I'm asleep and all I dream of is waking to you. Oh how I adore you.

Disclaimer: OO I saw...Naruto...and K. Masashi...practicing...things...they shouldnt have...been doing..DAMN HIM FOR OWNING NARUTO!!!

Warnings:...I'm not putting this anymore. Its rated M. That should hand it to you.

A/N: Okay so it was more than four day's. Sue me. Seriously. Try. Anyway yea...you wanna know what my new favorite word is? Shiznizilwizil XD I was really bored and just randomly put that down. Great word to use, but on a happier note. After I put this chapter up, I will start working on the 4th chap. to Let the blood run. Because everyone likes that one more. Well poo on you all! This one is going to be more drama the other is just one that kind of works its way around being tempting, sick, and funny. This one is more emo-angst-drama-death-love-hate-sickness going on to it ya feel me? Good now read da fukk on!!

Chapter 5: I'm sick of when they say "Its just a phase."

He sat there on the floor with his back to the wall. Tears were sliding down his face and into his hands as he tried to cover up his sadness. He didnt want Naruto seeing him in his weak stage. The boy would only laugh and make fun of him. Then again who wouldnt? Sasuke put up this great front and now if Naruto were to walk down those stairs it would all be ruined.

And as if speaking of the devil the boy's foot steps could be heard coming dow the stairs quickly then getting slower, until finally they stopped. He wasnt all the way down, Sasuke knew this because he could feel the blonds stare from where he stood in the middle of the staircase.

In his mind he was ruthlessly debating on turning and looking at Naruto with all of his tears spilling down his face or, running towards the door to see if he could kill himself in the snow.

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Naruto stood there looking at Sasuke. From the bathroom he had heard the boy let out a loud sound. To him it was like a cry of pain. So he went to see if Sasuke had cut himself or stubbed a toe. But when he got there. He stopped right in the middle of the stairs.

His blue eyes were locked onto Sasuke, who's thin form was shaking and sobbing into his hands. Sure it was lightly and normally wouldnt be noticed but, Naruto had great hearing and eyesight.

Knowing that if he was to jump or run down the stairs the raven would freak out, so he slowly made his way to the bottom of the steps. His now bare feet silently padded accross the rugged floor.

Making his way to Sasuke he sat down next to the boy and took a deep breath. "Whats wrong?"

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Yup, he was right beside him now. That stupid blond headed happy go lucky fucking idiot was sitting beside him going all 'what's wrong'. Why did he care so much what was wrong with him? Not like he would have to put up with Sasuke having a mental break down, well actually he would. He is the only one home.

Giving up on hiding it Sasuke lifted his head. His eyes were red and puffy from the tears that kept spilling. Not to mention his lower lip was trembling and he most likely couldnt talk.

Leaning over against Naruto he let himself cry some more before he opened his mouth. "M-my medicine wore...off..."

Nodding Naruto stayed still so Sasuke could keep resting on him. "Well...you have more right?"

The raven shook his head no and shut his eyes as he began to sob again but harder this time. "Can...I ask...why you are like this...??"

Sighing Sasuke sat up and wiped at his eyes quickly and began to clear his throat in hopes that he wouldnt cry anymore. Yet he kept crying and his voice cracked as he began.

--Flash Back--

Sitting in a sturdy metal desk a much younger Sasuke had his head placed on his arms as he slept during his math class. He figured if he had nightmares the night before and couldnt sleep, he would just sleep during his classes, he was passing them all with perfect grades anyway.

So there was Sasuke Uchiha, asleep in his second class of the day, math. People around him worked from their books and tried to do what they could understand. While sleeping the young raven would dream of becoming a great Doctor like his older brother.

Being ten and wanted to be a Doctor sounded far fetched to some, but to be like your older brother was a Doctor was different to Sasuke. He didnt want to be just any 'Doctor', he wanted to be just like his Aniki.

How he wanted to grow up to look and manuver like his older brother. To have such manners and gracefulness. But it would seem that the higher powers wouldnt allow it. Sasuke was more clumbsy than his brother, he wasnt as good looking. And his eyes werent a crimson red, instead they were a dark velvet black.

Not to mention when his brother was ten, he was clear over 5'2''. On the other hand, Sasuke was still only a 4'6'' little ten year old boy. Who was about to be awoken horribly. A loud crack of thunder came first, making him jump into the air out of his seat. Then all the girls in his class screamed, and then screamed louder when he and his desk fell onto the ground papers and books going all over the place.

Mummbling about how the desks were stupid and unsturdy he stood, even though he knew he was lying to himself. Picking his desk back up the teacher told them that class was dismissed due to flood warnings soon.

