Chapter 12

I got into my new loft to find it fully furnished to my surprise. I guess people will do a lot more for you once they find out that your brother is a world famous WWE superstar. I let Malachi out of his doggie crate. He started to run around like crazy. 'Man its good thing I got a loft and not some hole-in-the-wall apartment. There just wouldn't be enough room.' I thought to myself, as I looked the loft over. Man it was a great place… right across the street from Central Park… in the middle of the hustle and bustle of the city. But yet it wasn't where I wanted to be. The only place I wanted to be was in Jeff's arms. Happy, safe, and secure. I know that he loved me…but what he said to me that day in the park really upset me. There was nothing I could do but take the higher path and cut connections with him, it was only the right thing to do.

"Dude I can't find her." Jeff said franticly "I checked her room…checked the park across the street, and even looked for Adam but he's no where to be found. I don't know what to do!!"

"Well Jeff did you think to check at the front desk." Amy said while looking at a baby catalog

"Yea" Matt said "Maybe she left a note or an address for you down there."

"Yea that's a good idea." Jeff said as he ran out the door at lightning speed.

"Excuse me, but did someone leave anything here for me, Jeff Hardy."

"Why yes sir, a beautiful young lady left this for you yesterday" the concierge said as he handed Jeff the note.

"Thank you" Jeff said taking the note, ripping it open and reading the contents:

"Jeff,

I know that this isn't exactly the right way to do this. But after what you said to me the other day…I don't see another way. I'm gone…I've decided I'm going to go away and go somewhere where I can focus on my studies and leave you alone so that you can take your vacation in peace and not worry about me. I'm sorry that I know what I want. I'm also sorry that if what I want isn't what you like. Jeff I'm a strong-minded person and I really tried hard to give you some hope but I guess that it wasn't good enough for you. Jeff whenever I'm with you…I feel something I've never felt before. When I'm with you I feel happy, safe and secure for once in my life. Jeff I truly feel something for you, but I'm not sure what it is. And until I'm sure of what it is… I must keep my distance from you. I'm sorry and I truly feel that I will miss you a great deal but this is what I feel I must do right now in order to get what I want out of my life.

I'm sorry

Savannah"

"SHIT!!" Jeff said aloud "I lost her"

Jeff paced up and down the hallway outside of Adams room 'if anybody knows where Savannah is, he will.' Jeff thought to himself. Just then Jeff heard the elevator bell ding and saw Adam step out. Jeff ran up to him "Adam where is she? Is she okay? What's going on?"

"Whoa Jeff dude, slow down. When you talk that fast, only dogs can hear you. Come in here I have to talk to you."

Adam took Jeff into his room and sat him down and has long talk with him. Adam explained my mindset and why I did what I did.

"But Adam I don't get it. I love Savannah. Why would she think like that? All I wanted to do was give her everything I had…but she wouldn't take it."

"Jeff…you gotta understand. Savannah is very much like our father…god rest his soul. Whenever she had something that she wants, she gets scared. She thinks that if something good happens…something bad is going to immediately happen to take that good thing away. Jeff, Savannah is crazy about you. But she's scared. Her last boyfriend, who she thought she was going to spend the rest of her life with, left her…for another man. That can really fuck someone up. Savannah is very confident, but she's not always like that. She puts on a very good front…but that's all it is, a front. If you really want to be with her, you have to prove that you really do feel all the things you say. You have to get her to let you in. You have to prove to her that you want her as much as you say you do. Now I'll do you a favor, only if you do one in exchange for me."

"Yea sure anything."

"I'll give you Savanna's address on the condition that you don't break her heart. I swear Jeff, I swear, if you break her heart…I'll break your legs."

"I swear man I won't do it. I'll love her with all I have."

"Ok well here's her address…" Adam said scribbling on a piece of paper. "But please don't tell her I gave it to you, she'll kill me. Here's her number at the loft. I suggest that you call here before you do anything crazy."

"Who me? I would never do anything crazy."

"Yea right Jeff I know you."

Jeff left the room smiling and plotting what he was going to do next.

"Malachi SLOW DOWN!!" I yelled at the top of my lungs as Malachi dragged me all the way across Central Park, chasing a squirrel. Malachi was almost 8 months old and BOY had he grown! He was almost 5 feet long from the tip of his nose to the tip of his tail. He weighed about 200 pounds and boy did it show! He had no problem dragging me anywhere, whether it be to the park or out of my bed to feed him. At night he would lay in bed with me as I typed in my blog. There was one particular night when I saw and stared at the scrap of paper that Adam had given me…the one with Jeff's number on it. I thought about calling him many time but in the end decided to forget all about it. He probably wouldn't remember me anyway. But this night was different. I swear that all day, I had seen either Jeff or things that reminded me of him. I couldn't get him out of my mind lately. Malachi looked at me and barked, as if he knew that I wanted to call him, but was to scared to do it. I mustered up the courage to call him. As the phone rang I felt my heart jump into my throat. He answered with his beautiful southern drawl. The minute I hear his voice, I hung up. I cursed myself for calling him. Then the phone rang 'Shit! I didn't press 67 shit now he had my number…should I answer it? Yea I'm gonna stop being a chicken shit and talk to him.'

"Hello?"

"Yea hi I just received a call from this number."

"Oh really? Yea that was me." I said

"Oh yea who's…Savannah?"

"Yea hi Jeff"

"Oh my god Savannah I've waited so long to hear from you. I've stared at your number so many nights wanting to call you but I just couldn't do it."

"Yea well you should ha…how did you get my number in the first place?"

"Well…I…uh. Your brother gave it to me after I begged him for it."

"Oh really?"

"Yea so wow I really miss you how's New York?"

"It's good. It's…wait, how did you know that I was in New York?"

"Well again I begged your brother. After much promising and convincing, he gave me address."

"Wow that's crazy because I swear that I've been seeing you around New York all day."

"Well I've got a surprise for you Savannah"

"Oh really and what's that Jeff?"

"I'm outside your building. Now are you going to let me in or are you going to let me freeze out here all night?"

"Your WHAT?"

"You heard me now come down here and let me in."

"Ok Jeff I'll be right down."

I hung up the phone, ran into the bathroom and started primping then ran downstairs like a giddy school girl to open the door and let the love of my life in.