azngurL: Yknow I hate to not be able to keep my promises, especially to you guys. It upsets me really (really!) because I don't really know where I could've gone from last year (refer to A Winged Angel if you're a new reader), so. I'M SO SORRY! I'M SORRY I'M SORRY X INFINITY!
*pants* I all told you my situations and schedules already ne? Please try to understand Lately I've been getting more reviews and email, so I'm really happy. Thank you for still supporting what I love to do ^.^. Other than school and social life, the other reason for my lack of updating is because of my online manga (as stated in previous chapter) and my blog/personal site. You know, a reader IMed me and said, "Are you quitting fanfics?" (you know who you are - I look forward to chatting w/ you again! ^^), and I went, "O.O. Me? Quit fanfics, hahaha never -" At least until college .. I will update, just not on a regular basis, but I'll make sure the stories I started will have their endings, just for you guys.
edit Okay, I wrote that rant a month ago, so I'll rant again now, hoping to finish this long chapter by this week. Few days ago, I realized that I missed all my people =( . Tooo much! The ones I used to chat with, I don't chat with anymore, and I'm also thinking that some of you guys forgot me! Wahhhhh, I miss all of you! Gee, online life is so harsh. Peace to all my online friends whom I haven't talk to in a while, miss ya!
I heard CLAMP made a new CCS series! Well, at least for the shonens in Japan - yea, it's supposed to appeal to Shonens this time, b\c it's in a Shonen Manga Magazine, but who the hell cares! Syaoran looks so sexy (weeee), and Sakura looks pretty! I'm trying to get a hold of scanlations ^^, I found some, but the idiot put the wrong URL for the address. Anyway, it's supposed to be a totally different storyline, so it's an AU sorta thing! Wai wai, I can't wait! XD. Btw, I'M FINALLY FREE! FREE FROM HELL, YATTA! /edit
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Disclaimer: I don't CCS or any of the characters, you get my drift. Songs featured in here are "Myself" by Changin` My Life, and "Saigo no Yakusoku" by Kouda Mariko.
Ai Da Ne?
Chapter Eight - "Sayonara "
By, azngurL "achan"
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Sakura
Tomoyo-chan! Tomoyo-chan! Why is Tomoyo-chan here? Naze [Why] Could it be Reiko-chan? But why? I, I can't look at her, not after everything's that happened. So then why did this have to happen all of a sudden?
"You look well," I heard Tomoyo say while managing to look up. She bowed as usual. "But are you eating? You look like a stick!"
I managed I managed to smile a bit, but it gradually faded. For some reason, I didn't feel the bond that tied us together. Did she feel the same way too? I wanna know. I wanna know what she's thinking. Are we still best friends in her mind or just mere acquaintances now?
Tomoyo-chan ... It's been a while ... Since you last said my name.
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"Everyone is always saying that," Sakura said, "I'm just on a diet,"
"Oh goodness gracious, Nesan, why don't you listen to those people? I mean really," Reiko said, her hand on her forehead.
Sakura shot a glance at Reiko. Reiko knew why she was so thin, but didn't know why she had to comment to it. She sighed heavily and shook her head. "So what are we doing today?" She asked.
Reiko pointed to a Chinese Cuisine Restaurant down the street. "Eat. We're going to eat. Okay?"
"Okay!" Tomoyo said cheerfully.
Sakura watched them both go off. A streak of worry went about her face. "Tomoyo-chan doesn't know how to act towards me. But if she's going to ignore me, it'd be best if she didn't come at all."
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Tomoyo
Sakura-chan's so thin, it surprises me. I wanna yell at her and tell her to stop dieting - I know something's going on, I know it's none of my business, but ! But I'm just worrying about her like a best friend should do. This is so pathetic; I don't even know how to act around her either. I just can't ignore her I wanna go back. Way back.
Just take me back.
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All
They ate their lunch, however in silence. Reiko observed them and started to worry. "What should I do? They're both not talking ," She glanced at both of them. "Yosh - I'll do the famous, 'Excuse me, I have to go to the bathroom', thing," She placed her rice bowl down and said with a smile, "Gotta use the bathroom, be right back!" And with that she left.
Sakura and Tomoyo both knew Reiko's attention and heavily sighed. Hearing both of their sighs in unison, they looked at each other and giggled.
"So how've you been?" Sakura asked, somewhat quietly.
"Okay I guess, for the most part," Tomoyo replied while wiping her mouth with a napkin.
"Mm , I see. Anything new?" Sakura asked.
"Nothing. You?"
"Same."
Sakura
What is with this conversation of ours! It's such a pathetic conversation, I can't take it!
I looked at Tomoyo and I caught her looking at me. For some reason I blushed. "What?" I managed to say.
"N-nothing." She replied, looking away.
Okay. Weird. And yet, I'm feeling intrigued right now. I carefully picked my head up and looked at her again. She was staring at me-again. This time, I was really intrigued. "W-What? What is it? Something on my face?" I asked.
"No." She replied bluntly.
Give me a better answer.
"Then?" I asked.
"Then?" She asked, almost mimicking me.
Uh, okay. "Is is there a reason why you're staring at me?" I managed to ask.
Kimi no hitomi no oku ni ano hi samishisa wo mitsuketa
Futari niteru no kana? Kitsukeba itsu mo tonari ni ite kureta
(That day, deep in your eyes, I saw the loneliness
Are the two of us really alike? If I'd realized it, you were always by my side )
And then she smiled at me - the smile she used to give me. I felt my eyes blur out for some reason, but I blinked them out, until I heard her say,
"I'm trying to see if my Sakura-chan is still there, underneath her poker-face, that's all."
I started to cry right there and then.
Doushite konna ni suki nan darou?
kimi no koe kanshii hodo hibiiteru yo
ima made nani ga sasae datta ka
tooku hanarete wakatta yo
(Why do I love you so much?
