Light removed himself from the couch to pick up his clothes and redress himself, Matsuda doing the same. "Matsuda, would you want to sleep in my room with me tonight?" Matsuda blinked at Light, a pure dumb look on his face "wow, really?! I'd absolutely love to!" he flashed Light a huge smile as he walked… no, more like halfway skipped, to the bedroom. He flopped onto the bed, letting out a huge sigh, Light's bed was surprisingly comfortable.

Light followed after the older man "move over" he demanded as he took his place on the right side of the bed. Matsuda instantly cuddled into Light, his stomach tingled just touching him. Light gave the other man a small, warm smile as he kissed his forehead "night Light-kun" "Good night Matsuda"

Matsuda fell asleep instantly while Light found it very, very hard to concentrate on sleeping. He couldn't stop thinking about everything that'd happened that day. Of all the people he'd used, he never gave a damn. So why the hell did feel this way for Matsuda today? He was completely angry and confused at himself. Could he really have an honest relationship with the older man… he'd seduced so many people so easily, including Matsuda, he couldn't develop feelings for Matsuda, the last thing he wanted was for him to be involved in his personal life, that was dangerous.

Ever since Light first met Matsuda he'd devised his plan to kill him, and every time he was close to getting rid of the task force he'd been stopped. That thought struck Light hard, killing Matsuda. Could he kill Matsuda. He looked at the man that was curled up into him, sleeping peacefully.

"Matsuda" he whispered quietly "I love you" his throat knotted up saying those words, but he soon closed his eyes and fell asleep.

---

Misa walked in the apartment the next morning, happy as ever. She couldn't wait to say hi to her Light. She strutted into the room to find Matsuda curled into Light, snoring contently. "Aww, how cute, Matsu must've passed out in here watching TV or something"

Misa giggled, she walked over and shook Matsuda awake "matsu?" "OH MY GOD!" Matsuda yelled when he saw MisaMisa standing beside him "This isn't what it looks like! I uhhh, had work and I uhm, brought it to Light of course and… now… I have more work to go to… so ummm, don't get mad, I'll go to work now, no more sleeping in Light's bed I am sorry" his words were jumbled as he spoke hastily, making his way towards the door. Misa stood there, thoroughly confused, trying to comprehend what he was trying to say "Okay Matsu… good bye?" "bye bye" with that the door closed and the apartment was awkwardly quiet.

Light sat up, furrowing his eyebrows, where had Matsuda gone? Misa was here? Did she see anything? God, Light hated mornings.

"Misa, you're back so soon?" Misa smiled, giving Light a small peck on the cheek "Of course, I told you I'd be back" She walked out of the room and towards the kitchen. Light rubbed his forehead, a small headache coming on "Dammit" he really needed to get Misa out of the house more often.

He got out of bed, running his fingers through his hair to straighten it out "Misa?" "yes Light?" "Pull up Matsuda's address for me" Misa paused as if to think about it "Why?" "Personal reasons, it seems he's found some harmful information about the Kira case, I'm going to his place to discuss it and make sure he doesn't find out anything important." To Light that sounded like a dumb excuse, but thank god Misa was a dumb girl. "Ah, okay Light"

Misa did as she was told and pulled up the agents records, quickly finding Matsuda's address. Light got ready for the day and left the apartment in search of the place, luckily Light knew the area well enough to find it. He walked up to the door to knock, observing the area, Matsuda answered the door, completely confused when he saw Light's face "Umm, hi?" he moved away from the door, inviting the younger man in. From the outside the apartment looked small, but it was a fairly descent size from the inside. For someone with such a big personality, Matsuda's apartment was kind of bland, mostly white, there was a computer and a tv, a nice couch and a small table in the kitchen.

"Not to rude, but why are you here?" Matsuda asked as he turned to face Light. Light gently grabbed Matsuda's tie, pulling him closer he pressed his lips to the older man's. "I missed you when I woke up" though Matsuda smiled, in the back of his mind he still felt like Light was lying. Today though, his words seemed a little more sincere than usual, it was nice. Matsuda sighed deeply "Light, what about Misa" "Um, what about… Misa?" "Isn't she your girlfriend?"

"Well, that's a complicated question Matsuda…" before Light could say anything more Matsuda interrupted him, harshly yelling "god dammit Light, could you just give me a straight answer for once, stop acting like I don't know a fucking thing, I'm sick of seeing her with you, I'm sick of you… I'm so sick of you…" he held back tears as he tried catching his breath "I've wanted you for so long and now this? Well you can't fucking use me ever again so I want an answer right now choose either me or her." Light felt a tinge of anger from being yelled at, the same time he felt pure regret. Matsuda was jealous? Jealous of Misa, Light didn't even love Misa "Matsuda, of course I want you more than her, I chose you already didn't I?" Matsuda didn't reply though, he probably didn't even hear Light.

He was too hurt and frustrated and that exact moment to care what excuse Light was coming up with. He finally looked up when he felt like he could breath again, he could've died when he looked into Light's eyes. Those cold, hateful eyes seemed hurt. Matsuda didn't want to hurt Light though, that was the last thing he wanted "Light, i-I'm sorry, I don't know what I was thinking, I just want you to love me, just me"

"I understand, I'm sorry I didn't know she hurt you that much, trust me when I say that she doesn't mean anything. Matsuda I love you and only you." Matsuda sighed, relieved to hear those words, he closed his eyes, pulling Light into a tight hug. Light hugged Matsuda back, whispering softly in his ear "will you stay with me forever" Matsuda smiled thankfully "yes"

----- --------------- -------------------

CHAPTER 3 END

It's hard trying to make Matsuda have a serious side and keep him in character. I've had a lot of writers block through this chapter just because of the fact that it's very hard to make Matsuda sad while keeping him the same person. Gah $# I hope everyone else likes it though so far.

I'm debating how to get rid of Misa now, and I have to think of what chapter 4 should even be about. It'd help if anyone has some suggestions for the next chapter.