Rating: M / NC 17 (just to be safe)

Disclaimer:
I own nothing related to or affiliated with Disney, ABC Daytime, or General Hospital. Characters are not mine; they are merely being borrowed.

AN:
I seriously need to stop listening to all music. I can't keep up with the stories I have going and I'm going to start another one. Dam muse! She really is a bitch.

This was supposed to be a one shot but it's so long i'm going to break it up a bit. Only three parts. It's my take on how things could have happened. It start from Alan's funeral. It's my first short piece so be kind.

What About Now??

Part 2/3

Jason wondered around the emergency room waiting on news about Sonny. God he hated hospitals. They put him on edge or maybe it was knowing Elizabeth was nearby. He ached to go see Elizabeth. Hear her voice. He said he'd stay away. He promised her. Still, he was here for a legitimate reason. What would it hurt to just sat hi?

He stepped of the elevator on to the sixth floor running right in to Monica. "Sorry I wasn't paying attention. How are you doing?" It had only been a week since Alan's funeral, he was surprised to see Monica working.

"I'm good. It's hard to be here but there no place else I'd rather be. Are you here to see Elizabeth?"

"No. Sonny's in the emergency room. I'm just walking around."

"Oh. Well you might want to stop by her room. I'm sure she could use the support."

Jason head snapped up in attention. "Something is wrong with Elizabeth?"

"She was having contractions earlier. I'm really worried about her. I saw her at Alan's funeral and.. well lets just say the poor girl could really use a friend right now."

"I'm going to check on her. Thanks for telling me." Jason practically ran to Elizabeth's room. He stopped just outside and tried to pull himself together. She didn't need anymore stress. When he stepped in his heart broke at the sight. Elizabeth looked even smaller than usual. Something primal deep in Jason demanded he protect her. Protect them both. "Elizabeth?"

Her head raised slowly at the sound of his voice, emotions warring within her. Relief that it wasn't Lucky, along with guilt caused by the look on Jason's face. "Hey."

"Are you okay?"

"I.. um... they gave me some medicine to stop the contractions. Hopefully its works."

"Is there something, anything I can do?"

"No." Elizabeth said her voice barely a whisper.

"Okay but if you need anything I'm here."

"I know, but it not fair or right of me to ask."

"I'll always care about you. Nothing can change that." Jason sat down in the chair beside her bed. They sat in silence for what seemed like hours. It was the kind of comfortable silence you rarely find between two people.

"Jason? What if I loose the baby?" Elizabeth asked her fear evident in her voice.

"You won't."

"How can you be so sure?"

"I believe, I know that our baby has your strength and stubbornness. He or she is going to be just fine. Trust me."

Liz just nodded. Her eyes were already heavy with sleep. Jason relax slightly knowing that sleep would be the best thing for both of them. He waited till he was sure Elizabeth was completely asleep, then Jason placed his hand on Elizabeth's abdomen where his child lay. "Hey there baby. I know you're anxious to meet your mom and big brother but you need to stay put for just a little longer. Your mom loves you so much. Just hang in there. I love you too." Jason whispered softly as his eyes filled up with tears. He stood up quickly and left the room.

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Days had passed since she was released from the hospital and she hadn't seen Jason once. It should have made thing easier. He was keeping his promise to stay away. Instead it only made her feel worse. Kelly practically order her to relax and stay away from stress. If she only knew.

Her and Lucky kept sniping at each other. He had become so demanding since she took him back. They fought over everything. The color of the baby's nursery, names, the fact she wouldn't set a wedding date, most of they fought over her refusal to have sex with him. Elizabeth knew she was being unfair but she just couldn't force herself to do it. She loved Jason. He was the only man she ever wanted to touch her.

Maybe that's how she ended up having lunch with Monica. The older women had helped her so much in the last few days. The ironic part is she didn't even realize it. Monica had quickly become the person Liz sought out when thinking about Jason became too much. It had turned in to a little ritual with them. Liz would tell Monica about her frustrations and guilt. While Monica would share her life. It gave both women something they needed. An unbiased ear to bend.

