I know it has been awhile, but yes I am still writing this story, and yes I am still writing Looking Back. College, that's all I've got to say. I know it's no excuse, but I do promise to finish both of my stories. After I finish updating this, I will probably go and work on Looking Back. This semester is really busy, I'm taking a lot of classes I probably should not be taking together (and was advised not to), but I thought I could do it. Luckily I've been doing fine so far, and there is only another two months left in the term. I know it's not long, but, ON WITH THE STORY!!!

Chapter 6: Reassurance

Is anything ever assured in life? Can you ever gaurentee that it will not hurt when yoiu begin, or even when it ends? There is no way anything can ever be gaurenteed. And no matter what happens, even if someone tells you that he or she will be there for you, with you, till the very end it does not always happen. Some say that is is a sign that it was not true love. You can not always guarentee a person's love. So many factors are involved, and although it is nice to hear that it does, love does not last forever. It grows old as the people do, and no turns into friendship. The love that was once built on passion dies and becomes ordinary. An everyday event that no longer makes it so unique. And this is why love dies.

-From the Diary of Son, Pan

It was after school and Trunks had accompanied Pan home. Before they even entered the house, Trunks was already asking Pan the questions she was scared to answer. Scared to tell the truth. And scared of what would come of them. Even with the questioning, they had somehow made it to her room, but his concern did not stop.

"Pan, what's wrong?" She could see worry shine through his eyes. Why did he have to be so caring? Why did he have to love her as much as he did? She didn't want to lie to him, but was she truly ready to tell him all the secrets of her past? He loved her, but could he accept the mistakes she had made?

"Trunks," she started, but her voice caught in her throat. She felt like she couldn't even look at him, and lowered her head, his eyes were too intense to look into anymore. Bringing herself closer to him, she wrapped her arms around his neck and burried her face into his chest. He sighed and then gave in. His arms wrapped around her holding, her tight.

"Pan, please tell me," he begged.

"I can't," she spoke barely above a whisper.

"Why?"

"Because I don't want you to hate me."

"What makes you think I would hate you?" he asked with a small laugh in his voice; as if he were speaking to a child that had killed a bug and was now trying to hide it.

"Because I hate myself for what I did." She looked into his eyes and saw confusion there. How was she to tell him?

"I won't hate you. Nothing could ever make me hate you. I promise."

"Please, I'm just not ready yet."

"It's okay," he said as he brought her closer to him. She placed her head into his chest again. "You can tell me when you are ready."

It was later that night, after the small argument between the two love birds that Pan had been sitting alone in the family room, flipping through wedding magazines. The television was on as background noise and every now and then she would look up to see what was happening on the reality show. More drama was the one thing she didn't need, but at least it kept her occupied and focused, somehow. She had been sitting there for quite sometime and everynow and then she would mark a page or two with a dress that she found interesting to go back and look at later. She sat there with a coke on the coffee table and two piles of magazines: one she had already gone through, and one she had yet to look at. She had been sitting there for quite some time, and her stomach started to grumble. It was at this time that her fiance decided to walk into the room with some food.

Pan looked up as soon as he entered the room with the smell of food wafting through the air. Fast food of course, but there were bags and bags of it. There was plenty to fill his saiyan appetite, but was he kind enough to bring some for her as well? It was at that moment he laid the bags in front of her and smiled. She looked up at him with hope and he simply smiled. She gave a cry of happiness as she placed her current magazine to the side, turned off the television, and began to dig through the bags finding burgers and fries. He handed her a coke that she placed next to her current one, and he sat next to her as the two began eating together.

"Looks like you've got your hands full," he said while noticing the piles of magazines.

"More than you know."

"Found interesting possibilities?"

"A few, but I'm not going to narrow down my choices just yet. I've still got a little bit of time," she said while finishing one burger and moving on to another.

"Well, you don't have too much time."

"This coming from the guy that hasn't even gotten the measurments for his tux yet, huh?"

"I know, I know. I have to get that done A.S.A.P. I just don't like wearing formal outfits is all."

"If I'm being forced to wear a dress, you will be forced to wear a tux."

"Who says you have to wear a dress?"

"My parents," she stated as if it were the most obvious thing in the world. She reached for one of her cokes, and after taking a sip, went for some fries.

"Well, we could skip the whole formal thing and just get hitched," he said only half teasing.

"We could. But then I think my parents would disown me."

"No they wouldn't. We would just never hear the end of it."

"You're right. But what gets me the most," she began, "is that this isn't even going to be a real wedding. Just another occasion for our parents to show us off some more."

"I know, Hun," Trunks said as he finished the last of his food and put his arm around her. "That's why I said we should just get hitched. Forget all of this."

"Yeah, but you also agreed that we would never hear the end of it," Pan smiled as she also finished her food and leaned into her fiance.

He smiled at thoughts of the incoming months. "We're going to be married soon."

"I know," her smile grew even wider. Moments went by as they sat there in silence, comfortable with just holding each other. For both of them, many things were running through their minds. The coming months were going to be a struggle. But they knew that whatever it is they would face, they would face it together. That simple reassurance allowed them to remain calm, and simply lay back and smile.

"I love you," she said, breaking the silence.

"I love you too."

Thank you all for reading, and please review!!! Reviews make me wanna write more! As you can see, I didn't get many reviews last time.

Once again time for my part...

Mz.Nervous-Thank you so much, and I'm glad you liked it. Life is as it always is, depressing, but managable. It's all smiles now cause it's Spring Break and I am literally the only person in my suite, so, YAY!!! No people, lol. How are you?

radames- Yes, Pan should trust in her heart. But you will all see what happens. And my first semester went quite well. I made Dean's List as well as Athletic Director's.

sonpan- I'm glad you liked it. Sorry this chapter did not get out as quickly as I would have liked, but at least it's still coming.

CrAzY-Fan-Fic-Addict- I'm glad you like them. Let's see...when will you know the big secrets...thinking...thinks harder...sorry, I am a blonde, this does hurt once in awhile...THINKING...Oh, I know when you will know. You will know when I get to that part...hm, I think that's pretty cool. lol, sorry, you're just gonna have to wait.

Tanya50801- Sorry I didn't update quickly, but at least I updated. I'm glad you're hooked. Thank you for reading.