All right, the reviews after the last update were amazing. So thank you guys so much, you are all amazing. But there's one little thing I want to clear up.

When Sadie was with Tommy, she spent one night with Reid. She didn't know, and still doesn't know, if the baby was Tommy's or Reid's. She only married Reid because he thought the baby was his and was trying to make things right. They tried to get an annulment when they realized they had made a mistake but after intercourse an annulment is unobtainable. So they were in the process of getting a divorce when Reid was shot. No one knew about this except Sadie, Reid, Reid's brother, and Paul. John doesn't know the full story, only that Sadie and Reid were married (and technically still are). Tommy doesn't know anything and Jude only knows what she overheard Sadie saying. But she doesn't necessarily understand it.

Blueberry Blue

John woke up to see nothing, or rather no one, in his bed. His groaned and fell back into the pillows, his head hitting something crunchy. He turned over and saw a now crumpled note.

'Johnny Boy,

I know what you're thinking. She left

me. But I didn't. I mean, I did. But, not like

that. Alright, this is making

no sense. I love you, I really do.

I just need to clear my head. I went

for a little drive. I'll be back in a few hours.

And I'll probably be at the studio tomorrow,

so there's nothing to worry about. I'll have

my cell on, so don't worry. I'm not

running away. (Although that will

probably be easier.) I love you, no

matter what I do. You'll always be it.

Love you always,

Cherry

John groaned again and stood. He pulled on some clothes and looked at the clock. 3 a.m. He grabbed his car keys only to realize they weren't there. 'Jude…' he inwardly groaned. 'She went for a drive, for a few hours, in my car.'

John sighed and opened the front door; maybe a nice jog would calm him down.

Jude walked further into the church. "Sadie?!" She yelled. The blonde jumped. She turned around, "Jude?"

Jude nodded, "Oh yeah. But let's talk about you. You were married? Like as in promising to spend your lives together? With Reid? Why didn't I know about this?!"

Sadie help up a hand, signaling for Jude to calm down. "Now Jude, it's not what it sounds like. You don't understand."

"Did you love him?"

Jude crossed her arms over her chest, waiting for Sadie's answer.

Sadie stuttered, taken aback by the question. "Uh…um…wh-what?"

Jude rolled her eyes. "So you didn't love Reid. My brother. My best friend. You married my best friend!! And you didn't even care about him!"

Sadie looked angry, "Of course I cared about him!! But I love someone else! It's hard to say I love someone else too!"

Jude rolled her eyes again, "Please, you never cared about Reid. What's his favorite color? His favorite fruit to eat in the morning for breakfast? His favorite--"

Sadie cut her off, "Color? Blue. Fruit? Blueberries. Favorite Person? You." Jude took a deep breath. "Alright, so you know a few little facts about him. Don't think of it as a win Sadie."

Sadie rolled her eyes, "Look, I'm sorry I didn't tell you. But Reid and me wanted to keep it quiet! After it happened we tried to get an annulment but we couldn't. So we were in the process of getting a divorce when…well, you know."

Jude took a deep breath. "Let me guess, Sadie. You were all broken about Tommy and the baby so you ran right into the arms of the next guy that would take you."

Sadie looked taken aback by Jude's words. "No…"

"Yes! That's exactly what you did Sadie! Don't lie!"

Sadie walked closer to Jude, screaming now. "No! The baby could have been his!"

Jude stood there astonished. "But…but I"

Sadie looked down, ashamed, "Look, Jude, I'm sorry bout what I said…"

Jude smacked her across the face, just like she had smacked Jude that day. "But I broke up with him!! You made me feel so guilty!"

Sadie reeled back and held her cheek. "Jude, I said I'm sorry…"

Jude just ran a hand through her hair and walked out of the church. Sadie just watched her go.

"Alright where is she?!"

Tommy stood from his place at the dining room table. He looked at John with confusion. "What're you doing here?"

John looked around the apartment. "I know she's here! You probably apologized and fed her some crap excuse. Where is she?"

Tommy followed John around the apartment, "Jude? Are you talking about Jude?"

John stopped and turned to Tommy, a livid expression on his face. "If you think I'm gonna find a different girl in your apartment I am going to kill you."

Tommy sighed and rubbed his eyes, "No, there is no one else here. What are you talking about? I haven't seen Jude since yesterday. But I figured you'd have seen her."

John looked down, "Look man, I'm sorry. I really am. But I do love her, and I can't help that. Try to understand."

Tommy nodded, "I do understand, but that doesn't mean I have to like it."

John rolled his eyes, "Well then I don't have to like the fact that you make Jude feel like she isn't good enough."

"What are you talking about?"

John sighed, "Like she didn't tell you. Jude broke up with you because she thought she ruined your life. She felt like she brought you down and you were better than her."

Tommy looked shocked, "Why would she do that?"

John shook his head, "I don't know."

"It doesn't matter why I did it. All that matters is that I did."

Both guys turned to the doorway and looked at Jude. She threw the car keys at John and he caught them, "Sorry about taking the car." She turned to Tommy, "You deserve better than me. I'm a murderer Tommy. I ruined your life and if Reid was still alive I would've ruined his life too."

Tommy walked toward Jude and took her hands in his, "Jude, if that's why you ended things than I disagree. You are the best thing that ever happened to me."

"But how would a baby make you feel?"

A smile spread across Tommy's face, "Are you pregnant?!" He wrapped his arms around her waist and spun her around. John watched from the side, an emotionless expression on his face.

Tommy set Jude down and she shook her head, "No, I wasn't the one who was pregnant. It was…" But then John's cell phone rang. Tommy turned to him quickly but then turned back to Jude, signaling for her to continue.

"Yes? Oh hello…it was?...but why?...Carden…is there going to be a trial?...No?...Alright, thank you so much. This is great…you too…bye."

Jude shook her head when Tommy told her to finish. She walked to John and took his big hands in her small ones. "What was that?"

John put his cell phone back in his pocket and looked a Jude. A smile spreading across his face. "Officer Carden is in jail. Along with Brock."

A smile spread across her face too, "Brock? As in leader of the Front Brothers?"

John nodded, but his smile fell. "Yeah, apparently Carden called in a favor with Brock. Take me out. They missed in the drive by and got Reid. There's no trial. They're both going on for life."

Jude pulled John into a hug, holding him close. "This is great. Gone forever?"

John pulled away and looked down, "Yeah, just like Reid."