Doing as all the other children did Sasuke picked up his things and put them in his red and white school bag. Once he got outside he noticed how dark it was. The clouds were so gray they were almost black. He then began his long walk home.

On his way there, and no more than five minutes into his walk. It began to rain down on him. At first it was light, like the heavens above thought the earth only needed a little to drink. Then only seconds later another loud crack was heard and it all came down on Sasuke. It soaked him to the bone along with matting his hair to his face and upper neck.

Sighing the young boy began to run home in the pouring rain. Upon arriving home he smiled and pulled off his shoes and book bag, thanking Kami that it was water proof. Throwing them to the floor he made his way into the all too silent house. None of the lights were on so it was pretty dark in the house.

Moving himself towards the living room where his father normally sat before he left for work around noon only to work until midnight.

Looking in, he saw nothing. The t.v. wasnt on, the couch wasnt dented inward, meaning no one had sat in it since yesterday. Shrugging he figured his father might be in the den upstairs. So he slowly made his way up the stair case. There were fifty steps in all.

Reaching the top he smiled to himself and walked to the left down the long hall. Pushing open the den doors with all his strength he looked inside. The curtains were closed, which to Sasuke was odd, his mother and father read in the den. So the curtains should have been open, and the blue lamp on the desk near the bookshelf should have been on. Yet that also wasnt.

Walking in more he stepped in a cold wet puddle of something. Not being able to see he figured it was just water from their pet cat that had a cat door in the kitchen. But, it came to the raven that the stairs would have been wet also.

He was now becoming worried. His heart was racing and before he could call out for his mother, father, or brother. Lighting struck the sky. Lighting up the room fully, even if only for a moment. He saw it.

His brother holding the heads of his mother and father. Their bodies were on the floor only inches away from him. And he was standing in their blood. Instead of calling for his brother, mother, or father, he screamed. As loud as he could.

Then he ran, as fast as his bloody feet would carry him on the hard wood floors of the upstairs portion of the house. Slipping and sliding down the hall he turned to see his brother walking after him a bloody knife in hand. He ran faster.

Sliding and turning down the stairs his cat meowed and he tripped not wanting to step on her. When he tripped he noticed he was heading head first towards the stairs and wasnt going to be okay when he was at the bottom.

He felt hard on the third step down, his arms above his head to make sure he didnt crack his skull open. His left arm was ontop of his right, so when he landed. He heard a loud snap. Pain shot down his arm and into his spine. His brain was screaming at him to stop what ever he was doing. And he desperately tried to scream back mentally that he wasnt doing it.

Twisting and turning while he was tossed down the fifty steps he yelped and groaned in pain. Hitting the bottom blood pooled out of his mouth. His lip was cut clear open and there were bruises all over his body. Not to mention he knew for sure that his left arm was broken. Because, well, the bone was sticking out creating a larger pool of blood under him. Soaking his black shirt and cargo shorts he had worn to school that day.

Then when he looked up. There was Itachi, standing over him. That bloody knife in hand, and he spoke. "Sasuke...dear, deark little weak Sasuke...I'm not going to hurt you with this...no I surely am not...I will scar you another way brother. I wont kill you at all..."

Itachi's voice was like the dead of winter. Cold and icy. There was actually a cold chill running up and down Sasuke's spine, telling him to get up and run. But he couldnt move.

He couldnt move even when Itachi's vice grip wrapped around his broken arm and yanked him up off the floor. He couldnt move even when he screamed in pain and Itachi gave a sick chuckle to coinside with it.

And again, he couldnt move when Itachi drug him up the stairs, his back slamming painfully into each step. Thankfully by his other arm. Once they reached the top he was still being drug across the floor, the bloody foot prints smearing beneath him.

He ended up back in the den laying in his parents blood. Itachi was stepping on the bodies making more liquid flow near the small raven and soak him with it. Once he was done he pulled the bodies away and began to strip himself.

He leaned down and bent foward his tounge running across the small neck of his little brother. His larger, colder hands were pinning Sasuke's shoulders tot he ground painfully as he tried to squirm away.

It was no use. Itachi was much stronger than Sasuke, he even stated it before by calling him weak, and little. And before he knew it he was whimpering in pain. His shirt was pulling his broken arm in all directions as Itachi yanked it off of him. Laying there he was bleeding and laying in a pile of blood. The smell of death, sweat, lust, and murder was lingering all around him.

His senses were lost as his brother began to kiss down his chest slowly bitting down and drawing more blood and painful yells from Sasuke. He would bite down on the black or deep purple burises that were boiling below the surface of Sasuke's skin. He then ran his tounge along the small belly button of his little brother.