Your voice rings inside me so much it makes me sad
Just what it was that supported me so much
From afar, I realize it now)
We were outside, and it started to rain. Kero-chan left my bag Reiko-chan isn't there It was just us. Sitting on a bench, in the rain. It was something we'd always use to do, whenever the both of us were having problems. She held me in silence and I kept on crying. The thing is, I was debating with myself -whether to tell her or not.
"It's alright Sakura-chan, shh .it's alright, don't cry anymore ," Tomoyo-chan whispered while rubbing my hair. But she didn't know why I was crying. "I ... I'm so sorry!" She exclaimed.
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All
Sakura's eyes opened slowly "What for?" She asked silently.
"For being such a bitch. For being such a bitch, I'm really sorry , Sakura-chan!" Tomoyo exclaimed while closing her eyes. Though the rain was present, it couldn't hide her tears.
Sakura tightened her arms around Tomoyo. "T-Tomoyo-chan ," She let her tears fall. "It's not your fault ,"
Tomoyo kept on crying.
"You see ... After my dad died ... "
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Sakura
My face must look disgusting right now but I guess what happened, made up for it. I can't help but smile, it seems like everything's started to turn my way... Except Syaoran-kun. What do I do, Syaoran-kun? I love you so much. Where are you now ? Happy without me ? I really ... I really want to be happy with you. I want you and me to be happy together.
"Syaoran-kun , where are you?"
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All
"Sakura?" A voice came from behind all of a sudden.
Sakura gasped and turned around - it was Syaoran, holding an umbrella, his face all red.
"S-Syaoran-kun?" She whispered.
His eyes half-closed and then he said, "You shouldn't be walking out in the rain without an umbrella," and with that he fell on his knees.
"Syaoran-kun! Syaoran-kun, what's wrong?" Sakura asked as she held him up.
"Heh I think I have a fever," He replied, smirking.
"Syaoran-kun no baka, what were you thinking? What were you doing, just standing out in the rain?"
"Who knows .,"
Sakura's eyes widened and she stood him up. "Let's go to your apartment, you're you're burning up,"
" OK."
They got to his apartment, soaking wet. Sakura led Syaoran to his bedroom and closed the door. With her back to it, she looked around. "It's been a while Since I've been here ," She thought. "Syaoran-kun, are you okay?" She asked.
"Yeah. I'm managing. You can come in now," He replied.
Sakura opened the door and found him lying on his bed in new clothes with a wet cloth to his forehead. Then she sneezed.
"You're gonna catch a fever too," He said, not looking at her.
She shook her head, "Doesn't matter I'll make you something and then go home,"
"You don't have to."
"I'm going to."
She left the room and went to the kitchen where she started to boil water. Though she felt light-headed, she still kept on standing, and made him homemade tea. "Hai [Here], I hope you like it," She said while handing him the cup.
"Ah - thanks," He said.
She sat down on his bed and watched him drink it. "Syaoran-kun ," She whispered.
"Yeah?" He asked.
"I - I made up with Tomoyo-chan, so you can stop stressing over that fact now,"
"Really? That's great, I'm happy for you two. You know, Daidouji wasn't haven't the time of her life without you,"
"Yeah. I know. I'm her best friend, it's only natural for me to feel the same way ," She started to feel light-headed again and so she held her head up. "Ah ," She moaned.
"What's wrong? Sakura?" He asked, getting out of bed.
"My head ... It hurts ," She started coughing.
He felt her forehead. "Ah-you have a fever too,"
"Great, just great ," She whispered, coughing in-between.
"You should go home,"
"I don't want to ,"
"Eh ?"
"I don't want to go home,"
"Look, Sakura, you gotta go home, you're sick!"
"That doesn't matter!" She argued. She looked up at him with tears swelling up. "My only chance to be with you is now ,"
"Only chance? What are you talking about? It's over, everything's over. Everything's over Sakura, just go home,"
Sakura covered her mouth with both hands and allowed her tears to fall on her hot skin. Syaoran looked at her, somewhat confused, and said, "Why are you crying? There's no reason to be crying,"
Sakura slowly lowered her head, her tears falling on his blanket. Syaoran wasn't looking her way anymore. "S -Sorry. I'm sorry you had to lose trust in me," She whispered. "But even if we're not together I'll still remember you - always. Always !" More tears fell as her voice started to crack. "Syaoran-kun you were my first real love that made me so happy. I don't think love like that, can be forgotten. I'll just say that Thank you for e-everything." She stood up and left.
Sayonara isogu you ni
Anata ni furi-dasu ame
Nani ka nan demo ii hanashite
Motto soba ni itai
(As it started to rain,
You seemed in a hurry to say goodbye.
Let's talk about something...anything.
I want to be with you a little longer.)
Syaoran fell upon his bed, closed his eyes, and his tears fell.
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Sakura
Was that right what I said to him? Now I can't stop crying, and the rain won't stop pouring. I know that when I get home, Yumi-okasan will beat me and yell at me. But That doesn't matter anymore. I might as well fade away I don't really have any place.
Any place Where else can I escape to?
"Somebody ..."
I'm feeling light-headed again Stupid fever
Faintly ... I'm hearing a voice crying out my name ...
somebody save me.
A: Wowers, I wrote my first long chapter in months! *stretches* At least, I think it's long enough. XP. Hope you guys enjoyed, please leave a review! I'll get the next chapter out soon.
Preview for the next chapter,
I looked at her, unable to keep it inside anymore. It exploded. "Sakura-san, forget about him already! Don't you see? I love you!" I can't believe I said that.
Question,
In the anime, what was the first outfit Tomoyo made for Sakura (bit of a toughie ^^)?
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- azngurL "achan"