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When we arrived at the party my first reaction was to look for Ashley, I know that it's wrong to want to see her but it has been a week and I miss the way she smiles. I scan the room and I don't see her or her band I see the stage that they will play on but no band.
I was taken out of my gaze when I felt an arm slide over my back and a hand rest on my belly pulling me closer, tighter into her. I knew it was her by the smell and the way her fingers crawled across my belly. I closed my eyes and sucked in that feeling of complete comfort, and the emotion and desire those hands have.
I didn't move not at first I only tilted my head back into her more. In the back of my head I remembered V but I really didn't care at this point. I felt cool breath on my neck and I felt it flow into my ear.
"I knew you would come back to me!" her breath reeked of alcohol and the smell of cigarettes rolled of her tongue.
I took a step forward breaking her embrace, I hated this. "I'm not here for you I actually…." She cut me off mid sentence
"I know you're here with someone I see that, why she can't make you happy make you feel…" it was my turn to stop her
"No Ashley stop! You're drunk and spewing at the mouth, you did this now sit back and feel the way I do for once." I said turning and looking at the bar where V is getting our drinks.
I felt her arm again this time tighter, I didn't struggle just let her talk.
"I know I did this and for that I am sorry, but what you are doing is just stupid I know you can't be with her, because if you are you'll only see me." She let go of me, it seemed like perfect timing because V came up with my drink. I knew Ashley was still behind me not just because of V's eyes on her but I could feel her close to my back.
"Hey I got you cherry vodka, I hope that is ok?" V asked as she stared at Ashley
"She doesn't like vodka!" Ashley stated behind me
"Its fine thank you" I smiled up at her
"Ok good, so you must be Ashley?" She was calm almost to calm
"Oh so you know me good then you should know that this is my girlfriend you're trying to get to bed." Ashley stepped in front of me; her voice was steady and strong like she wanted to fight.
"Ashley stop, you don't own me and as I recall you aren't my girlfriend anymore!" I pulled her back
"Its ok Spencer she doesn't scare me" V says
"Ok this is so not happening let's go V" I started walking away and V wasn't behind me, I turned back to see her and Ashley staring each other down.
"Come on" I grabbed V's wrist and watched her smile at Ashley. I wish she wouldn't have done that
Ashley stepped forward in front of me blocking me. Her eyes were dark black almost, filled with anger. I tried to get around her but when I did she only moved.
"Move out of the way bitch!" V yelled from behind me, I looked up at Ashley whi had a grin on her face.
"Ok this is enough V go find a table I'll find you!" I asked facing her
"Spencer I really don't think that is a good idea" V shook her head at me
"I'm fine ok I just need to settle her ok I'll be there give me five ok if I'm not there then you can come get me." I watched her go in search of some place to sit, she looked back a few times. I turned to Ashley who had a big grin on her face.
"Nice Ashley"
"What your bed not even cold and you're already hooking up and with her. Spence you can do so much better!" she was staring at V
"What Ashley like you because you're so much better, just leave me alone!" I stared at her
"I wish I could but until you tell me it's really over, you're still all mine…So please let's just get out of here. Let me take you back home." She grabbed my hand and I yanked it back from her.
"No Ashley I told you that I needed time"
"You know what Spencer this is fucking ridiculous" she turned around to walk away; I reached out to stop her. I didn't know why I should have let her go
"What Ashley you're just going to walk away isn't that typical of you." She quickly swung back around.
"I don't walk away that's you I want to fight for us I know you think what I did is so unforgivable, but to us this is something we can get through we are not any ordinary couple. My love for you is all I have to live for and I know you feel the same so why don't we just cut this shit and just forgive and move on." Her eyes started to tear and I did feel bad but I couldn't help but want to smile. I hurt her by acting as if I wanted to move on when in fact I don't.
"Ashley you know how I feel but I just think maybe I should see what else is out there!" my voice didn't shake it was steady and I saw her eyes fall like I ripped her heart out, she knew I was being serious.
"Whatever Spencer if you fuck her I'm done" with that she was gone.
I looked over to the table I saw V sit at, she was there looking right back at me smiling. I was stuck in between a girl I just met who could be great for me and a girl I loved, the girl of my dreams. It seems like an easy choice but for me it will be a hard one.
A familiar voice echoed through the crowd I stopped walking and stopped looking up at the stage I meet those eyes and seen that smile. "Ok guys so we wanna mix it up a little we not big on love songs but since I'm having a little confusion in my love life I told the nice willing guys too go with me on this! I want to quote something before I start and my words go to the one I love."
I watched her eyes lock with mine, she always seems to do this get in my heart and make me completely forget why I am not with her and feel like I need to run to her
"I love you for not only what you are, but for what I am when I am with you. I love you not only for what you have made of yourself, but for what you are making of me. I love you for the part of me that you bring out."
I didn't cry but I did have tears in my eyes, I felt a hand on my shoulder and when I turned I saw standing with a understanding look on her face. I smiled at her and turned back to Ashley as she started to sing…
" Lying in my bed, I hear the clock tick, and think of you
Caught up in circles, confusion is nothing new
You say, "Go slow, I fall behind"
The second hand unwinds
If you're lost, you can look and you will find me,
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you, I'll be waiting,
Time after time…Time after time…Time after time
I turn, my picture fades, and darkness has turned to grey
Watching through windows, you're wondering if I'm okay
You said, "Go slow, I fall behind"
The second hand unwinds...
If you're lost, you can look and you will find me,
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you, I will be waiting,
Time after time