Chapter Five Ready and Willing

Severus had grinned widely at Dumbldore when his punishment for hexing (and beating) Sirius so badly he had to stay in the hospital wing for two days had been a month of sitting in his office writing 50 lines each night. Dumbldore had given him a wink, and Severus had wondered how Dumbldore managed to know so much about his students.

After sitting in the office for a mere hour he was always greeted with the wonderful sight of Remus, who had reported Sirius had reverted back to pathetically begging Remus to give him another chance and nothing else. Apparently James had had a 'talk' with him as well, which had reinforced Severus' threat.

A week into his detention, when Severus had met up in the hall with Remus, however, he said something quite unexpected.

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"Well I didn't know you found me that disgusting, Snape!" Remus roared, tears streaming down his face. He raised his hand to hit Severus again, who caught his wrist to stop him.

"Remus, please calm down. I didn't mean to react how I did-" He started, but Remus's angry yelling cut him off.

"It's because he raped me, isn't it? Are you only dating me out of pity? I don't want your pity, Severus!" He roared then broke into more sobs, falling to the floor and bringing his knees up to his chest. "I only did it to protect you. He told me he'd do awful things to you if I didn't let him. I'm sorry I'm not pure enough for you."

"Remus is isn't like that! I don't care about that! I've already told you! I just think it's too soon. It's only been a little over a week sense he last…." He trailed off, unable to say it.

"Sense he last raped me! Yes! And I thought maybe if we had sex it would take that away. I don't want my memories of Hogwarts full of what he did to me. I want to remember being with you. Having sex for the first time willingly." He sniffed, wiping his eyes with his palm and Severus reached out, hugging him gently.

"Then we'll do it, Remus. But not in the castle. I know where." He helped Remus up and held him until his sniffing stopped then led him off.

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"This is pretty." Remus said, sitting down on a dead tree that had fallen over, looking around at the small clearing. It was just big enough for the two of them to lay down, and there was a small stream with clear blue water running next to it. Severus smiled and began to sweep away leaves and sticks with his wand. He took off his cloak and laid it down. Remus used a warming charm on the area and began to nibble on his bottom lip nervously. Severus sat down on his cloak and beckoned Remus over who complied, coming to sit next to the other boy.

The began to kissing, then slowly undressing one another, giving small caresses that left them both blushing.

"I don't really know how this works besides what Sirius has done to me." Remus muttered softly, earning a small laugh from Severus.

"You spend all that time reading and don't know anything about making love?" He asked and Remus felt himself shiver at the way Severus said 'making love'.

"I don't read that sort of thing, Severus…I take it you know?"

"I've got a gay cousin." Severus said by way of explanation and Remus just nodded, laying back on the cloak, keeping himself from covering his rather exposed body as his instincts were telling him to do.

"You just have to…prepare first." Severus said, leaning over the other boy. He decided to answer Remus's questioning eyes, and moved his hand down.

Remus's eyes widened then clouded quickly with pleasure when he felt Severus's fingers inside of him.

Severus had never heard anything more wonderful then the sounds he was drawing from Remus. He probably would have simply done this all night if Remus had not whimpered "Severus, please…more…"

Nervousness suddenly set in, but quickly vanished when his black eyes locked with Remus's golden ones. He crawled on top of Remus quickly, nearly slipping off the other side of him before sliding between his open thighs.

They looked at one another for a moment before Remus started to giggle, which caused Severus to laugh. He bent down and gave the werewolf a kiss to quite him and distract him as his moved his hips down.

Remus hissed against Severus's lips but didn't ask him to stop. Severus pushed himself all the way inside and began to move.

And things only got better after that.

Severus had never felt anything more wonderful in his life! And from the sounds Remus was making, he quite agreed. Neither would last long, because Severus was a virgin, and Remus had never had sex he actually enjoyed.

Remus began to wither more and Severus bent down to kiss him, knowing the end was near, when he heard something that brought him to an abrupt halt in both thrusting and bending down to kiss his lover.

"Sirius!" Remus cried as he came. He laid panting for a moment then opened his eyes and smiled up at Severus, looking over and finding the other boys hand in the air, in a stance he was very familiar with. He was about to hit him. His smile vanished.

Remus blocked his face with his hands, pulling away from Severus and backing against a tree. "I'm sorry. Was I bad? I'm sorry, Severus, please don't be mad. I'll try harder next time. Please don't be mad, Severus."

Severus stared at Remus. He slipped into being the poor abused little werewolf so easily. Maybe he liked it. Why else would he call out his abusers name in the middle of being made love to?

"You fifthly little whore!" Severus shouted. Remus flinched and tried to make himself as small as possible. "If you want Sirius, go to him!"

And suddenly Remus understood. Severus didn't want him anymore. He had sex, and now he was finished with him, and he was telling him to go back to Sirius. Remus felt tears fill his eyes and he quickly grabbed his robes, standing up.

"FINE!" Remus sobbed and ran towards the castle, taking the warmth the spell had caused with him.

Severus fell back against the cold ground and looked up, watching at the stars were covered up by a cloud and darkness surrounded him.

Sorry if the sex was badly written. I'm actually pretty good at writing it, but I didn't want to make it really explicit and get my story deleted!