Chapter 5:
A fog so thick havored over me that I wasn't wanting to wake up at all yet a cool, wet sensation washed over and I whimpered a bit.
"Tis alright sweetheart. Keep on resting. God knows that you are much need of it" came what sounded like Fulcinia's voice. I strained my ear to hear anymore but the dizzy fog would not lift much and I fell back into the mist of darkness yet a young knight in the back head always.
About a little while later...
A warm hand stroked the back of mine, softly and tenderly easing me to awaken. With a moan I stirred with that comforting stroke upon my hand. Then as if remembering something my eyes flew open and jumped awake but hissed at the pain that shot through me. Startled I felt someone's comforting hand upon my shoulder. I looked up into the comforting eyes of Guinevere.
"Oh thanks to god that you are alright" she breathed in relief. I blinked a bit at the light but then I gave her a comforting smile.
"You and my brother when it comes to your god. You both disturb me at times" I cracked. Guinevere smiled through the tears.
"I was so worried. We almost lost you but you are truly a hero for saving Dagonet" she remarked. I merely nodded but then at the sound of Dagonet I snapped my face back towards her as I made to rise.
"Dagonet! What goes with Dagonet?" I asked desperately. Guinevere physically had to hold me down to make sure I didn't strain myself.
"Do not worry Shirin, Dagonet is fine. He's resting as well as should you" she remarked. My head begun spinning at all of this, Guinevere noticed and pushed me back down.
"You need to rest" she strained on that statement. I shook my head, got up, swung my legs over the side as I rose from the bed ignoring the dizziness that overtook me.
"I must see for myself" I explained. Guinevere tried to plead with me but I ignored her as I made to move past her and made for the front of the carriage to get towards Dagonet when suddenly Lancelot stood before me.
"Pray tell milady where are you going?" he asked calmly. I glanced at him and made to move around him when the floor beneath me moved and I swayed yet Lancelot reached out and steadied me.
"Alright milady you need to rest" he ordered as he quickly swept me up within his arms and carried me back towards my bed just as Guinevere rose from the edge of the bed. She smiled comfortingly at Lancelot who merely nodded at her as he set me down upon the bed, I swallowed the lump in my throat as I gazed at him sympatically.
"Lancelot you need not worry, I got a bit dizzy tis all" I remarked. He smiled down at me as he brushed a lock of hair out of my face as he stroked my cheek.
"How do you fare? You feeling alright?" I remarked. I reached out and cupped his cheek, feeling his rough yet light beard under my hands and a tingle shot through me. He leaned in to kiss me while he held me tenderly.
"Well, well a moment you seem to never let past my friend" drawled a amused voice. We snapped out of our moment and turned towards the voice and I blushed upon seeing my brother there.
Lancelot merely smirked at my brother and his grip around me did not falter as he turned towards me. "Milday I make my leave" he remarked as I smiled.
He pressed a kiss upon my forehead and whispered within my ear as he gave me his trademark grin that made my heart all a flutter.
"We shall speak later" he murmured. I nodded and without thining I kissed his cheek as he smiled at me then squeezed my hand that was held within his own then he rose and shared a smile with Arthur, turned to me with a departing nod and smile then left outside.
I turned towards Arthur to see what his reaction was about whatever that Lancelot and I were, we've haven't had a chance to speak of which matter we stood with one another.
I gazed up at my brother, reaching out for his hand excitedly. He grasped my small hand within his big, strong one and I noticed the roughness, the evidence of years of work and battle. I stroked his hand gently as if afraid I would harm him somehow.
"I worried so about you Arthur" I murmured breathlessly. He gazed at me with tortured eyes then he reached out and gathered me within the comfort of his arms as I took in a shaken breath to keep my emotions under control.
"Dont you dare do that to me again, I cannot bear it if I loose you. You wish for my heart to stop beating? I agree with Lancelot, I will die if I loose you once again" he muttered brokingly. I felt tears welling up in my eyes at the thought I losing both Arthur and Lancelot. I kissed his cheek comfortingly then pressed my hand against his cheek.
"My dear brother I shall never leave you ever again, I love you to much to do so" I murmured. He nodded as he pulled away. A bit embaressed at showing his emotions so freely.
I gazed up at him with a smile as he brushed a hair out of my face then smiled deeply at me, he traced my face with his eyes.
"You look beautiful with each passing moon. So much like your mother" he remarked. I smiled then I grinned a bit mischeviously.
