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She was suddenly feeling so alone when she was in class. There was something changing in her, something deep down inside, something she couldn't really explain. Why were these unexplained feelings trapping her from enjoying her free time? Why were these unexplained feelings making her unable to do some of the simplest tasks in her daily life? Alyssa started to notice it, but didn't really say anything, in fear that she would snap at her.

Sirius, on the other hand, had no problem talking to her. He just ended up acting like his usual, peppy self and hopping on over to her at breakfast, which she now had alone and sat next to her.

"What's up?" She was mixing the remainder of her cereal, which was a lot and now mostly mush, around in her bowl.

"Nothing really." She sighed. "Just thinking, really, I guess." She pushed her bangs away from her eyes. He got cozy in his seat; as he thought it would take a while for her to really open to him. Severus had just gotten into the Great Hall and was about to take his new usual seat across from Jess, when he noticed Sirius. He never really got along well with Sirius, so he sat at the end of the Slytherin table and watched as people at his table gave him scornful looks for what he had done to Lucius.

"You must be doing some serious thinking! You've been acting like this for days now! What's really wrong? I'm starting to get concerned about you!" He just kept smiling, but she kept looking at her mushy bowl of once edible food.

"I feel…..lonely." She spilled to him. His smile faded and he looked more like his name intended him to be.

"Why is that?" He looked deeply affected by what she was saying. To think, someone he has known for so long was feeling so lost and unable to cope with their feelings right under his nose.

"I don't know, but sometimes, I just feel like transforming into my animagus form and away. I used to feel that way when people would tease me, when I used to get humiliated, but now, I just want to run away all the time. I feel like there's this, I guess, void in my heart were I feel that love that I have never really known, should go." Sirius felt tears coming to his eyes, why was it that she felt this way? Why was it that she never told anyone that she wanted to leave this place sometimes? But mostly, why was it that he never noticed it? She smiled softly, trying to ward off any upcoming emotions of sorrow. "I sometimes make a master plan to run away. But I figured, that the only place I would ever be able to go, would be your house, or an orphanage, and they would call my parents and force them, even if they don't want to, to acknowledge my existence. I don't want to rip them out of their 'perfect' world for them to have to come pick me up or something."

She kept messing around with the spoon but eventually put it in the bowl and pushed it forward, away from her, crossed her arms on the table and laid her head on them, forcing her to look at Sirius. Sirius quickly brushed away some tears and tried to comfort her, "I gotta tell you, you're parents may act like their lives are perfect, but I can honestly see that if they paid attention to you, and realized how much of an amazing opportunity they are passing up by not giving you a try, their lives would be better." All she did was shrug so he decided to take a different approach, "Why have you never told anyone you've thought about running away?" She just blinked at him then asked back,

"Who would I tell?" Sirius quizzically looked at her.

"Well, why not tell James?" Jessica just scoffed.

"Why? So he can laugh at me and say, 'Go ahead! No one's going to miss you!'" she straightened back up and stretched a little, "I don't know about you, but I've never been known to win many arguments in my own defense. I guess you could say I'm like Wormtail." Sirius's eyes widened and he was suddenly angry with her answer. He couldn't even look her in the face. How could she insult herself the way she just did?

"You may submit to what some people want you to believe, but you are NOT spineless! You can defend yourself when you really need to!" He looked at her with pleading eyes, "Don't give up on yourself or I will surely give up on life" He smiled sweetly and placed a thoughtful hand on her thigh.

She was about to protest more, when a younger-looking, yet less attractive version of Sirius in Slytherin colors walked in front of them. He placed a hand on the table and leaned over, holding up a black envelope with the Black family crest on it.

"Look what I got!" he smirked. Sirius looked at him and sighed,

"Do you really think I give a damn, Regulus?" Jessica wasn't paying much attention to the conversation, but more to the slightly creeping upward hand on her thigh. Regulus, slightly defeated, turned his attention to the girl.

"Do you know what this is?" He smiled the same sweet smile that Sirius had just given her, trying to win her over. She shook her head no and he leaned closer to her. "Do you want to know?" His smile started turning into an evil grin. She opened her mouth to answer when Sirius stopped her,

"Don't provoke him." Regulus was moving a little away from the table, "He's like a leech. He'll take you for all you're worth then drop you faster than a bad habit." She frowned now finally seeing his point. She started to stand and what came next surprised her more than Sirius's entire speech.

"Will you go out with me?" Regulus asked, grabbing her hand. Sirius was at a loss for words. She, with unintentional cruelty, snatched her hand back and said,

"You're not my type," she then snapped his emerald and silver collar, removed herself from the bench and was almost turning the corner from the Great Hall when she threw her hand up, brandishing her left thumb, index and middle fingers while saying, "See you in Divinations, Sirius." With that, she was out of sight.

