Chapter 6: Feelings
So many things I can't understand, I wish I knew more. I wanted to just give up sometimes, but I know that once I do, it'll all be gone.
I like him!
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Kairi P.O.V
Since I suggested for Sora and I to go visit the fairies, we went to the same store where the fairies did their magic on us. I stepped in, and saw Flora.
"Hello. Sora and I just came by to say goodbye." I said when Flora faced me. Flora was surprised and slightly disappointed.
"Oh dear. Leaving already? We wanted to know more about you!" Flora said. She called Fauna and Merryweather. "Fauna, Merryweather! Kairi and Sora has come to say goodbye!" She shouted.
Fauna and Merryweather rushed out, surprise etched on their faces as well. "My, my. At least allow us to give you two this." Fauna said, waving her wand and taking what had appeared and placed it in my hand.
I looked at it, and was surprised. "W-We can't accept this! It seems too much!" I exclaimed, looking at the gold coins in her hand.
Sora looked at it, and I could see he was surprised as well, but he kept quiet. He looks like he's shy to talk to the fairies. I wonder why…
"Now, don't be shy, take it. We've heard from Yuffie that you two have nothing at all. This world's hard to survive. At least take the money to help. Use it wisely." Flora said, smiling warmly.
"Yeah, and whatever happens, we'll always be here to help. Come by here again." Merryweather said.
I decided to give up on returning the money. I smiled back gratefully. "Thank you so much. We'll come back here again. I promise." I said.
"Have a safe trip." Fauna said. All three fairies smiled warmly at Sora and I. I smiled back warmly but Sora smiled meekly.
We walked out of the store. "Why were you so shy when we went to visit them?" I asked, giggling.
Sora blushed which made me blush because he looked cute. "They reminded me of my grandmother. She acts like them and she makes me shy." Sora said meekly. I started laughed and he pouted at me.
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Sora P.O.V
I was embarrassed to admit that I was shy of the fairies, but I told Kairi anyway. She smiled at me, and I smiled back. She was cute and I can admit that. Besides, I've never actually had a crush on a girl before. I just think girls can be cute.
So it's no different for Kairi. She's cute. Just cute.
We decided it's time to really leave the town. We were just outside the entrance of the town when we stopped for a while to check that we didn't forget whatever we had. After I checked, I nodded to Kairi, who nodded back, and I walked ahead, thinking that Kairi would follow right beside me.
I stopped walking when I saw her at the corner of my eyes. She was still standing in the same spot, looking a little sad. "Hey," I said softly, "What's wrong?" I asked.
"I don't know…I feel sad to leave this place." She said, staring at the town.
I was confused. We haven't even been in this town for more than a week and Kairi already misses it?
"But Kairi…" I started, when Tentra, who was inside me, stopped me from speaking. "It is not the girl who is speaking. It is Idelia. She and I have been a part of this place for such a long time, she must be sad to leave so suddenly." Tentra explained.
Oh, and what about you? Don't you feel sad for leaving this place? I asked him in my mind.
On the contrary, I've always wanted to leave this place and go on an adventure. I cannot say if I missed it or not, since I have done nothing but stand idly. Tentra said.
You're weird…but I guess I'd be feeling the same if I were in your shoes. I thought.
Precisely. I am an adventurer. Tentra said, and I could imagine the proud look on his face.
"Sorry, let's go." Kairi said, cutting off the conversation between Tentra and me.
"Ok. You didn't forget anything, right?" I asked her.
"Nope, I brought whatever I need." She told me.
I nodded. Well, at least Kairi isn't sad. Come to think of it...I wonder why she was crying in her sleep just now. No, I shouldn't think too much on it. She'll tell me when she's ready.
When we left the town, we were silent. I was mostly silent because half the time of the walk, I was alert for any other monsters. The other half was that I was awkward.
Well…I barely know Kairi. We only started to get to know each other yesterday. Now we're going to have to save the world.
Correction: our world.
"Sora." I heard Kairi say my name softly. It made me feel…giddy.
Good lord, what am I saying??
"Yeah?" I answered coolly.
"Doesn't it feel weird? We're supposed to be having normal lives, like study in school, talk with friends, laugh and act stupid. Instead, we're traveling across this unknown world to save our own." Kairi said, surprised.
I simply had nothing to say. "…Yeah."
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Kairi P.O.V
God, I feel like such a fool. It is hard to grasp the fact that:
I'm supposed to save my world because time stopped.
I'm supposed to save the world WITH Sora.
I don't know why, but I have this strange feeling that things aren't going to be so good for me and Sora while we're here.