Moving down more he smirked and moved back up taking a piece of rope from his pocket and tying his brothers hands to the leg of a nearby table, which weighed about one hundred and fifty pounds.

Leaning back Itachi let his gaze burn into his brothers mind. He was smirking while blood was drying on his face some on his lips. He would lick some off just to screw with the boy more. And now, he was going to do something much worse.

"Sasuke...one day...you are going to grow up...and be nineteen like me...but you wont be a Doctor...oh no...you will be a invilid." Sobbing Sasuke began to beg Itachi to stop numorous times. His tears and sobs drownding out what he was trying to say though. So Itachi just kept on doing what he wanted to do.

He pulled Sasuke's pants off and his boxers. He then let his hand lay in the puddle of blood below them. Once he thought his hand was slick enough he shoved three of his figers into his brothers tight entrance quickly.

Sasuke stiffened after he arched his back painfully twisting his broken arm. His breath was caught in his throat and he felt his tears rush down his face faster. "S-stop...it h-hurts!!!" Crying louder he began to kick, but all Itachi did was hold the boy's legs with one hand.

He kept thrusting his fingers into his brother quickly as to stretch him for something much bigger. When he was done he moved his hand down to the blood again and soaked his hand, pulling it back up he coated his hard erection and smirked evily to his little brother who was nothing more than a bleeding shaking pile of sobs.

After positioning himself Itachi held onto Sasuke's legs and quickly thrust himself into his brother. He ripped the poor boy's bottom open slightly more blood pooling out of him as Itachi began to thrust back and forth inside of him slow at first but then quickly.

All Sasuke could do was cry and scream in pain as his brother did this to him. Finally in what seemed like forever Sasuke felt his brother release inside of him. Sure it burnt but his brother pulling out could have made him groan in happiness if he wasnt in such pain.

As Itachi was untying Sasuke he heard it, the sounds of sirens growing ever closer to them. And before Itachi knew it he was stabbed right in the shoulder by Sasuke. The younger raven had missed his heart by a long shot, but still made Itachi bleed.

Rising Itachi pulled the knife out of his arm and dropped it onto his little brothers broken one. It went straight through and hit the hard wood floor below him. Pinning him there like a helpless rabit in a fox trap.

Sasuke laid there crying in pain and sorrow for a good five minutes. He had to listen to gun shots and screams along with the cops breaking down doors in his house. Once they reached him they called for the ambulence to run up at once. The last thing he could remember. Was hearing the cop say. "He doesnt look like he's going to make it...he looks so weak..." And then it all drifted off into darnkess.

--End Flash Back--

Naruto sat there. It had become mid noon now. The house was still warm, but you could still see the snow outside. Sasuke was leaning against him again, but this time he was holding onto Naruto's baby blue hoodie for dear life.

He didnt know what to say really. No one he knew was ever raped, and their parents werent killed like that. Infact he was still in shock that it actually happened to Sasuke. Clearing his throat he looked over at the raven and sighed.

"So...after that you just kinda lost it huh?" Nodding Sasuke shut his eyes and took a deep calming breath.

He had stopped crying after the first few minutes of the story due to the fact that Naruto had held his hand and rubbed soothing circles on it. He was now ready to just lay down and fall asleep. His mind was groggy and unused to being not drugged up.

Looking up at Naruto he leaned up and kissed the boy's lips softly then put his head back down on his shoulder. "He told me...I was gonna be an invilid..."

"You arent...believe me Sasuke...you aren't." Blushing he ran his fingers through the raven locks next to him. "But if you need me...I'll protect you okay?"

Sasuke cracked open an eye and scoffed like he normally would. "Dobe, do you honestly think you could protect me? I could so kick your ass..."

Nodding Naruto ignored Sasuke and sat there leaning against the wall while his raven haired friend fell asleep on him. 'You know...I wish I could rewind time...and help you...so that wouldnt have happened to you..and maybe...my parents wouldnt have died either...but Sasuke...you just spilled everything to me...I like you better on meds.'

With that Naruto stood and carried Sasuke over to the couch and placed him there. Putting the blanket in the love seat next to it over the raven he sat in the love seat and rested his head on his palm as he shut his own eyes. "Have a good nape Sasuke-teme."

A/N: Yes...most of this chap is a flash back. But a sick one at that. XD Hope you enjoyed and I am tired, I've been up for a full fucking day now and I dont think Im going to last two. Sooooo thats it for this author's note. Have fun. Review. Peace.