A/N: Thanks to the greatest betas in the world Kes and Cheryl!!

Chapter 4

Grissom sat in his office rubbing his temples to stave off a migraine, not that it would help. At this point his own recriminations were causing him almost as much physical pain, as his head was. It had been two full days since he had stormed out of Sara's apartment and he was still regretting his behavior, but he was at a loss as to what to do about it.. There was a pretty clear message in the fact that he hadn't heard from her either' and despite his reluctance to admit it even to himself, he was wondering how things were going with her and her brother's lawyer.

He had no reasonable excuse for acting the way that he had. Yet in the back of his mind he was still irked…hurt… angry…. They were, after all, in a serious relationship and she had made a huge decision without consulting him. Though to be honest with himself he really hadn't give her the chance, and possibly her reaction itself had been a knee jerk one. Grissom genuinely liked children and enjoyed spending time with them, but he really liked giving them back at the end of the day when they were hyped up on sugar. He was always glad to know that it was Catherine that had to put Lindsey to bed after he had spent the day with her.

He and Sara had discussed children, albeit a while ago, and it had been a fairly short conversation, mainly him telling her that he didn't want any kids and her agreeing. After that there had been much less talking as the focus had shifted to other, more carnal issues. From that point on they hadn't talked about children again. This is why her immediate acceptance of her brother's children had seemed almost like a betrayal.

Grissom shook his head, he simply couldn't be a good father, he was far too old and very set in his ways. He had no patience with children, and was more than a little terrified of being responsible for one for any length of time. These had all been intelligent and valid reasons for him to leave. Yet he'd come to the painful conclusion only after leaving, and only after two days of self analysis that he loved Sara too much to throw everything away.

'Maybe I should call her,' the thought clamored around in his head only adding to the chaos already housed in there. Absently, he reached for another file.

Sara opened the door to her hotel room and nudged the kids in a head of her. Olivia was asleep on her hip so she moved to the crib that had been placed in the room and lay her down. She then dug in the little girl's bag to see if there was a blanket. Finding only some clothes and a few empty bottles so she had to improvise with a pillowcase as a blanket for the girl. She would pick one up later.

Owen yawned, rubbed his eyes and then walked to Sara with his arms in the air, a silent request to be picked up. Sara easily obliged him by scooping him up and tucking him onto her hip. Immediately, comforted he quickly nuzzled his head in her neck and shut his eyes, within moments he was drifting off into dreamland.

Jeremy went over to one of the beds and sat on the end, a bored look plastered on his face.

"I don't suppose you want to take a nap?" she asked Jeremy not really expecting that he would.

"Um, no not really." Was his only response. He stared at his feet pensively one sneaker clad toe digging into the brightly patterned carpet.

"Well you can watch TV if you want to, but keep it low though so you don't wake the rest of us, alright?"

"You're going to take a nap, too?" he asked surprised.

"I haven't slept since yesterday morning." She told him, exhaustion lacing her words. "So I need some sleep and I thought I would sleep when these two are sleeping. I'm a little like a vampire. I work nights normally and sleep during the day. I'm usually asleep about now."

"Ok. Sure you don't mind if I watch TV?"

"Nope go right a head. Oh, when do you take your pill?" The boy sighed and grabbed the remote.

"Not until tomorrow morning," he mumbled.

"Ok, do you know where they are?" Sara asked, at the same time settling a sleeping Owen on one side of the bed. Then she kicked off her shoes and lay down next to him.

"Yeah. I can handle it, ok?" Jeremy was beginning to get irritated. He still didn't know this woman and wasn't completely comfortable with her. Of course he wasn't completely comfortable with anyone. He began to flip through the channels.

Ok, I trust you. I just wanted to make sure." She tossed a small smile his way. "I'm new at this you know." Sara reminded him and settled further onto the bed and her eyes shutting almost immediately. .

Jeremy thought that his aunt was crazy. His dad and Trisha could hardly handle the two O's How was she going to do it? And what was with her wanting him to go to a special school. He wasn't stupid he just needed help concentrating. That's why he was on the pills. Didn't she understand that? He kept flipping through the channels until he found an episode of SpongeBob Squarepants on the Cartoon Network. That would keep him busy for a while.