LATER THAT DAY

Jessica smiled when she noticed that it was snowing out. When class was over, she ran down the stairs and to Gryffindor Tower. She immediately did all her homework and then changed into a pair of recreation clothes which was a pair of old jeans, a Gryffindor tee, low tops, and a big sweatshirt that James had outgrown about a year ago. She then rushed outside to bask in the cool, white flakes. She saw that no one outside like her so she figured that either no one could see the beauty she did, or was bogged down with too much work.

She was soon lost in her own train of thought and was walking in her own pace, to and fro. Sirius had noticed that she was outside and decided that she might like some company. When he came outside, he grabbed her hand and smiled,

"What are you doing?"

"Well, I'm pacing and trying to think at the same time. But it's not really working because I keep getting distracted by the beauty of the snow." she smiled back at him. "Do you wanna join me?" And he nodded and they started pacing together, hand in hand, which neither of them had noticed. Soon she said, "Sirius?" and he turned to face her and what he got was a face full of snow. He gasped at how surprisingly cold it was, then immediately broke their intertwined fingers apart. They both scrambled to get fistfuls of snow, Jessica was already laughing, she had never done this with anyone. She was about to throw the packed mound of snow at him, when she got hit square in the face with an eqaul amount that she first threw at him.

She hit the ground, and was trying to wipe it away, she heard Sirius running toward her. He leaned foward and said, "Are you okay?" She looked up at him, slightly bewildered and with an incredibly red face. The redness left soon while she gazed up into his sparkling grey eyes. With a quick pull, she yanked him down and into the snow next to her, only this time, he was face first. She was trying to contain her laughter, but it didn't really work. He propped himself up on his elbow and looked angry with what she did.

"You think it's funny to fall face first into ice cold snow?" She was trying to lose her smile. She shook her head no to reassure him that it wasn't. "Well, how would you like it if I did this?" and in a flash, he was laying on top of her. The redness had returned to her face, and not because of the snow. He smirked down at her, and brushed a few strands of hair away from her face. He was gazing into her eyes and her into his. She didn't know what to say, but Sirius knew what was on both of their minds.

He leaned into her just a little more, she then leaned into him and they were suddenly locked into a sweet kiss. It was the first kiss that she had ever recieved but she knew it wasn't the first for him. It felt so right that it was Sirius being the one she was kissing. For that one moment, she felt that their worlds were now intertwined and inseperable.

The snow was no falling in thick sheets which made it very hard to see what was going on in the distance. A dark, shadowy figure was coming towards them and stopped abruptly before they had noticed. The voice was slightly shrill and made them cut their romancing short. Jessica looked over at a tearing Alyssa. She didn't want to lose her best friend over a boy so she ended up basically shoving Sirius off of her and running over to her and hugging her.

"I'm so sorry!!!" Alyssa wipped some tears away.

"Sorry for what?" She looked her in the face.

"For what Sirius and I just did...?" Sirius was now standing up and brushing the snow off of him.

"I'm not mad!!!" Alyssa said. Then, when Jessica's guard was down, she practically tackled her to the ground. Sirius saw as they both fell with a crunch from the snow. Alyssa was hugging onto her tightly. "WE'RE GONNA BE SISTER IN LAWS!!!" Jessica struggled to get away from her. Sirius was now backing away, and Jessica was freaking out,

"Who said he and I were gonna get married?!?!" She got away from her and stood up, not caring about the condition of her clothes.

"I did!!" Alyssa was now face to face with her again, smiling. Sirius walked over and put a hand on Jessica's hip and smiled.

"I can't wait to be married to her!" Jessica was pulling away,

"What?!?" He pulled her closer and kissed her.

"Awww!!" Alyssa clasped her hands together in front of her chest. She smiled and remembered why she had come outside in the first place. "Oh, well, have fun you too!" She pulled a letter out of her coat pocket and headed toward the Owlery. Sirius and Jessica were lip locked for several minutes, until she pulled away, shaking slightly.

"Can we go inside?" She looked up at him, he smiled and nodded. They ended up walking hand-in-hand up the stairs all the way to Gryffindor Tower, and spending the rest of the evening together in the common room by the cozy fire. Jessica was so happy with Sirius and he was happy with her.

But there was still a problem with their relationship...

END

Another chapter bites the dust! I have an entire squel planned too! Well, idea's are welcome and so have you seen in this chapter. Thank you cola-chan!!

-Jessi . 33