An: hey every one I know I haven't updated on this story in a while and ppl are asking what's going to happen next?!?!?!?!?…and I'm thinking if I don't update soon….they might actually come after me….OO; I suggest listening to Nelly Furtado's: "All Good Things"
Chapter 4: All Good Things
Past
Hell
Hell is for Hell
Hell is for Hell
Hell Is For Children
'Soubi…'
I struggle to breath…
'Soubi…help me…'
My lungs are about to explode…
'Please…Soubi…'
My hands cling to hers…trying to wrench them off…
'Soubi…'
Hell
Hell is for Hell
Hell is for Hell
Hell Is For Children
Darkness is clouding my vision…
'No…Soubi…'
My hands lose grip…they fall to my sides…with very little air I have I whisper under my breath…
"Soubi…"
Darkness is all I see…complete darkness…
Hell Is For Children
Hell Is For Children
Present
I couldn't help but feel at peace after everything I just endured…is this what it feels like to die…
Soubi…Is this what heaven will feel like to me…will it become my new home now…
Soubi…
Will I ever get to see him again…or will I linger alone in darkness….
Ritsuka….
'Huh?' What was that?
Who's there?
Or who's here?
Ritsuka!!!
Who's calling me…why do I feel so cold?
Ritsuka!!!!
Soubi?!?!?!? I'm here…somewhere…but I'm here…can't you hear me…damn why is it so cold…
Ritsuka!!!!
Ritsuka!!!
"RITSUKA!!!!"
My eyes suddenly snapped open and I came face to face…or rather face to chest with… "Soubi?" my voice was very horse…how long was out? I tried to move but found it to be a very difficult task to do…"Soubi…why can't I move?"
"Maybe because you're in a hospital with enough medication to take out fifty-some men…" a familiar voice was heard, and I instantly saw Soubi's roommate smiling down at me… "You probably don't remember me from the last time we meet…" "Kio" "Huh?" I slowly sat up in my bed…actually it was more like Soubi's as I've come to realize that this wasn't my home… "Ritsuka…watch it…you're still to weak…" but ignored his plea and looked Kio in the eyes…
"That is your name is it not? Kio Kaido…"
"Yeah that's right…umm…I didn't think you would remember me…shakes his head a little and begins to giggle but I guess I was wrong…"
We were left with utter silence…actually more like dead silence…that is until another familiar voice came out of nowhere… "Ritsuka!!!" Yep that's Yuiko for ya. "Are you okay…everyone at school is talking about it…oh my…" she then placed her hand on my face where it stung the most my cheek…
"I'm sorry…are you hungry…I can make you something really delicious and it'll help you get your strength back…"
"No thanks I told her…I'm not that hungry…"
"How dare you deny Yuiko's delicious food even when she's offering it to you…"
Damn where is everyone coming from…am I like on some anime series and I don't even know it yet( hahaha I had to put that there) it was non-other than yayoi
"Soubi…why do I get the feeling you had something to do with this?" I could feel my blood begin to boil from anger…I then notice backing away slowly "Now Ritsuka…I was only doing my duty as a friend to them…when word got to them about the accident…"
'accident?'
"they called and I couldn't deny them or keep the truth from them now could I…that wouldn't make me a very good friend…"
'accident? What accident?'
"GASP"
Flashback
Suddenly I was hit with a stream of memories of that morning…the beatings…the hurtful, cut throat words…the pain…the blood…the darkness… "You're not my son…you're not my child!!!"
"CRASH"
"You spoiled little brat…I slave all morning making you the perfect breakfast…and you come and tell me that you don't like it…well that's just too damn bad……"
and before I could react the left side of my face was stingy with pain; the next thing I know I'm being tossed in to the kitchen table and I can not breath.
This woman who claims to be my mother is choking me
My eyes are being blinded by darkness…
My lungs are dying out on me…
My heart is about to leap out of my chest…
End of Flashback
"GASP"
'That's right…that morning mom went…crazy…she was actually going to kill me…kill me…' as I thought this I closed my eyes and the tears quietly fell down the sides of my face…seeing this Soubi told everyone to leave…that I needed my "rest" after everyone left he came back to the bed only this time he joined me and wrapped his arms around my fragile body…I couldn't stop the nerves shaking in my body…I couldn't stop the blush that was reaching my cheeks…I was sure he could see it… "chuckle"…did Soubi just chuckle?
