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I felt her touch me as she walked past me it sent a warm shock through my arm. She smelled like alcohol and cigarettes. I watched her as she went to my bed and laid down draping her arm over her face. I didn't move nor say anything neither did she I wondered if she had past out. That is until she started moving her other arm waving for me to come to her. I didn't move toward her instead I went to Allie's bed and sat down.

Spencer come on! She stated without moving her arm

I didn't answer her, how she can think I will be this easy; I mean does she not even know me. She sat up hanging her head a little she must have been pretty buzzed. She picked up her head and looked at me.

I told you I was sorry for what happened I don't know what else I can do? She ran her hand through her hair

I just stared at her for a second which I'm sure to her felt like an eternity.

I don't know either Ashley I think you really fucked up this time.

I love you Spencer I want to make sure you know that, she got up from my bed and came toward me. She knelt down in front of me resting her hands on my legs "You know I do right?"

Everything in me was trying to hold back the tears I felt coming, but a single tear ran down my cheek and she reached up and wiped it off. I knew then that she truly did love me and that her affair or fling as she called it was just that. I was the one she loved the one she wanted to be with day in and day out, but I still couldn't shake the image of her and that girl in bed.

Did you wipe her hair out of her face like you do to me or kiss her in that certain spot on the neck? Did she make you feel like I make you feel? I had hundreds of questions and they all seemed to have spilled into one. "Why"!

She put her head down on my leg I thought she was going to cry, but instead I felt her start to kiss my thighs back and forth. She stopped and looked up at me

"I don't know why, I have no excuse, but the one thing I do know is that I want you and only you". She reached up to my hair pushing it behind my ear "Your hair only falls that way on you no one could ever match that, the spot on your neck is the sweetest" I've ever tasted she said standing up and leaning into my neck kissing it "You have a certain curve right here that drives me crazy" she stopped and looked at me rubbing my jaw line "No one can make me feel an ounce of how you make me feel… no one".

I love you Spencer, and even though I know you know it I did a shitty thing and I'm really sorry I just want you back I miss you, and it's only been what not even a day I can't imagine what a lifetime would feel like. She sat down next to me putting her hand out waiting for me to grab hold of her.

I knew this would happen she starts with all her sappy love shit and I get hooked right back in. Like a fish that knows there is a hook on the other side of the food dangling there but like a yuppie you hope for the best. My hand meet hers and I glanced up at her only to see a smile across her face.

This doesn't mean everything is ok, it's not the same! I get up and move to my desk

It can be if you just let this go be with me forget what happened

What? My voice rose "You want me to just forget you slept with some girl behind my back!" "Seriously Ashley?"

She got up and started toward me "Spence I want us to be ok"

I moved out of her path and to my bed "We can't be not now I'm still hurt and mad I need answers!"

She followed me to the bed pulling us both down. She was on top off me pushing the hair out of my face, her eyes were filled with lust I knew she wanted to fix this but what she was thinking was not the way.

Ashley I can't! Not like this, I tried to sit up but she held me there.

"Then what Spencer" her voice was filled with tension, she seemed scared afraid to let me up, like she would lose me.

"I need to talk about it"

"It will not help you I already told you"

"I want to talk to her"

Her face turned pale and her eyes light up, I was almost like she had something to hide.

"Spence I really don't think you should"

I was getting mad she was lying to me I could tell she was almost shaking.

"Too bad I am, why does it even matter if there is nothing else to hide"

She rolled off of me groaning and putting her hands to her face pulling her cheeks down.

"Damn it Spencer what the fuck is your problem" She got up off the bed and walk right out the door slamming it as she left.

What the fuck was that she comes here wanting forgiveness and she leaves like that, "Oh Hell no" I say as I walk out the door.

I walked down the hall and she was there pacing back and forth, I began to say something as she slammed her fist into the wall.

"Ashley" she spins around giving me a look that almost makes me back up.

"Go back to your room Spencer" her voice was harsh, but I wasn't going to listen "Now" she yelled.

I just stood there shocked Ashley is bossy and I've seen her get angry when she gets jealous but this was something new. I was actually scared, she was not telling me something and I needed to know from her.

I decided to talk but I knew it had to be fast "what aren't you telling me?"

She stopped and turned to me almost leaping at me "I said for you to go to bed I'll be there in a minute!"

What you expect me to…

She stopped me from talking with her finger "Spencer please go" she was stern but almost like she was about to cry like she was begging me to just go.

I didn't say anything just watched her turn and walk down the hall. I wanted to chase her but I just let her go gave her space to do whatever she had to do. I knew that what was coming wasn't going to be pretty, she fucked up with something and I had to find out.

I didn't listen to her, I ended up in the library but not in my normal spot instead I found myself on the computer looking up Kate. Praying I would find her and there she was. In my dorm, room 787. I didn't waste time it may be 3:30 in the morning but oh well!

When I got to the floor I heard talking, It turned into yelling by the time I got there. I knew the voice I didn't want to go any further I wish I never came here, I wish I would have just went back and waited.

It was too late I heard too much Ashley and Kate stood in the hallway arguing; they didn't hear me or see me. Ashley was mad telling her she never should have done this, it was a mistake that she loved me.

Kate started "I'm sorry Ashley what do you want from me if she asks me I'll tell her."

"What no way bitch don't ever talk to her I want you and your crazy ass girlfriend to stay away from her!"

Kate moved close to Ashley whispering something to her, whatever it was made Ashley pissed she pushed Kate backwards pinning her against the door.

"I said to stay away from her and if I ever find anything else out I'll kill you" Ashley was seething hate and anger.

"We'll see Ashley, she'll find out she's not a dumb girl"

"Fuck you" Ashley said as she walked away back down the hall way

I watched Kate go inside