Yeah…and I'm also wondering what Sora's thinking about. I mean, what if he's actually feeling awkward by traveling around the world with me? We barely know each other…
"Kairi watch out!" Sora yelled.
I turned to look at him in shock when he pushed me out of the way from getting hit. I fell away from him and I saw him holding back a fierce wolf-like monster with his sword.
I stared with my eyes widened until Idelia snapped me out of my trance. I saw her form circling me. I stood up quickly and summoned a fire spell to hit the monster. He was going to bite Sora but my fire spell was fast enough to burn it and it jumped back.
Sora went for the chance to slice it. The monster died and faded away. It was weird to see it fade away, but it was better than seeing it's dead body on the ground waiting to rot.
I still couldn't get over the shock and saw Sora running towards me with a concerned expression on his face. "Are you okay?" He asked gently.
I recollected the events of my near death experience and my lower lip trembled a bit. I tried to hold in my tears and I couldn't reply, afraid I was going to spill my tears out, so I just nodded.
Sora sighed as I slumped down, shaking slightly. He bent down to meet my eye and asked, "Do you want to take a break?" He asked.
I looked in front of me. We walked far already, I haven't noticed before, but I know that we haven't walked far enough. We still had to cross the forest and then we'll get to the other town, and the forest was a wide area, I'm sure we'll take time getting through.
We should at least get inside the forest first and if night comes, we could camp out in the forest. The strange thing here was that there were more monsters in the desert than in the forest, so we're much safer in the forest.
I decided to hold back my fears and tears and got up. "I'm fine." I managed to mutter out. I could still feel my tears forming every time I thought about it. I am really terrified about it.
I tried to calm myself down as Sora walked ahead of me. I thought maybe he was angry at me, so maybe he wouldn't look back at me. My tears slowly fell as I sobbed silently at my near death experience. I furiously wiped my tears away because I didn't want Sora to see me crying. That wouldn't be cool.
Yet as much as I try, the tears won't stop. I'm crying and shaking because of that and I'm scared that Sora might see. But the more I try to stop them, the more they come.
Through the blurry image of my tears, I saw Sora turning to look at me and stopped, surprised. He stood there, and then I cried even more. I think I'm crying as if I'm only 2 years old. I feel so embarrassed but I can't help it.
"Kairi, what's wrong?" He asked me, and I knew I had to say everything in my mind.
"I was so scared just now when the monster attacked, and I was also worried that you might get hurt!" I sobbed and tried to speak without sounding so stupid. "And…and now you must be angry at me for being so careless and I'm still scared!" I finished, my tears cascading down my cheeks.
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Sora P.O.V
I looked at the tear streaked Kairi and when I heard everything she said, I felt the urge to laugh. I held it back though, since I didn't want Kairi to feel more embarrassed than she already was.
"Come on Kairi, I won't get angry because that tiny little thing. Besides, I was careless too. I didn't warn you in time. You almost got injured if I didn't push you away." I told her. "And it's our first time fighting like this in this world." I added.
Her tears slowly subsided as she looked at me and I smiled reassuringly at her. She looked at me for a moment that I started feeling awkward again, but suddenly she cried again.
"What? What's wrong?" I panicked, thinking it was something I said.
"It's exactly what you said! Even if you pushed me away from harm, you almost got injured! I almost made you get injured!" She cried, wiping her tears away.
I sighed. "I don't care if I got injured, as long as you're not. Besides, I'm not injured now, am I?" I said, showing no sign of injury to her.
Kairi's tears subsided again as she nodded at what I said. I smiled, and hugged her lightly. "Ok, so let's head on, shall we?" I asked.
She looked at me with shy eyes and smiled a small smile. She looked cute…again. She stood up and walked with me.
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Kairi P.O.V
Oh my god, he hugged me again.
It's not very nice when that person is someone you like, you know. At least to me it's not. I never wanted to like him, I just do. Now I just want to stop liking him. This doesn't really help by saying that.
I feel so stupid.
"Do you think we'll be able to cross the forest by today?" Sora asked me, and I looked at him.
"M-Maybe. If we're quick on our feet." I said.
Sora nodded in response. I looked down as I walked. I wonder if Sora's really okay. I know how he is…he'll always try to cheer people up. I saw him do that to Roxas when he got a C in his art.
Well…Roxas just wanted to impress Namine…I think that's why Sora was cheering him up.
The point was, Sora isn't the type of person who wants others to feel down or carry so many burdens. It's like that saying: 'my house is your house.' Or something similar to that.
"Ok, get ready; we're going in the forest." Sora said.
"But remember when Yuffie told us that forests are less dangerous than deserts? And we just crossed the desert." I said as we walked into the forest.
