Chapter 11

"You want to do WHAT???" Adam yelled at me

"You heard me Adam it's for the best."

"Savannah…I just don't know why you would want to do this all of a sudden. I thought you were having a good time."

"Adam, I love being here with you and everybody…but things have changed and I know now what I must do."

"But Savannah…moving back to Manhattan? I don't know I don't think it's a good idea. You'll be all alone. What happens if your old friends find out that you're back? What happens if you slip?"

"Adam…I'll be fine. I have a decent hunk of money saved up and I'll be able to get a decent apartment and I'll have to get a job to pay the bills."

"NO WAY! You are NOT going to compromise your schoolwork just to pay the bills. I'll front you the money and you can get a loft and I'll pay all the bills…provided that you maintain a B+ average."

"Adam that's silly…you know that my average is an A."

"Well Savvy…if this is what you want to do, then I can't stop you. I do have one question for you though…"

"Yea what is it?"

"Have you told Jeff yet?"

"No and I wasn't planning on it."

"Savvy don't be ridiculous… you have to tell him. The man is crazy for you. I mean come on...he spent 6 grand on a dog for you."

"Adam didn't you ever stop and think that maybe I don't want monetary possessions? Maybe I want true love?"

"Well Savvy… you're gonna have to tell him sooner or later."

"Yea I know I just don't know how or when."

"Well Savvy… I'm sure it'll come to you"

"Thanks Adam. I'll get to work finding a loft." I said as I walked him to the door.

"Savannah just promise me one thing…"

"Sure anything"

"Promise me that you'll think about this a little bit more… and think about how it's going to affect the people around you."

"Ok…bye" I said shutting the door.

I stood by the door thinking about everything, but mostly Jeff until Malachi barked and broke the trance I was in. "Ok Malachi I'll take you out."

I left my room and I as I shut the door I saw Jeff out of the corner of my eye. As I walked past him he said "Hey Savannah can I talk to you for a minute?" But I just walked past him and got into the elevator. I knew that I would eventually have to tell him that I was leaving but I just didn't know how. I walked Malachi to the park across the street, let him off his leash and sat down to write the hardest letter that I would ever have to write.

"Dude I just don't know what to do." Jeff said to his brother as he walked into the room. "I know I kind of lost it the other day but she won't even talk to me."

"Well dude…after what you told me you said to her I wouldn't want to talk to you either. Chicks take that kind of thing really seriously. Take it from me I know." Matt said.

"Oh how would you know Matt."

"Well Amy seem pretty happy about everything…guess what she told me today."

"What?"

"She told me that she's pregnant. Dude I'm gonna be a DAD!!!"

"Wow Matt that's great!" Jeff said giving his brother a huge hug. "That means I'm gonna be a uncle…Uncle Jeff…Has a nice ring to it."

"Yea it's really cool…I'm so happy. So what are you gonna do about Savannah?"

"I don't know I was going to ask her to go on a vacation with me…but I don't think that she wants anything to do with me. Dude I'm so stressed I don't know what I'm gonna do."

"Well Jeff you're smart, you'll figure something out."

"Yea thanks Matt, you're tons of help."

"Is that everything Savvy?" Adam said as he put my last bag into the car

"Yea Adam that's everything. I just have one more thing to do. Can you put Malachi in the car? I'll be right back."

"Yea sure no problem Savvy."

I walked back into the hotel for the last time and walked up to the front desk.

"Excuse me, could I leave something for a guest who's staying here?"

"Yes ma'am may I ask who it's for?"

"It's for Jeff Hardy. You can give it to him whenever you get a chance…its not really important." I said handing an envelope to the man

"Yes ma'am not a problem."

"Thank you" I walked back out to the car and got in.

"Ok Adam let's go before I change my mind."

"Ya know Savannah…having a change of heart isn't a bad thing."

"Yes it is Adam. Can we just go please?"

"Yea sure Savvy."

We drove to the airport in silence. All I thought about was how hurt Jeff was going to be when he read that letter. But this really was the only thing that I could do that would be the best for both of us. I could continue with my work and get my degree, and Jeff could focus on his career and go on his vacation in peace. We got to the airport in record time. I checked all my bag and prepared to board the plane.

"Well Adam I guess this is it…thank you again for everything."

"Savvy stop saying thanks…I'm your big brother…this is what I'm supposed to do. Now if Jeff asks me anything what should I tell him?"

"Well Adam…tell him the truth. I doubt that he's gonna ask. But if he does then tell him the truth and you could tell him where I am if you think that it's the right thing to do. It's up to you."

"Ok Savvy. Well get a move on you might miss your plane." Adam said giving me a big hug. "I love you Savvy be careful and call me when you get there."

"Ok Adam I will"

"Oh Savvy?"

"Yea?"

"Here's a number that you might want." he said handing me a small piece of paper. It was Jeff's cell number. "Just in case." he said smiling at me. I shoved the number in my pocket and boarded my plane. I sat on the plane and started to cry. I had just lost the love of my life.