I looked up and he was laughing at me…instantly I got angered by this and pushed him off the bed making a loud "THUD!!!" luckily no one came up to check on us…(aww…poor Soubi)
"Oww…what was that for?"
"For laughing at me…even after I just went through something traumatic in my life…"
Honestly what will become of me
don't like reality
It's way too clear to me
But really life is daily
We are what we don't see
:tears:
Oh no…they were coming back…just like when I couldn't stop them before…I couldn't stop them now. So I let them fall. I watched as my tears came in contact with his bed sheets…I began to wonder what else came in contact with these sheets…then the thought finally registered in my head and the images came through…
Instantly I wanted to jump off that bed and take a very cold shower…but Soubi was in my way…and I was kind of happy about that. "Ritsuka what's wrong?" he held me once again in his arms…but this time I didn't let go "There's something more isn't there?"
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?
'I couldn't tell him…I couldn't let him know…I'm supposed to be the brave one…the strong one…' the tears kept falling and I felt his gentle, warm hands caress my face…and he wiped the tears away… "Soubi…when you said accident…what did you mean exactly"
"I don't think you want to know right now…not in your condition"
He was right I didn't "Please tell me" but I knew it was inevitable…sooner or later I was going to find out what he was talking about so…might as well get it over with…
"I don't know where to start…"
"How about at the beginning?" I noticed the smirk that grew on his face at my reply…he then faced me and held on to me tighter… "When I got your call…I know this is going to sound horrible but…when I got your call I suddenly thought to myself…"I'm not going make it this time…I'm going to be too late this time…" but as I kept running I knew I just had to try…I couldn't give up"
Traveling I only stop at exits
Wondering if I'll stay
Young and restless
Living this way I stress less
I want to pull away when the dream dies
The pain sets in and I don't cry
I only feel gravity and I wonder why
I noticed his grip tightened around me and he began shaking…I knew I was going to soon regret ever asking him to tell me…
"Horror is what froze me to the very spot outside your home…your home was engulfed in flames and I thought I was too late…"
I began to shake myself…my home was up in flames…which meant everything I worked so hard for was gone…everything…
"I quickly ran inside when I heard you call for me one last time…I found you on top of your kitchen table with a knife piercing the skin on your hand…blood was running down the table to the floor where I found the source of the fire…"
I just wanted to cry…how could I not have felt the pain…how could I not felt the heat…all I remember was feeling cold…maybe I really was dying…
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
"Soubi…what happened?" I asked…I knew my voice was shaky…and I was still weak…but I just had to know…
"When I picked you up in my arms I found that you were very light…I guessed at the time you had lost too much blood…but when I rushing to get you out of the house…what I saw next…I wasn't prepared for…"
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?
Well the dogs were whistling a new tune
Barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could
Dogs were whistling a new tune
Barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could
Die die die die die
He began choking up…I couldn't believe this…I knew for a fact that Soubi was never the type to show his emotions…to anyone…but what I heard next…I knew I was not going to be able to control my actions…
"She was a very horrifying sight to see…she was covered in blood from head to toe…I tried but I couldn't save her in time…"
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?
I knew who he was talking about…but I had to hear it from him…just to make sure… "Soubi who is "she"?" he then looked me in the eye where his eyes were haunting and held depth behind them…
"Your mother…"
I lost it…I could not believe she took the easy way out…she did the foolish thing by killing herself just to be free from all the problems in the world…how very selfish of her…
"There was something else…" I waited for him to continue "All over the walls she wrote in her blood… "not my son…not my son…not my son…"
"chuckle" I couldn't help it…it was the only thing I could do… "You know what's funny…she said the same thing…when she tried to kill me…" the tears came out again but this time Soubi was there to comfort me and help me through this…
My name is Ritsuka Ayogai, I am 13 years old, and I am an orphan…I have no mother…a father who doesn't really give a crap about me…my brother was killed…and this is my life…as LOVELESS…
Well the dogs were barking at a new moon
Whistling a new tune
Hoping it would come soon
And the sun was wondering if it should stay away for a day til the feeling went away
And the sky was falling on the clouds were dropping and
the rain forgot how to bring salvation
the dogs were barking at the new moon
Whistling a new tune
Hoping it would come soon so that they could die.
TO BE CONTINUED…
a/n: are you guys happy I know I am…who would've thought I'd go into so much detail…also if you read this with the chosen song I think you'd get the full effect…anyway…I won't update unless I've got 10 REVIEWS ON THIS CHAPTER…ja ne…