A/N: Well to clear up some confusion it really was Paige all over Alex but being Paige she doesn't see it that way since she can't remember everything. But thanks for pointing that out. This chapter is gonna be in first person because I haven't done first person in a while and my brain is tired from doing third person. This one will be in Paige and Marco's POVs.
Chapter 5: Confessing Really Sucks Paige POVI sat in my room pondering what Alex had told me. I tried to remember what all had happened at the club but too much of it was a blur. I remember talking to her and then the rest is just too blank. My mind raced for answers as I left my room to go for a walk. Hopefully that would clear my head.
I diverted my eyes over at a sleeping Dylan then made my way outside. Where was Marco anyway? He was usually right there with him now. I stared at my phone for a moment and scrolled down the numbers. I wanted to call and talk to her. I felt so bad for blowing up on her like that. I nearly fell over the sidewalk when the phone started to ring. The screen flickered and flashed Alex's name.
"Hello?" I answered hesitantly.
"Paige, are you okay?" She answered quickly.
"Alex, I was just…I need to talk to you." My voice cracked when I said this. I wanted to see her so badly.
"I wanted to talk to you to." Alex replied. "I'll meet you at your hou-"
"No." I cut her off. "We'll meet at the park."
"Alright, the park." Alex said into the phone. "Bye." She hung up quickly and made her way to the park.
I sighed and placed the phone back into my purse. It was now or never. Maybe I really did like what I did at the club. I'm not too sure about this whole girl on girl thing but maybe it could work out. I mean Dylan's gay so I shouldn't be too different right?
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Marco POVI chased right after him. He hadn't gotten too far away. "Josh wait!"
Josh paused and looked back. "Marco just leave me be."
I stood in front of him. "Josh I…I don't think I can." As I said this, his features filled with shock. "I don't know what this whole thing is but I can't deny I think I like you to but.."
"Dylan." He said bluntly.
I sighed and only nodded. I looked up at him again and lay my head on his chest. This was one of the times I felt like crying. I want to choose but I don't know whom. I felt him place his arms around me and pulled me closer. "I'm sorry…I'm so sorry."
Josh said nothing as he rubbed Marco's back and pulled him closer. He just has to make Marco realize that he has to let go of Dylan. "It…Its ok."
I sobbed into his chest and wrapped my arms around his waist. He had been right though. Maybe I was just feeling bad about Dylan. "I didn't meant to do this." I choked out. "I just, Josh I don't know if I can leave him."
Josh only looked down at me and sighed heavily. "Marco it's your decision."
I didn't know what to decide. I just need to talk things over with Dylan first and then give him my answer. "I..have to talk some things over with Dylan first." I finally spoke up.
I only got a nod out of him. To my dismay he finally broke our embrace and gave me a weak smile. I watched him walk away to his car and drive off. My mind was so boggled right now. I could barely walk back to the Michalchuk household with out almost running into something. I finally arrived at the door, which seemed like forever to me. I knocked on the door slowly and listened for an answer.
"Come in!" The voice said dryly. I opened the door slowly and made my way inside.
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Paige POVI sat on one of the many benches in the park fumbling with my fingers as I waited for her. This waiting tormented my mind as I stared at my phone. I had only been two minutes since I had taken a seat on the bench. I looked up at one of the street lamps in the park and watched as the gnats tried to find a way into it. I chuckled a little and sighed. Their lives were so simple. I would love to be a gnat right now. Banging my head into a light that I can't reach.
"Paige?" I heard and turned to see her. I stood and walked over to her. "Alex…"
She listened intently as I went on. "I don't know how this is going to work, I mean I'm not even sure-" I felt her take hold of my hand and look at me.
"Paige." She started. "I don't care that you were on some drug at the time. That really meant a lot to me and I'm not sure if it meant to same to you." I heard her pause as she breathed deeply. "I don't know if I can really do this but Paige Michalchuk I love you."
When I heard that my whole mind went blank. I soon felt her pull me close and her lips collide with mine. I didn't resist her. I pulled her closer to me and deepened the kiss we shared. I then pulled away as I stared at her gasping for air. I got lost in her beautiful hazel orbs. "Alex…I-..I think I love you to."
I watched her only stare at me for a moment then pull me into a tighter embrace. Only a few things had registered in my mind. I had just said I loved a girl. I shook my head and started to cry. These were tears of joy. I saw her start to cry to and we both laughed at each other. "Oh Alex…I didn't mean to get so angry before." I said finally as I wiped away my tears and looked at her.
"It's alright, maybe I should've explained it better." I heard her say before she took hold of my hand and we started to walk. No where in particular just enjoying each other's company.
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Marco POVI closed the door behind me slowly and looked over at Dylan. My eye's softened as I watched him look so cute sitting there eating chips and watching a hockey game.
"Marco!" Dylan said when he saw me and waved for me to come over.
I only nodded and sat next to him on the couch. Sort of distancing myself from him. I shook a little when he pulled me closer and kissed my cheek. I wiggled out of his grasped and sighed. "I need to talk to you."
Dylan shifted and looked at me. "Well what's wrong?"
"I…I can't do this anymore." I said to him with a heavy sigh. "Dylan this just can't work…I mean I still do love you but this just can't work."
Dylan looked at me and swallowed hard. "Marco what are you talking about?"
I closed my eyes and started to speak again, "Dylan I'm only doing this because…I felt so bad after what happened. You cheated on me and this just can't work anymore."
I saw his eyes turn cold. "Fine Marco leave!" I stood up slowly. "I'm sorry-"
"Save your sorrys for someone who cares! I can't believe you Marco pitying me like that just get the hell out!"
I made my way to the door and left. I had never seen him that angry before. This just couldn't work. It had felt like a tremendous weight had been lifted from my shoulders but at the same time like a piece of me was missing. I took out my phone and called Josh. To let him know that I'm finally ready to be with him. One thing still lingered in my mind, could I ever stop loving Dylan?
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A/N: Really short I know but it was just to clear a lot of things up. And sorry for you Marco/Dylan fans but you never know there could still be a twinkle of hope. Anyway I hope you all like it and tell me in your reviews if you want me to keep writing in third person or first person. Or I'll just alternate certain chapters or something. Anyway R&R!!!