It's been a week since that night I cried in Allie's arms. I don't think I stopped till I fell asleep. The next day I just stayed in bed crying on and off.

Ashley called that day at least thirty times until Allie finally answered telling her not to call anymore that I needed time. Allie was unusually kind to her maybe that's why she actually listened I haven't talked or seen her since.

Allie has been bugging me the last two day trying to get me to go out tonight. She wanted to go see Tyler play. They made up after he told her, he had no clue that they were playing that party. He apologized to me like ten times I kept saying it was ok but Allie was the one who as really pissed I knew it wasn't his fault. Ashley had a thing with not giving people too much information about things.

Here I am lying on the bed staring at the same ceiling I have been staring at for the last week. Allie is the one who is getting ready she's not all what to wear like I always was but she is still spinning in the mirror admiring herself.

"You're acting like a hermit, Spence. You need to get over her already move on" Allie said putting a final shade of black polish on her nails.

"And you are acting like such a girl!" I said turning smiling at her

"Funny" she said throwing a cotton swab at me

"No seriously Spence this is unhealthy, I mean I know you love her and all but either get over it or get back on it!" She spoke in between blowing on her fingers

"I know ok I know…But I just need some time and I definitely don't want to see her on her turf." I turned my head back toward the little tiger that I have imagined is designed on my ceiling.

"Ok I guess it is her turf if that's what you are calling it, and I know she has like this power over you, but come on Be a woman flaunt your shit." She came and laid down next to me.

"What do you mean like get a girl and make her jealous"

"Yes exactly" she said throwing her hands up

"No I can't do that, it will kill her" I said shaking my head

"Maybe that is the point Spence! Hey you know that looks like a tiger?" she said pointing to the same spot I've been staring at. She shook her and got up grabbing her coat "Last chance Spence are you sure you're going to stay her and mop all night?"

"Yeah I think so, but hey I'm gonna go to the library!" I sat up crossing my legs on the bed

"Oh yeah that sounds like fun a damp quiet place with no one around…FUN!" she said grabbing the door knob "I'm gone don't wait up"

"Ok I won't call me if you stay" she nodded her head and with a typical Allie grin walked out.

I got up after Allie left grabbing my cell and some of my journalism books, but not before I caught a glimpse of Ashley's notebook. She always drew on them and on this particular one she had a drawn a sketch of me and her kissing.

I flipped it over out of sight out of mind right.

It was late I mean not that late but late enough to where I knew the library would be pretty empty. I walked in the lights were dim but still bright enough to work. I went back to my corner but not before passing a girl.

When I walked past her I think she looked at me out of the corner of her eye. I knew because I was looking at her too. I've never seen her here before but then again I never really paid any attention.

She had dark hair maybe brown with light highlights some red and blond. Her face was in the book, her hands were on the drape of her neck rubbing it like she was getting a cramp in it. Her body was tone she looked well built for a female anyway, her shirt was black with a red skull and bones in the back. She had pajama pants on that had little skulls also, her feet were crossed at the ankle with black slippers. I noticed her feet because she kept tapping them on the ground, it must be a habit for her.

She looked up at me and I turned away from her hoping she didn't see me checking her out. I took a seat in my normal spot out of sight to anyone, the way I liked it.

I was so into my book I didn't notice anyone standing over me.

"Mmmphhh… sorry to disturb you but is your name Spencer?" the voice was nice soft and adorable

"Yeah it is why?" I asked looking up at the girl I gawked at when I first came in

"Oh I just always see you here, so I asked Nancy who you were" she was looking at me and the only thing I thought was who Nancy is. I must have looked bewildered to her "Oh the librarian" she said smiling.

"Oh ok" I said returning to my book

I heard her pull a chair out and I seen her sit out of the corner of my eye. I looked up from my book intrigued as to what she wanted.

"So are you like staying in here all night" she asked tapping on my book

"Probably are you?" I asked her smiling with a raise of my brow

"Well I usually am, but tonight I kind of want to do something and I thought…" she didn't get a chance to finish before I cut in

"I never see you, I have no clue what your name even is and you thought I would go out with you?"

"Always here and kind of yeah I always see you with Ashley but lately she is not around and plus I heard about her cheating and I'm V short for Veronica" she looked me over at least three times when she spoke.

"How do you know Ashley?... Actually don't care" I said looking back to my book

"Well do you maybe go to that concert?" her voice sounded little like she was scared

"Did Allie make you come over here?" her eyes kind of folded over like she had no clue what I meant

"Um no I just thought you wouldn't want to spend a Friday night in the library, but I'll go no biggie!" she got up

"No its ok I would love to go, but only if you promise me something?" I asked standing up meeting her

"Ok name it" her face was lie up like I just made her year

"If Ashley sees us we just leave no questions or strange awkward meetings!"

"Got it, so no hanging all over you when she is around?" she is flirting with me I almost forgot the way this feels.

"Defiantly none of that I don't want a fight ok I mean if that is what you are planning?" I said giving her an inquisitive look

"Why would I do that?" she asked with some suspicion

"I just mean it's kind of weird you just coming up to me saying you know Ashley and that you want to take me out… She has lots of enemies and I don't want to be caught up in that!" I explained myself the best I could, twiddling my thumbs.

"Never I have always been crushing on you and I just thought this is my chance. I can back off if you're not interested or till all caught up on Ashley?" she asked in a concerned voice

"No it's fine, I'm fine with it, and we can go let's do this" I said grabbing my stuff

"Cool" she helped me gather and we took off heading to the party.

I know this can be a really bad thing especially since Ashley is going to be there and not to happy to see me with another girl but oh well. Allie is right I need to make her sweat a little. I just hope she stays sane and doesn't go crazy on me or V. I want to make her feel like she made me and you never know maybe this girl can be fun, she seems interesting all ready.

See in these situations I believe that "Faith is believing one of two things will happen, that there will be something solid for you to stand on, or that you will be taught to fly"