Reliving the Past
By: CallxMexSenseixSenpaixSama

I. Love. The Rising Gods of the East. They're unbelievably handsome. : )

And the most exciting news of all! The daughter has a name!!! I know certain people wanted it. Ahaha. And it's supposed to be Tohru and her mom's, Kyoko, name combination. But it turned out to sound like the pairing of Kyou and Tohru. Ahahaha. How amusing... ? And apparently, I don't believe that Kyoru has a meaning like all names do. Eh. Oh well. Prove me wrong anytime Ahaha.

Oh and the different stories being told from the different views, they're taking place at different times. So please don't think that it's all happening in chronic order. But I don't mean that all of it is all mixed up and such. Just some. Yeah, I don't know how to explain. Thank you.

Wait a tic, Kyou thought. He looked up towards them. "You know?!"

"Yeah. I visited Tohru earlier with the others that know as well. Then Momiji here popped out of nowhere at the doorstep." Yuki answered.

"I was looking for Yuki but his wife, Machi-san, told me that he went visiting Tohru with Haru and Rin. I wanted to have a little ice cream party." Momiji explained.

"Pff. Ice cream party?" laughed Yuki. Suddenly, his cellphone rang. He looked around his jacket for it until he found it. "Is something wrong, Machi?"

"Yuki... Yuki...! I'm pregnant! It's been 2 months now. I wasn't sure at first, and I didn't want to scare you. But I'm pregnant!"

He opened his mouth, but no words came out. He felt joy, yet felt an even stronger oppressing emotion; fear. What if... What if their child... ?

"Shigure... Where have you been?"

"Akito, love. I was visiting my other sweetheart, Ayame." Shigure looked at her. She was turned around, cooking something. Did she know yet, per chance?

"Shigure. I felt something weird today. It was strange. Making me feel weak... But it's familiar. It's been a long time since I last felt it." She turned around. Tears were streaming down her face. "Shigure. Tell me it's just a dream. Tell me it's not real."

He stepped forward and hugged her. So it was true. But he didn't want her to know about it. He didn't want her, who could've possibly suffered the most, to learn about it. He didn't say anything. Letting Akito cry on him while hugging her tightly, he looked up. What can he do? What can he say? Everything's more difficult now.

Tohru sat there, folding the laundry. Haru, Rin, Ichigo and Yuki came to visit her the other day. And then Momiji came along. It was refreshing. She smiled at the thought. Folding Kyou's white shirt, she wondered, what brought the curse back? And how could she get rid of it? Last time... it wasn't her that got rid of it. It was just by luck that it disappeared. Just luck. What could she do now? Sometimes, she felt so useless...

She heard Kyoru wake up with a gurgle. When she neared the crib, she screamed in shock. Kyoru was drowning in her drool! Grabbing the nearest cloth, she wiped it frantically. She half expected to hear a soft laugh, like always. But the room was empty. No one there to be with her. Was her greatest fear met? Was Kyou taken away by the curse? Did she do something wrong? Tears splashed onto her baby.

"I'm sorry, Kyoru-chan. I'm so stupid, aren't I? Mommy's sorry for everything. Because of her... because of her.."

Kyou slipped off his shoes. It was late at night and the house was all dark except for one room. Was Tohru sleeping and unconsciously left a light on? Or was she waiting.. ? Hesitantly, he approached the room with the lights on. There was Tohru... she was sleeping on the ground. How careless of her... she'll catch a cold like that. Kyoru was sleeping peacefully. As he neared Tohru, he realized that there was tear streaks down her face. Eyes widening, he stopped for a second. But he continued and took out a blanket from their linen closet. Putting it over her, the breeze it created made her hair flutter. Her face was so pale. And lifeless. Anyone could believe that she was dead. Thank goodness that she was still breathing, though. Sitting down next to her, he touched her face, gently. He knew... He knew that it was because of him that she's like this. Covering his head with his arms, he closed his eyes. What's wrong with him? He's not worth being with her. She'd be better off without him!

It's been said before... To thank her for what she's done for him. To thank her for loving him no matter what. But why couldn't he say it when it matters the most?

He picked her up in a way so she wouldn't wake up and set her on the bed. Tucking her in, which was extremely difficult in the position she was in, he walked out to the back porch. He gazed at the stars in the sky. He thought of all the times when Tohru joined him on the roof, to talk with him, to comfort him, to keep him company. Why didn't he have the courage to say the things he wanted to say? Why didn't he have the strength to overcome his fears?

Fear. Anticipation. Anxiety. That's what he felt as he was on the way home. The train slowed to a stop and the automated voice came on. He stepped out and looked around. Machi had said she'd be here waiting. When the crowd cleared for a second, he saw her, standing there. She looked scared with a touch of hope. And happiness?

"Yuki-kun. How was your visit?" she asked.

"It was nice."

There was a silence. How much longer until the subject will be brought up?

"Yuki... Are you happy?"

"Why?"

"You look worried."

He didn't know how to answer this. Was he happy? Honestly, he wasn't. He pulled her closer to him and kissed her head.

"I'm just tired. Hours on a crowded train. You know how it is." He smiled.

"Ne. It wasn't that long. I knew it. You're too perfect for a ride like that." They both laughed. "So... what are your thoughts on your future child?"

Again. Again, he would have to lie in some way. "I hope it'll grow up with a future that has much freedom." I hope. Hope. But it's diminishing...

".. It?"

"Hey now. We don't know if it's a girl or boy."

"Should we go see?"

He thought for a moment. "Let's put it off." Was he being cowardly? To not want to know much more about his child to be... ?