"Yeah, but it never hurts to be careful." Sora said.
"Oh…" I just replied, remembering what happened just now. "I'm sorry." I muttered under my breath.
Sora stopped as soon as I said that. I stopped, looking at his back and tilting my head to the side in confusion. "Sora?" I called out.
"Don't apologize. If anyone, I should be the one apologizing." He said softly but loud enough for me to hear. I suppose he must be feeling really guilty in thinking that I was almost hurt because he didn't save me in time.
Which really makes me annoyed because it really isn't his fault.
"Alright, fine, why don't we say it's no one's fault. We were just inexperienced enough." I suggested, hoping it would make things better.
"Yeah, sure, okay." He agreed turning and grinning at me.
I'm sure my cheeks started heating up because I felt like I was melting. "Yeah…"
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Sora P.O.V
"This forest is really grassy." I said, stepping on the high grass while Kairi walked behind me. Sure, we walked quite slowly since I was stepping on the grass, but it was for the better.
"Um…Sora, why do you step on the grass?" Kairi asked from behind me. I could imagine her looking puzzled even though I'm not looking at her. I turn around and grinned at her.
"Because I should be a gentleman and let a lady walk conveniently through high grass." I said. I saw her puzzled look turn into surprise, and then I saw a light tint of red around her cheeks. My grin changed to a smile.
"Oh…well, thanks, but…its okay, you know, since…I don't really care. Isn't it tiring to do this?" She asked me as I went back to stepping on the grass for her. I shook my head at her question. "Not really. Anyway it might be better, since there would sort of be a path for people walking through." I said. "At least for a few days or hours." I added.
I heard Kairi giggling and I smiled. "It's no big deal though. Besides, like I said before, I should be a gentleman." I said proudly.
Kairi giggled behind me again. "Then I thank you, gentle…er…gentleman." She said, sounding weird. "I just sounded so lame." She said after.
We both laughed. Seems like we're getting along more. I always thought Kairi looked tensed up whenever she spoke to me. Yes, only me. I saw her speak to Roxas and our senior Riku. She wasn't tense at all.
She always teased or insulted (in a good way!) them. Whenever Roxas, Namine, Kairi and I hung out, she would hardly talk to me and feel embarrassed at almost everything about her. Even if they're good things.
"There's still a long way to go, huh?" She said, interrupting the silence between us. "I thought we would be able to get through by nightfall." She said.
"Yeah…I guess time is faster than we thought. Or maybe we're slow." I said.
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Kairi P.O.V
Silence came over us again. I didn't have anything else to say. Sora suddenly stopped walking which made me almost bump into him. "Sora?" I asked, and looked at what was in front of us. I saw a nice spring with clear water ahead of us. I stared at it, awed.
It was already evening by then, and I'm sure Sora was tired by stepping on the grass…for me. The act makes me happy, but I felt like I was giving trouble to him.
"Hey, let's camp here for the night." I suggested, instead of saying 'I'm sure you're tired by stepping on the grass all the time, even though you said you won't be.' Because I'm sure Sora has his own pride.
I laughed in my mind. Even Sora has pride, so I won't say that he's tired.
"Um, yeah, sure. It's almost night anyway. We need to eat dinner as well." He said.
I smiled widely. I took out a bag of rice grains and showed it to him. "Thank the fairies for food!" I said, shaking the bag of rice.
Sora laughed. "Right. You must love rice then." He told me.
I smiled. "Sure do…even though it's in our daily diet." I said, laughing. "So, we have water, and all we need left is fire, and I could provide that! It looks like there's a river as well, so we could try fishing." I said, walking towards the spring and seeing a river. "Weird how the fish don't come here."
"Well…the world we're in now is…different. So I guess there are a lot of unexpected things to expect." He said.
"Right." I agreed.
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By the time we finished dinner, it was already really dark, and the fire was all we had to keep us warm and give us light. I had asked Idelia (of course, without speaking out loud) to provide the light until dawn. It didn't tire me, because I know I'd be sleeping by then.
But before I fell asleep, Sora fell asleep first.
This might sound weird and maybe a little perverted, but I scooted closer to him and watched him sleep. I couldn't help it; this is all something that could never happen in reality. Or maybe this could never happen in my world.
So I'll just cherish it for the moment.
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A/N: Now wasn't that good? Hahaha, just joking. It's not good is it? (Starts to tear up) I knew it!
Anyways, I hope I get reviews…and…will anyone give me a cookie and a glass of milk to ease my painful heart of loneliness?
Well, the painful heart of loneliness is a lie, but will anyone give me a cookie and a glass of milk for the sake of having a cookie and a glass of milk? (+Reviews…?)