He moved his head and looked at pictures he had of her, pinned up next to his bed on the wall. There wasn't many but he kept them all together. A few pictures of her smiling up at him, one with him actually in it too and they're both laughing. Despite them not being friends for very long they'd had a few 'Kodak moments' after work together. Just so they had at least a couple of each other. There was even two portraits he had attempted to draw. He had used a whole rubber that day getting it perfect.
I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
I keep your photograph; I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain
His bedroom door creaked open and Abi walked in, she went and sat with him on his bed. "Hey, I couldn't sorry."
"It's ok. You're welcome to come in." Phil replied.
"Thanks." Abi said, blushing as she realised he only had his pyjama bottoms on. She looked around his room, a typical guys room really. Blue and red. Abi noticed the pictures. "When were these taken?"
"Oh well the one there with most people from CID was taken a couple of months ago. The one where she's in the black dress on her own then the other one where she'd still in the black dress and I'm in the tux was June and Jim's wedding. Then there's us doing a 'chav' pose as she so bluntly put it blaming her vocabulary on you. And the other is us on a Friday night at the pub with work - before we got drunk." Phil said going through them.
"What about the drawings, who did them?" Abi asked.
"Well I did, back at school I did a GCE, now known as a GCSE in Art. That's probably the most careful drawing I've ever done though." Phil admitted.
"Wow, no offence but you don't look much like a drawer." Abi said.
"None taken and I know I don't look very sophisticated for art." He laughed. She joined in with his laughing.
She bit her lip, which Phil noticed was a very Sam like thing to do. "Do you love her?"
'Cause I'm broken when I'm open
And I don't want feel like I am strong enough
'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't want feel light when you're gone away
"All honesty yes, and it really hurts when I think that she's with Hugh." Phil admitted. "Problem is she knows what my past is like, and how many women I've had one-night stands with. I think she's scared of becoming another one of them."
"She has mentioned before about that being one problem why she'd never be able to go out with you." Abi said. "But you can't blame her if she doesn't have much faith in men. She's been hurt in the past. Plus after this, I don't know how she'll react to men."
Phil nodded sadly.
"I … I don't want you have a relationship with her." She blurted out selfishly.
"What, why?" Phil asked.
"Well with everything's that's happened and is what she's going to go through after tomorrow I want her to be just my mum for a while." Abi admitted. "I know it's selfish and I'm sorry but I do." She paused, making her mind up. "Plus …" She leant forward and kissed Phil softly.
The worst is over now and we can breathe again
I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away
There's so much left to learn, and no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain
Phil pulled away. "Abi you're a lovely girl but I don't find myself romantically attached to you."
"But you were being so nice." Abi said. "Oh I get it, look after me earn brownie points with mum?"
"No! I care about you. You're a great person but I don't love you. I really love your mum."
Abi gave him a small smile, feeling a little stupid. "Alright."
"Don't be upset." Phil said.
"I'm not, I just feel foolish."
"It's alright. I guess it's not your fault it's mine." Phil replied.
'Cause I'm broken when I'm open
And I don't want feel like I am strong enough
'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't want feel right when you're gone away
"What are you doing?!" Sam asked desperately as the her colleagues started cautioning Hugh, it was the next morning and Abi had given Jack the brief details before he'd gone to arrest Hugh with uniform, Terry and Phil.
Sam turned to a guilty looking Phil. "Is this your doing?"
"Sam we need to take you with us too." Terry said in a calm tone.
"What? Why? What have we don?" Sam asked confused.
"No you haven't done anything wrong Sam we just need to talk." Phil said.
"No, I don't want to go. Hugh don't leave me please." Sam begged him.
"Hey darling," Hugh cupped her face. "Don't worry we'll get this all sorted out. Don't stress yourself out, it isn't good for the baby."
Hugh was lead away and Terry walked out with Sam to a different car. Jack approached Phil. "Baby?!"
"Yes." Phil sighed. "You need to interview, she'll explain everything but Sam is pregnant and it's Hugh's."
'Cause I'm broken when I'm open
And I don't want feel like I am strong enough
'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't want feel right when you're gone away
- Broken by Seether feat Amy Lee. -