Author Notes: Yes I am a Jack/Rose fan.

Pairing: Jack/Ianto; Jack/Rose

Summary: Jack thinks about his love for Rose and Ianto.

Disclaimer: I do not own Torchwood or its characters.

Rate: PG

Season: 1

Category: Character Reflections; Romance

Spoilers: Up to They Keep Killing Suzie

Series: Catchphrase

Captain Jack Harkness

"I cannot love as I have loved, and yet I know not why; it is the one great woe of life to feel all feeling die."

-Phillip James Bailey (1816-1902) English Poet

Jack felt his body start to awaken slowly, it was an unusual feeling for him. But lately it seemed to be happening more and more. Opening his eyes he saw Ianto asleep next to him, looking to the side he saw it was close to five in the morning. He had slept almost six hours, smiling he slipped out of the body slowly. Pulling on his sweat pants he walked softly down to his office.

He looked at the picture on his desk, it was one that Ianto had given him only weeks before. He had called it an early Christmas present. It was the whole team taken a few days after their trip to the country. Tosh wanted something to send to her parents, Rhys wanted to know what they all looked like, Owen didn't much care and Ianto just thought it was a good thing to do. So lining up outside the Millennium building they had their picture take. Ianto was on one side of Jack while Tosh was on the other. Gwen stood next to Tosh while Owen stood a little to close to her. They were all smiling dressed in their best they looked like a real team.

Opening the drawer he got out the small box he kept. Opening it up, he smiled as he pulled the picture of Rose out slowly. She looked sp beautiful in this photo they were on some planet he had actually never been to. She wore this deep blue dress with her hair pinned up in some twisty style. He sat next to her leaning in; it was a normal couple pose. She looked so happy here, they looked so happy. He had his arm around her, she giggled when the waiter handed them the photo.

It was all he had left of her now, she was gone because of him. She had died like all of them because he could not protect her. He remembered hearing her voice in his head as he was woken from death. Three simple worlds, I love you. He knew she didn't mean it the way he wanted, the way he needed her to mean it. She had given her self to him, only because the Doctor refused to love her. Of course he could not love her the way she needed to be loved either. Sooner or later he would hurt her, he always did.

Putting the photo away he wiped away the tears. He grew so angry when he thought of what the Doctor did to her. Next was a photo of Ianto, taken not that long ago. He was sleeping or else he would never have gotten to take it. Ianto didn't mind his picture being taken, but Jack always chose the wrong moments to take it. In the photo Ianto is cover by a sheet, he looked so peaceful so irresistible.

Ianto was the one thing he never knew he needed in his life. Jack fought all the time he was a fighter that was what he had always done. Even with Rose, everyday was a fight and Rose loved it. She would stand beside him and join in with such energy. Ianto on the other hand would calm him. Just by being in a room his anger seemed to lessen, the fighter in him began to be tamed. But most of all Ianto was his life force; he was breathing new life into his dead body now. Jack had thought himself dead along time ago but Ianto had proved that wrong.

Putting his photo back Jack put the box away not wanting to see the other small pieces in it. Standing up Jack wondered when he would hurt Ianto. He didn't want to he wanted this thing to work whatever it was. It had started out as a fun, than slowly turned into something more meaningful. He needed Ianto and Ianto needed him, so they remained quiet about ending it. Walking back to his bedroom he saw Ianto started to move.

Smiling he decided to call the team and tell them to take the day off. They all needed to recover after Suzie little trick. Gwen needed the extra rest and besides Rhys might like the chance to see her for a whole day. Tosh and Owen just needed time to recover her betrayal had hurt enough the first time. Sending the message out he made sure they knew they were not allowed to come back. Looking back at Ianto he decided that for once he was going to make breakfast. Then he would annoyed Ianto by making him eat it in the bed.

The End