Lonely?

Disclaimer: There really should be a rule where I shouldn't even have to say it.

Kagome: You're a fuck-off you know that? There aren't even rules!

Author: There isn't?

Kagome: Uhm, no!

Sango: Kagome, shut it, how to you even know this?

Kagome: I looked it up.

Miroku: No you didn't, virgin.

(Stopped for gory content)

"I can't believe the fucking nerve of him!" I said as Sango, Miroku and I walked away from the diner. I took the ticket from Sango's hand and started ripping it up into pieces.

"I told you he likes you." Sango said, making Miroku look oddly at us when she said it.

"You're insane, all he wants is sex. And believe me, a virgin is the way to go to get satisfaction." He said.

"How would you know Miroku?" Sango hissed.

"I wouldn't know personally, but I do read you know."

"You are sick." Sango spat at him, but put her arm around me as we all walked together toward the park.

"Just a year ago he was calling me virgin marry," I said as I laughed at the irony, "What a moron."

"So you're over it then?" Miroku asked, looking down at me in concern.

"Meh, it could be worse. He could have raped me."

Sango and Miroku both looked at each other.

"Dudes!" I said as my eyes widened in wonderment, causing both Sango and Miroku to look at me oddly, "Ice cream!" I said as I pointed to the ice cream truck we forgot came on Thursdays.

"You just had a milk shake Sunday, Kagome." Sango started to say, but was interrupted as I ran to the bus. Sango and Miroku are always getting surprised by my random mood swings.

They started to run after me as they laughed at my behavior. I actually wasn't in the mood for ice cream, considering I just had some. But I wanted to change the subject and get these two to cheer up and stop worrying about me.

Sango and I glared at one another like one of those old western films. I could actually hear that little Clint Eastwood tune but soon realized that it was Miroku playing his invisible harmonica that Sango and I get irritated by. If this were a real western, one of us would have already shot him down by now and continued glaring.

THUMP!

"I win!" Sango yelled, and yet again I was the last one to finish off the glaring subject of todays lesson. Arm Wrestling, what fun – when you fucking win! God damn I hate life at the moment.

"Dear, you might wanna calm down. I think she's gunna cry a river." Miroku the fucking retard whispered rather loudly to his girlfriend.

"You sure you wanna be saying those things, dumbass." I seethed after he hit the ground from my rather wicked and powerful punch.

After a long hour of waiting for Miroku to wake up from his nap, we sat on his couch and watched a movie. Ahh how I love The Matrix. It totally makes you question where you are and what you're in.

I saw something to my left and looked up at a tipsy Mushin and whined, "Muuushiiiiiin, they're doing it again."

Mushin looked over and chuckled, "Yes, in fact I'm sure it's quite natural for you youngsters to be making-out in rather odd hours." He said and I groaned as I slid off the couch and grabbed onto Mushin's leg childishly.

"Take me away… please!"

He chuckled again and picked me off my feet and looked at me father-like. He was like a second father to me… except the times he was drunk.

"Well then… would you like a drink?"

"Would I ever!"

Oh my god, oh my god, oh my god, I'm getting a VODKA COOLER, yes. But unfortunately I must take two more for those smacking losers on the couch.

"Ahem." I would force myself to choke on that sound later, but for now, I must act responsible – with drinks.

"Hurray! Mushin! You haven't ever given me drinks before! Not even when you were drunk!" Miroku screetched.

Obviously, I thought to myself, he keeps it to himself all the fucking time.

"You're old enough now." He chuckled again and walked away. Sometimes he scares me.

"Kagome!" Sango practically screamed in my face and I had to literately grab my heart because it stopped too quickly. One half of my mind was concentrating on staring at her and the other half was concentrating on holding my drink with one hand rather professionally. "Huh?"

"You mustn't gulp it down this time! You'll get really giddy again and scare Miroku out of his own house. You don't want him to pee his panties again and cry like a baby, it's just so cruel." She said with fake tears and I literately couldn't breathe.

Suddenly we both burst out laughing and I held onto her while holding my bottle of Bacardi Breezer Strawberry to my chest protectively.

Eventually I had to put my drink down and hold myself as I fell to the ground in complete and utter shocked laughter. I could hardly breathe. Sango fell with me and we soon held each other in tears.

Pour Miroku sat there all gloomy and I swore he probably did pee his pants out of embarrassment.

I calmed down faster than I expected to and grabbed my Breezer thirstily. Naturally, I am addicted to vodka coolers. Well wait… this is rum… but I love this too. I don't like to drink though but at least a few times a month I enjoy the occasional cooler – or two.

After our drink we decided to go out on our usual Friday night walk. Of course it was dark but we liked it like this; it's much more fun to walk through the city, especially after a short drink.

"Kagome," Sango called me and I looked over to her. We were in silence for a while, a nice and calm silence but it was okay to break it as slowly as she did.

"I really do feel aweful." She said to me.

"What do you mean? Are you feeling sick?"

"Not exactly. I just feel really horrible that our group is reduced to a third wheel now."

I somehow knew what she was talking about, but I really hoped it wasn't what I thought it was.

"A third wheel? What are you talking about, man?"

"You." She finally said and I stopped walking.

"What the hell? Don't tell me you're feeling uncomfortable now that you two are going out? What the hell, man? I'm totally cool with this, seriously."

They still gave me that look and I somehow found myself very frustrated. Wasn't alcohol supposed to whined you down? This is rather ridiculous.

"Why do you consider me the third wheel?" I was trying to be very calm about this. I didn't like this at all actually, were they afraid that I felt bad or something?

"Because…" Sango looked over at Miroku who seemed to have the same look on his face.

"Because you look rather lonely." Miroku face twisted with concern, and this struck me fairly hard; I wasn't expecting this of all things. I closed my mouth and looked down in thought. Was I lonely? I never really thought about it before and now that I think about it, I do feel lonely.

