Blueberry Blue

Chapter Nine

About a Week Later

Tommy walks into G-Major, distraught. Jude was still with John. They were dating but he could tell it wasn't going well. Jude still hasn't finished what she had started to say. Something about a baby. He wanted her back, he needed her. No way in hell was she bad for him, they were perfect together. Weren't they?

Tommy walked passed the receptionist desk. That's another thing. Sadie's seemed to be in some kind of depression. She was crying right now. She quickly blew her nose and stood when she saw Tommy. "Tommy, wait!"

Tommy turned to her, "Sades, what's up?"

She wiped he eyes quickly and looked at him. "It's time I come clean. You need to know."

Tommy looked at her quizzically. "Sadie, are you alright? What's going on?"

Sadie took his hand and led him to Darius' office. "He's out of town for the day." She explained.

When they got into the office Sadie turned and locked the door and then shut the blinds to the small window. Then she turned to Tommy who was leaning on the desk, looking a little frightened. "Are you sure everything's okay?"

Sadie shook her head. "No…"

Tommy stood and took her small hands in his big warm ones. "Sades, it's okay. You can tell me."

Sadie looked up through teary eyes. "When we were dating, I cheated."

Tommy pulled back, "What?"

Sadie looked down, "It was just one night, we had that really bad fight. And you said 'Well maybe I should just end it then.' It scared me so I went to Paul. I couldn't find Paul but I found Reid. He was apparently hurting because of something Jude did. He was crushing on her, so we kind of, hooked up."

Tommy looked angry. "Sadie! You cheated! I never cheated! Even when you thought I did, I didn't! And you were screaming at me and broke up with me, you hypocrite!!"

Sadie looked down, "I know, and I am so sorry. But there's more."

Tommy's eyes blazed, "More?"

Sadie nodded and motioned for him to sit down. "I was pregnant."

Tommy's eyes widened and he sprung up from the chair. "You knew you were pregnant and you still cheated?!"

Sadie frantically shook her head. "No! No, after that night I got pregnant. But the whole ordeal with me thinking you cheated happened. So I kidded myself into believing you weren't the father. Me and Reid eloped."

Tommy's jaw dropped and he let himself fall back into the chair. He ran his hand through his hair. "Sadie…"

Sadie shook her head, "I know, it's so bad. Anyways after awhile I was hurt and Reid and me knew that getting married was too rash. I went and got the abortion without anyone knowing, not even Reid. Then we tried to get an annulment but we weren't able to, so we were in the process of a divorce when he was…shot."

Tommy shook his head and put his head in his hands. "Sadie…this would have totally altered everything."

Sadie nodded and sat next to him, "I know."

Then it clicked in Tommy's head, a baby. "Wait, why does Jude think this is her fault?"

Sadie shook her head, "Um…I kind of threw it in her face. I told her that I got the abortion because I knew she liked you and I didn't want a baby to get in the way of that, she didn't know about Reid…"

"And now she figures she killed the baby." Tommy finished for her. Sadie nodded, guilty. Tommy shook his head and stood up. "I need to talk to her."

Sadie stepped in front of him. "Wait Tommy, do you hate me?"

Tommy looked down at her and he saw the genuine regret and guilt in her eyes. "No, Sadie I don't hate you. I definitely don't agree with you and I am pissed at what you did to Jude, and me but I couldn't hate you. Not for this."

Sadie smiled sadly and leaned up, wrapping her arms around his neck. She hugged him close. Tommy wrapped his arms around her waist and buried his face in her neck. Her maternal ways would have been great for a baby, and it was hard for Tommy not to feel comfortable in her arms. He had to hold back tears.

Sadie pulled away first and looked at him. "Thank you Tommy. And I really am sorry."

Tommy nodded, "I know."

They hugged again when the door opened. They both pulled apart and looked to the door.

"Sorry, I didn't mean to interrupt."

"Jude…" Tommy said, pulling away from Sadie.

Jude shook her head, "No, I really am sorry."

She walked out again and closed the door behind her. Tommy looked at Sadie for permission; she just nodded and motioned to the door. Tommy quickly followed after Jude.

"Jude! Jude, wait!!"

Jude stopped outside of G-Major, in the alleyway. Tommy quickly caught up to her and took her hands in his. "Jude, listen. It wasn't what it looked like."

Jude rolled her eyes, "No of course not. Look Tommy, we're broken up. You don't have to explain these things to me anymore."

Tommy shook his head, "Jude. C'mon. You know we weren't doing anything. Actually, Sadie was just clearing some stuff up for me."

Jude got a frightened look in her eyes, "Like, what?" she murmured.

Tommy leaned down and kissed her cheek, "Like the baby, the abortion, Reid. I know everything Jude. It wasn't your fault. It was Sadie's. Besides, if I wanted a baby I wouldn't want it with anyone but you." He whispered in her ear. Jude closed her eye and leaned toward him. But then she snapped out of it and pulled back.

"I'm no good for you Tommy. You could be happy with Sadie and a baby by now. It's my fault. You would be with Sadie, there would be a little baby running around, and Reid would still be alive."

Jude looked down and a moment of awkward silence passed between them. "I am with John, I should go meet him by now anyway." Jude whispered. Tommy looked up at her and shook his head 'no'.

"Jude please."

"Goodbye Tommy." She said coldly as she walked away. She always put up a rude front when she was scared or nervous. This was going to be harder than Tommy thought.