Author's Notes: HHHHHHHHIIII! Summer's finally over! (Why am I sounding so excited?) Ok, back to school (wah…), and all, so everyone be good this year and study hard (what am I saying, the fans are always good ^_^)! OK, since the summer's over, I'm going to concentrate on what's important—my schoolwork and of course, the fanfics along with the people who read them. I'm a party-vacation-stay-in-the-house-and-do-nothing-girl when it comes to summer. Besides, ever since A Winged Angel, I just wanted a little break, so thank you for being patient/impatient with me!
So there's a lot of hatred going towards Yumi. I don't blame all of you; it's hard to believe I've constructed such an evil character. Some of you guys have also had some resentment towards Sakura as well! That really surprised me! But I find it very interesting how you guys set aside the evil ones from the good ones (some of you even called Sakura a b*tch, which I don't mind at all). But now you know why Sakura acts the way she does, it's kind of rare to find those kinds of people.
Ah yeah, my birthday (august 22) passed! I'm finally 14! ^____^ so have a fun school year, I promise lotsa good stories! Thanks for the reviews!
A: Kero-chan and Kiyone-san are taking a vacation of their own rite now! But they'll be back soon! Let's see… The last question of chapter was, what does Touya's name mean in Japanese? Of course, it's Peach Blossom (or Arrow)! Yup, Touya-kun's name is Peach Blossom! Here's the list for those who got it right! You're all smart!
mashi-maro
Star
LilyMoonStar
iii_sis
silver firefly of peace
Glarie
CalumonMelodyEfuimon
Ran-chan
Mitski
Final Fantasy Princess
A CCS Fan
Moonfairy2000
kirei crystal
sakurakawaiicherry
Syakura
Pink Cherry Blossom
Kitsune
Myloko
K707 of baca productionz
Joey
CCS Forever
~*LiL' DeViL*~
Disclaimer: I don't own CCS or any of its characters of course, only CLAMP does. I do however own Yumi, Reiko, Shiro, and Hiroyuki. Ai Da Ne? is my story, and shouldn't be copied or taken without permission from me.
Ai Da Ne?
Isn't It Love?
A CCS Fanfiction
By, azngurL
Chapter Four – Prelude: For the Sake of Love
"So, Sakura-san… was…?" Shiro started while sitting down with Reiko in front of the nurse's office.
"Un (Yeah)." Reiko replied, leaning back into the chair. "Yesterday night, I heard Okasan yelling really loudly, and I knew…,"
"I see…," Shiro said.
Reiko then started to swing her legs back and forth and staring at the ceiling, looking somewhat sad, but with a smile of content to cover up her depression. "I wish I was like her, like Nesan. If it was me that Okasan was beating up, I'm certain that Nesan would jump in and take action, but I…," She placed her feet firmly on the ground and swung forward. "I'm just… a coward,"
"Because Sakura-san's unselfish?" Shiro asked with a reassuring smile.
Reiko smiled as well and said, "…Yeah… I'm just afraid of what'll happen to me if I do something about it. What Okasan does to Nesan—it's pretty nasty, and I—"
"Daijoubu, Reiko, I know how you feel …," He became silent for a minute then sighed, "…No could ever match Sakura-san, no one could be so courageous like her,"
"Yeah I know what you mean," She said as she leaned back into her chair and again.
Then, Syaoran came running down the hallway with a face of panic and worry and he approached Reiko and Shiro and asked, "Sakura—Is Sakura okay?!"
"Yeah, yeah, chill won't you?" Shiro asked, leaning back.
"Hey, who are you to even talk?!" Syaoran asked, getting somewhat angry. "In what relationship do you have with Sakura anyway?!"
"Li-san, please calm down," Reiko said in a quiet whisper.
Shiro just stared at Syaoran for a moment and smiled, "That much, Li-kun?" He asked.
Syaoran became confused and stepped back with one foot. "…What do you mean?"
Shiro chuckled to himself and looked away. "It's nothing, I was just wondering about something,"
"Yeah, and what exactly would that be, mister?"
"I said it was nothing,"
All of a sudden, Sakura came out of the nurse's office, limping, and she saw everyone there waiting for her. She smiled as she saw Syaoran there and said, "Were you all waiting here?"
"Yeah," They all said in unison. Syaoran walked up to her and said, "Daijoubu ka, Sakura?"
Sakura slightly blushed as she faced him with a smile. "Daijoubu…," Then she turned away, somewhat sorrowfully and whispered, "Dai…joubu..."
Syaoran
…I could already tell that something was wrong with Sakura. She looks at me with such content, yet at the same time, she looks at me with sorrow or something. I don't get it, I'm really confused. It's like she wants to tell me something but she can't. I wonder… She doesn't know that I know when something's wrong with her, it's like; she thinks I don't know anything about her. But I do know. I want her to open up. To say what she has to say to me.
"Syaoran-kun?" I heard her say. She probably noticed that I was lost in thought. I looked at her and I just couldn't help but smile. I mean, how can I resist a smile whenever I look at her? I sound like a hopeless romantic, but it's just her eyes… It says so much. It's what got me to fall in love with her anyway.
"Nani?" I asked.