Monica was surprised to learn she enjoyed Elizabeth's company. She had never given much thought to her, beyond being Emily's friend. It turns out Elizabeth was a smart, strong, loyal and compassionate person. She actually reminded Monica of Lila at times.

Elizabeth loved listening about Jason's childhood. He was such a different person now. She hoped their child was more like the man he had become. The man she loved. "Monica can I ask you something kind of personal? You don't have to answer if you don't want to."

"Well it would depend on the question."

"It's just.. I was wondering what you regret the most?"

"That's not easy to answer. I've done a lot I wish I could take back. Lying about A.J. Comes to mind. It messed up his relationship with Alan permanently."

"What did you lie about?" Monica blinked in surprise she was sure everyone knew about the whole sorted incident. After taking a deep breath Monica began to tell the young women about the lie that surround A.J.'s birth. How it had changed the way Alan treated him for years.

Elizabeth sat listening to Monica's story. It could have almost been about her situation. She though back to Alan's funeral, Jason looked so broken. In part because he never knew Alan. She didn't want that to be her son or daughter someday. She knew exactly what she needed to do regardless of who got hurt. "Monica, I'm sorry I need to go. There's this thing I have to take of now."

"I understand dear. Let me know if you need anything."

"I will. Thank you for everything." Liz said as she hurried out of the hospital cafeteria.

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Jason pinched the bridge of his nose in an effort to fight off the headache he knew was coming. Spinelli meant well but he just couldn't take a hint. "I don't want to hear it anymore. I meant it."

"But Stone Cold this is killing you. You have a right to be a father to the Innocent One. You'd be so great at it."

"Its not going to happen so just drop it. Please?"

"Why not? It's not fair..."

"Life isn't fair Spinelli. It's about time you learned that. I can't break my promise to Elizabeth. I've never lied to her before. I'm not going to start now."

"You love her!! Oh My God!! You love Nurse Hottie!"

"What did you call her?" Jason asked shooting Spinelli a cold, lethal glare.

"Dude that's what you heard?" Jason just glared even harder at him. "Okay. Okay. Sorry Stone Cold no disrespect intended. But you love her. Dude this is big. Wait what about Fair Sam?"

"I care about Sam but Elizabeth is my everything. I'd do anything to see her happy. Even walk away."

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Elizabeth walked in to the coffeehouse suddenly unsure about her decision. Taking a deep breathe she shook off any doubts, she knew this was right. Liz walked up to Milo who was guarding the office door.

"Yeah, he's with Spinelli. You want to talk to him?"

"If he'll see me."

"Wait here." Milo knocked nervously on the door. Jason had been in a foul mood all day. He counted to ten then went in."Hey boss? Someone here to see you."

"Milo, who is it? I don't have time for interruptions."

"Ms. Webber, sir."

"Alright. Send her in."

Elizabeth almost immediately stepped into the office. "Thank you for seeing me. I.. um... having something I need to say to you."

"Go ahead."

"Could we talk alone? It's about..."

"Spinelli knows."

"Oh, that's good. I'm glad you have some to talk to. Not talk well not really that you ever really talk. But in this case you might need to. I know that you've been having hard time. And I know it's all my fault. I happy that you've been able to..."

"Elizabeth?"

"What?"

"Breathe. You came hear to tell me something?"

"Oh, right that. I just wanted to say I'm sorry about.."

"Elizabeth, you don't need to keep apologizing to me. As long as and the baby are happy that's all I need."

"Are you done? Because I'd like to finish." Jason motioned for her to continue. "Like I was saying I'm sorry that I'm forcing you to do something that goes against everything you believe.

"No one makes me do anything."

"Jason please just let me finish. It was wrong of me to even think of asking. I betrayed your trust in me. I can't believe you don't hate me. Mostly because I hate myself. I don't want our child, your child to not know you. It's just things were so intense. That's no excuse though. I need to fix this, starting now."

"What are you saying?"

"I regret what I've done to you, our baby, me. I guess what I'm getting at is I changed my mind."