I looked back up at them to see that they looked like they were waiting for something – was that a question that I was suppose to answer, then?

"Why would I be lonely? I've got you guys." I smiled brightly. One thing I loved about a little bit of alcohol in my system is that it relaxes me and helps me seem more convincing.

Now they just looked disappointed and I rolled my eyes and started walking again.

"You're such bums, why are we moping over nothing, let's go shall we? Maybe Gary will let us in for a little while before he totally closes up."

I know they weren't over the subject yet but I kept walking ahead of them, they'll catch up to me eventually.

"You know Kagome," Miroku started to say. I looked at him questioningly. "You should look for a date."

"A date? Are you asking me to look at the calendar for a week we'll have off or something?" My eyebrows furrowed in confusion but I secretly knew what he meant.

"Not that. Ask a guy out, or flirt enough to get asked out. We could double date."

I smirked up at him; the alcohol always makes me silly. "Well now, then I wouldn't be much of an independent woman wouldn't I?"

Miroku exhaled in what I recognized as exhaustion as we sat down at Timmy's Diner.

"Hey, you like that Inuyasha character don't you? Doesn't he live here?" Sango announced and I just watched them both as they spoke in a very casual matter.

"Actually come to think of it I've never seen him around here but his band is in this city. Could they live in the city city and not the suburbs like us?" Miroku chimed.

They were conversing with each other now and I almost fell asleep as I stared out the window. They're voices were actually soothing and I've never noticed this before.

"Hey Kagome!" Sango caught my attention and my eyes flung opened rather quickly. Miroku was out of sight and I was very confused. Did I skip a few days or something?

"Miroku just went to the bathroom and we agreed to leave after, we've been here for an hour now and Gary looks really tired."

"Oh."

"So what do you think?" She asked me and I felt stupid for not understanding.

"About what?"

"About going out with Inuyasha."

For the second time that night, I was stunned silent, but it could only last for so long. "I really doubt he'd wanna go out with me, Sango."

"Are you lying to yourself again?" Miroku said from behind Sango, doing up his jacket. My eyebrow went unnaturally high, "Of course I'm not, loser."

"Really? Cause I heard he went after Naraku the other day and kicked his little gangster behind like Jackie Chan after he seen what he did to you."

Both mine and Sango's mouths dropped below the ground, apparently he didn't tell her this news before this.

"Do you doubt it now, sweetheart?" he smirked at my expression and at that moment I knew I was blushing.

"Yeah, you heard." Sango sarcastically spoke up to him before he helped her up out of the booth, then I followed suite.

The door chimed behind me as I was the last one out and I waved to Gary when he went to close up.

"That can't even be possible. Why the fuck would he do something like that? That fucker only insulted me; he didn't completely touch me or anything."

"It's all a matter of pride, my dear."

"Pride?" I spoke back to him.

"You of all people should know this, considering you have it too. You hardly ever tell your mother you love her because of that ignorant pride of yours after what she did. Men have a huge ego."

"And you call yourself a man?" Sango told him, raising her eyebrow at him.

Miroku glared, "You should know it too." He said in a small voice.

"Let's just say we all act like guys and leave it at that, shall we?" I said, trying to end this conversation. How did we end up talking about pride and egos anyway?

It had been a while, probably quite a few months now since then and I was on my way to the foot market. I'm obsessed with fruits I go through them so fast I have to go back every other day. The walk isn't that far and I like to walk anyways, bikes are lame.

It wasn't so busy once I walked in the store but after a while of shopping around it started getting crowded. When I was finishing up I walked through the many people to get to the cashier and on my way I caught a glimpse of someone familiar.

It was Kikyo. What the hell is she doing here, isn't she suppose to be out with druggies, smoking and fucking? Ever since she's gotten so bad at those habits we never hang around anymore.

Especially since the incident where she accused me of telling her current boyfriend at the time that she cheated on him (in which she did) so she decided to post a recent picture of the both of us on myspace whereas my face is scribbled out and it said "I don't like dumb cunts in my pics". She enjoyed making a fool of herself, I do admit. It never broke down my solid wall though; even if I didn't have one in the first place it wouldn't have hurt me. I actually laughed at it and walked away.

But on other terms it created a controversy between my real friends. They were furious, especially Sango and Miroku. There was a point where I thought Sango went mad because she actually knocked Kikyo down.

Yes, of course it was a horrible thing to do, but it never fazed me, even if it was surprising.

The most horrible thing about it though was that she denied over and over again that she never cheated on him. I had to witness the terrifying kiss between her and that dirty dude. Ugh the nightmares.

So now she's went back to drugs and sex (actually she's always been having sex) and all things addicting and unhealthy, whereas they all define the phrase, "no life".

But what struck me now was the person with her. He smiled at her and before I knew it she was kissing him.

So she's met up with Inuyasha and found a liking to him.

You'd think after apparently beating someone up for me you'd come after me. Apparently not.

Author: So this is the second chapter I've written this year. I just wanted to make an announcement that it has truly been almost maybe two years since I stopped writing this story. I was on hold for a very long time and still am. I went through a faze I guess and the things stopped happening to me because there were very large gaps between our friendship so I no longer had motivation to continue writing this, considering I did get the idea from her. And especially the fact that I've changed a large amount and it's these two years in my teenaged life that are to blame. Anyone can relate to this. It's the teenaged years where you start finding yourself anyways.

And another note – I may have put a few more chapters up so far but that doesn't mean I will be continuing this constantly. It'll most likely be another five months until I get the next chapter up. I don't even know what's going to happen yet lol. So I hope you can stand being patient and put up with my procrastination lol.

And to my fellow reviewers and fans. I love you all and you're very welcome for updating hahahaha.