Chapter 4

I few weeks later I was able to leave the hospital on the condition that I was going to attend weekly counseling no matter where I was in the world. I agreed and finally went home just to leave again. I packed up everything I owned into a few bags, gave my mother a less-than tearful good bye, and got on an airplane ready to change my life. But no one, including myself, could foresee what was in store for my future.

When I first started following Adam, I tried to lay low. I rarely left the hotel room that Adam had graciously bestowed upon me. The only reason I left the hotel room was either to get food or to get some air and stretch my legs, neither of which I did regularly. I just stayed in my room with my laptop and devoted all my time to my on-line courses. After everything that Adam had done for me I couldn't let him down. I felt like I owed it to him to do the best that I could do. After a while things started to become a routine. I would stay in my room all day and after Adam was done with his tapings, he would come and see me just to talk about different things and then once a week he would take me to my meetings. Everything was getting into a very normal routine, until one day.

One day I was in my room and working on a paper out the pros and cons about pacemaker for a household pet like a dog or a cat when my doorbell rang.

"Who the hell is this?" I said out loud as I walked over to the door.

"Yea what" I said to the bellhop

"Are you Savannah Copeland?" the bellhop said

"Yea what do you want?"

"Well these just came for you." the bellhop said as he handed me a HUGE bouquet of champagne colored roses.

"Oh thank you very much." I said as I gave him a small tip

As I walked back into my room I thought about how nice it was of Adam to send me roses. I set them down on the table and picked up the card nestled in them. I picked it up, opened it and began to read it.

"Savannah,

These are just a few words that come to me whenever I see you or think about you:

You're beautiful...but strange...So am I. You're smart...but still slow...So am I. You're impatient...but fast...So am I. You're tired...but still last...So do I. You're hot...but still cold...So am I. You're established...but not old...So am I. You're waiting...but happy...So am I. You're leaving...but staying...So am I. You're amazing...but weird...So am I. You're yourself...but still feared...So am I. We both want to be...A forever seen star. I have to say...a lot in common is what we are.

Forever yours,

Secret admirer."

"Wow" I said out loud as I sat down in the chair near the table. I just sat there and kept reading the card over and over again. Before I knew it, it was already 7 at night when Adam walked in.

"Hey Savvy, what's goin on?"

"Wha..huh? Oh hi Adam" I said snapping out of my trance. Finally realizing that Adam was actually in my room made me realize how late it was. "Oh my god Adam what time is it?"

"Um… it's just about 7 now." Adam said "What's that in your hand Savvy?"

"Um oh nothing Adam I have to get back to work I have to finish this paper by tomorrow morning." I said.

"Well Savvy, let me take a look at it, Maybe it's ok I have a surprise for you anyway."

"Ok well why don't you take a look while I take a shower." I said running into the bathroom.

After I got out of the shower I heard Adam talking in the other room

"Yea dude she totally has no idea that it was you that sent the flowers, I know she's gonna love the next thing you send her…oh oh the shower isn't going, that means she's done, you better get out of here. I'll see you later tonight."

I walked out of the bathroom and spotted Adam who looked like the cat that just swallowed the canary.

"What are you up to Adam?" I said

"Oh nothing Savvy, now get dressed we're going out, and don't worry about your paper it's fine, I mean come on do you really need 76 pages to talk about a doggie pacemaker?"

"No I guess your right Adam, fine I'll get dressed so where are we going I need to know so I know how to dress."

"Well Savvy we're going to get you some much deserved fun."

Whenever Adam ever said that to me usually meant that we were going to a club, and that he would usually get so smashed that I had to carry him inside and put him to bed. So with that mentality I prepared for a night of well-earned fun.