"Arthur with your permission may I go see Dagonet?" I asked. Desperately needing to see him, my brother in arms, to see how he fared.
I pleaded with my eyes towards my brother who merely smiled as he shook his head. "My dear sister, you seem so much like me" he remarked.
I nodded as I rose with his help then I quickly ran towards the entrance of the carriage and saw that Dagonet truly did fare well for he sat upon his horse much to my surprise. I glanced at Arthur who smiled at seeing the relief that was avident upon my face.
I slipped down noticing the gown that I downed seemed to be quite revealing for I noticed as I jumped down upon the cool ground that the knights and many of the other men that were around gazed at me with lustful eyes but it mattered not to me.
"Dagonet!" I squealed. He turned with a smile as I made to jump into his arms, he caught me within his arms as he hugged me to him.
"Ahhh little one I am so glad to see you well again, you are alright are you not?" he wondered. I nodded enthusastically. He chattered as I chattered back but was quite aware of intense brown eyes watching me and I turned to see Lancelot watching me intently.
Dagonet caught the look in my eyes as well as Lancelot's who seemed as if he wished to devour me but I merely smiled brightly then I turned towards Dagonet.
"I'm so happy that you are also well" I remarked. He smiled then he rode us over towards Lancelot and helped me to settle myself upon Lancelot's horse and within the warmth of his embrace. I saw Lancelot nod in thanks towards Dagonet as he nudged his horse gently towards a gallop so that we were a bit ahead of the others.
I watched as we past some trees that looked quite familiar. I gazed up at Lancelot and traced the outline of his strong face with my hand as he closed his eyes in pleasure.
He took my hand within his own. "God Shirin how do I tell you what hell I went through? I thought I almost lost you" he murmured brokenly. I heard the hitch in his voice and closed my eyes in pain at his matter of pain. I grasped his hand that held mine.
"For godsakes Lancelot tell me! Tell me what I longed to hear for so long!" I pleaded. He gazed down at me with tortured eyes yet a light of love shone within the deep chocolateness of his eyes. I searched his face and saw the answer there yet I wanted the comfort of his words.
He took a deep breath as he leaned in close towards my face to where we were only a breath apart from one another and inches away from kissing one another as he dug his hand in my hair, tracing my skin with his finger as I closed my eyes in pleasure.
"I love you Shirin Castus, I have always loved you" he admitted breathlessly. I smiled as tears of happiness welled up into my eyes, I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him to me in a passionate kiss that raised a fire within my soul. I felt his arms wrap around my waist, pulling me into his lap as he kissed me back. I heard a round of appalause that sounded from the others as they rejoiced our unity yet not completely.
I whimpered a bit as he nipped the side of my mouth yet he chuckled in happiness as I giggled as I wrapped my arms around him in a tightened hug.
"I love you too Lancelot, I truly do and always have and shall always" I murmured. He grinned as he laughed out in happiness then he turned towards Arthur who merely nodded his approval yet his eyes held a serious glint that if he dared hurt his baby sister he would have to answer to him. Lancelot merely nodded.
Guinevere looked over at me with a happy smile and held tears in her eyes as she looked over at Arthur with the same gaze that I held for Lancelot.
I snuggled myself within Lancelot's embrace yet he gave a groan. Startled I looked at him concernly yet he gave me his trademark smirk.
"Milady if you keep moving about, your virgin eyes will be in for quite a surprise" he joked. My eyes widened in shock at his words and the evidence of the meaning beneath me yet I couldn't help to put truth to his words and I wiggled about causing him to growl warningly as he tightened his hold to keep me still.
"Shirin please stop for I dont want to have you this way. I wish to have you as my wife, as the way it was meant to be" he explained. I turned startled at his exclamation.
"Lancelot if I didn't no any better I would say that you are proposing" I remarked. He turned towards Arthur then turned towards me.
"Milady only if you'll have me" he remarked. I turned towards him. "Lancelot you will become a free man and tomorrow shall return to your home. What then?" I asked. Lancelot cupped my chin as he made me look within the depths of his eyes.
"I wish for you to return with me and become my wife. Together we shall make beautiful babys" he cracked. I giggled but I had to agree. I nodded in agreement and he kissed me again.
Never have I felt so alive, so free. The embrace of love that I had made to run away from had finally took claim of me and I saw that I would not have it any other way. If only it remained this way forever.