the hospital, you are going to go home, pack your stuff and you are going to hit the road with me. I've already enrolled you in online classes to become what you've always wanted to be since your were a little Savvy…a veterinarian. I think that a change of scenery will do you some good."

"Adam I…I don't know what to say…"

"Well Savvy just tell me that you'll try hard and do your best and get your life on track."

"Ok Adam I promise you that" I said