She smiled back at me and said, "Oh nothing. You seemed like you were deep in thought there,"
I smiled again and took her hand. "Let's go eat lunch," I said. I watched her eyes widen a little, like it was a sudden surprise to her. But I swept it away in my mind and I watched her mouth say, "Okay, sure…," We began walking, hand in hand… I don't know why, but it felt like a dream or something.
All
Shiro and Reiko looked at Sakura and Syaoran, then at each other. "Nesan is still very much in love with him, it's really obvious," Reiko commented softly while watching the two of them walk away together.
"Yeah... I don't even think she has the courage to tell him that she doesn't love him. But, if she doesn't tell him, it could be also be for the best... I think," Shiro said.
"Really? Then Nesan doesn't have to say anything bad to him?" She asked.
"Who knows...? Gomen, I was thinking out loud. It's all up to Sakura-san though,"
"…Oh… It's it for the best, and then I don't have to see my Nesan cry anymore," She said while standing up.
Shiro stood up as well and looked at Reiko. "You really love your Nesan, do you, Reiko?" He asked.
Reiko turned her gaze to the side, facing a door leading to an empty classroom. "Of course. I love her so much; I can never do what Okasan does to her it's the truth. Before, I used to act so nasty and mean towards her, but it was because I didn't want Okasan to get the wrong idea about me. I love my Okasan and I love Nesan too. It's all just so confusing,"
"Daijoubu, Reiko, we'll figure out something," He began to walk down the hallway and notice that Reiko wasn't following him. He turned his head. "Hm?"
Reiko shook her head and said, "Demo (But), Shiro-san, I always that you—"
Shiro immediately interrupted. "What? That again? Honestly, Reiko, you think too much; um, let's go! No time to waste!" He exclaimed, as if he was nervous.
Reiko sighed, but smiled to herself as she started to walk down the hallway, her hands behind her back, acting as if she was content. But actually, her mind was filled with many thoughts. Random thoughts ran through her mind, and it was all about Sakura.
Meanwhile, Syaoran was eating his lunch on a bench with Sakura, who was just gazing out at the sky like she was thinking about something. A light breeze swept through and she felt her stomach growl lightly. "Hm? Sakura, you're not eating?" Syaoran asked; his chopsticks in one hand.
Sakura slowly dropped her gaze onto her lap and with her right hand, she gripped her skirt. "Iie (No)… I'm not hungry," She said.
"You sure?" He asked.
"I'm sure."
"……I don't believe you,"
"And why not?"
"Because you lied to me about getting that cut on your leg also, so why should I believe that you're not hungry?"
Sakura became slightly shocked as she turned her gaze to him. "What do you mean you don't believe me? You think I lied to you, Syaoran-kun?"
"…You seem like you're hiding something from me, that's all. If you have something to say, say it now. Don't keep stuff from me, we're not supposed to do that, remember…?"
Sakura quickly looked away like she did not want to face him and she discreetly gripped her skirt, thinking of what to say to him. "Ano… You see… Syaoran-kun, um…,"
"So I was right. You lied," He said straightforwardly. "Sakura, what is going on with you lately? Why do you keep stuff from me now? Why act so cold to Daidouji? …What happened in the years that I wasn't here?" He waited for a reply, but she kept silent, not facing him. "Sakura, answer me!"
Sakura
"Sakura, answer me!"
I don't know what to say… I don't know what to say to Syaoran-kun. I felt guilty enough that I lied to him before, but now he knows that I lied to him makes my situation even worse. …Should I just tell him now? Tell him that I… Um… …… God …… Why am I being put through all of this? It's like I'm being put through reality Hell or something, and I can't stand any of it. First Yumi… Then Tomoyo-chan… the engagement to Shiro-kun………
Syaoran-kun……
What do I say to Syaoran-kun?
I don't want to say anything but I got to. I got to. For his sake……………
Or am I just doing it for mine?
I felt a nudge on my shoulder and it was his hand. It sent a shiver of fear down my spine, but I still didn't face him. "Sakura, look at me," He said. But I don't want to look at him, I thought, I don't want to face him, to look at him. I don't want to look at him so I won't have to helplessly go back to square one and not even tell him. Why does love have to be so complicated? Why bother falling in love if it only hurts most of the way? It's like that song that I once heard, but I never want to recall it at all.
I stood up without realizing it, still not facing him, and said, "…I have to go," I took a few steps forward and I could hear him get up. He stopped me by holding my arm back gently, and I stopped.
"Sakura, what's wrong with you? Why won't you tell me what's wrong? I'm here for you; all you gotta do is open up!" Syaoran exclaimed at me.
Now I didn't want to look at him anymore. If I saw his expression on his face, I know that it would just kill me. …I must sound pretty annoying, and I know I'm annoying him so much. "…Syaoran-kun, ano…," I really don't know what to say.
"…Sakura…Tell me…."
"….Syaoran-kun, you know… the thing is……"
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AN: AHA! Cliff-hanger! Unexpected, ne? *runs off to avoid being hit* Ahem… The preview for the next chapter, Promise
Preview:
Syaoran couldn't help himself but throw his arms around Sakura, his head against her soft hair. He held her like he didn't want to let go, like he wanted to live in that moment for all his life. "…Sakura…"
Sakura just stood still, not saying anything. And then, one slow tear came rolling down her face.
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This chapter's question is, why is Tomoyo's hair long? (hint: think about Sonomi and Nadeshiko)
See ya soon!
-azngurL