Light's mind raced, he couldn't get close to Matsuda, he was destined to kill Matsuda. Light didn't need the older man, there was no way Matsuda could be a threat to Kira and he'd never proven to be very useful before. There was absolutely no reason for Light to get close to Matsuda, period.

Matsuda, I want to hate you so bad, fuck. You're just getting started and I'm miserable, I didn't want it to mean that much to me. If he gets to close he could find out valuable information about Kira, but… Light's mind buzzed with a million different thoughts "I'm sorry I have to go back to my apartment before Misa gets worried, the team will meet at my place again tonight so bring all of the information you have okay." Matsuda smiled happily in reply "Okay Light! Oh oh, but before you go, can I get a kiss?"

Light hesitated, not expecting the question at all "Um, sure… Matsuda" Light leaned into the older, slightly taller man and kissed him passionately. "Good bye Matsuda" "bye bye Light"

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Light returned to his apartment, the day already wearing him out, even though he'd hardly done a thing. He sat down at his computer and brought up the prior week's research. Of course the team wasn't even close to catching Kira, Light made sure of that since he knew exactly what to hide from them. He sighed hearing Misa's footsteps padding their way towards him "What do you want Misa?"

"Oh well if you're gonna be snappy with me I'll just leave" She folded her arms across her chest, giving him a pouty face that was completely ignored. "Well, did you get what you needed at Matsuda's?" "Yes, Misa" Light answered bluntly "Ya know, I've noticed something about you two."

Light blinked, thinking about what she'd said, had that ditsy dumb blonde figured him out? She knew, oh god "What might that be?" he kept his voice calm "Wellll, Matsuda has this silly way of keeping you on the edge of your seat" she chuckled, walking out the door to resume what ever she'd been doing.

Light turned to make sure she'd left the room before leaning into his chair, he smiled softly at the comment.

Misa entered the kitchen, letting out a deep sigh. She really did love Light, but no matter how hard she tried there was one thing that dug into the back of her mind, her Light loved Matsuda. It wasn't hard to figure out after she found them in the same bed. If she told Light she knew, he'd probably dump her. She felt her eyes tear up as she stood in the middle of the tiled floor, not really sure why she'd gone in the kitchen in the first place anymore. She cried quietly in that spot regardless that my stupid pictures don't line his wall, I'm sick of waiting for him to call me or tell me something nice, well I'm done with this. She sighed deeply, walking back into Light's room.

Light turned to her "What this time, Misa?" hearing his dull words instantly pissed Misa off. She could feel her face get hot as she flung her hang out, slapping Light square in the face. "Ah shit, Misa, what the fuck is wrong with you, you crazy bitch" he halfway screamed, jumping to his feel "Light Yagami, you're so guilty it's disgusting, are you gonna use Matsuda too? I know he's been sneaking under your sheets and you're filthy hands have been places they probably shouldn't go." Misa yelled angrily, mercilessly. Light was taken aback, his eyes widened slightly but before he could get a word in Misa continued her rampage "Yea, don't worry sweetie, cause I already know." She stormed to the dresser grabbing a random pile of clothes and accessories she ran out the door crying.

She sat in her car for what could have been forever, holding her cell phone and staring at it Even if it's the last time I'll ever see you I'll still wait for you to call Light

Light screamed madly, throwing the blankets off the bed just for the hell of having something to throw. He stormed into the living room and sat on the couch, burying his face into his hands "That bitch, that fucking bitch" he couldn't believe someone like her spoke to someone like him like that, she had no right! No, this was all wrong, Light needed her, he needed those precious eyes. "Shiiit" he yelled some more, getting everything off his chest.

In Light's anger he threw mostly every object in the apartment onto the floor, not destroying anything but making one hell of a mess. He heard a knock on the door and struggled to calm down for a second. "WHO IS IT?" he hollered "IT'S MATSUDA!" he heard that god damned happy voice yelling.

Hopefully Matsuda could make him feel better, he opened the door "Jesus Light, what happened?" "Nothing. I guess this is what living like this does" Matsuda furrowed his eyebrows "Living like what Light?" Light sighed "Misa broke up with me" "Wait, she broke up with you?" "Yes, she found out about me liking you" Matsuda looked down half heartedly, not sure to be sad for Light or happy for himself.

Light smiled though, he even had the nerve to crack a joke "Better watch out, she'll destroy us all before she's through, and find a way to blame every body else" Matsuda laughed a little "Maybe we should clean up this mess?" he said, starting to pick up the couch cushions. "Matsuda, I learned something important today." "What's that?"

Light hugged Matsuda softly "I don't ever want to lose you, I'm so wrecked right now and for that simple reason, I promise to keep you in mind as something larger than life"

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CHAPTER END

Phew, a lot went on in this chapter… kinda. I hate making Light look like an asshole, but I liked the idea of it It'd be boring if I made them have a nice little break up or something, thought this would just be more entertaining, and finally Light is starting to respect Matsuda more.

If you noticed I refered to Matsuda as being taller than Light, which I found out Matsuda is 2" taller than Light. It says it in volume 13. I explained all of this on my profile if you haven't already read it.