When Illusions Subside
Remember me- Chapter 3
The air was cold as I inhaled the crisp winter atmosphere. The snow surrounded the area in a blanket of white. I sat at the dock of the lake wishing I could talk to my dad again. I needed him more than ever. I didnt know what to do with myself anymore. It's as if my heart was barely beating.
I looked at my arms. The scars were fading slowly. I guessed, along time ago, that if Dad ever died, I would too. But the truth is I wouldn't die, instead I would just hurt inside for along time, forever maybe. But I couldn't die, not now at least, my friends, mom and mark needed me. I have to stay strong for Jackie and Katie. My little sister is my life. She's the bright light in my heart. If anything would ever to happen to her, I would cry till the ends of the earth.
"Lins?"
I looked up, Shane stood in front of me.
"Lins, what's wrong?" he lent down and wiped a tear from my eye. I had been crying without realization.
"Oh, nothing, just missing my dad..."
"I'm sorry."
"It's not your fault."
"I know." he wiped another stray tear away. "I just have that sorry habit."
"I know. "
He lent foreward and kissed my forehead. "It's not your fault."
I sighed, my jaw clenching to hold back the tears that were straining to rain out.
"In a way it is-"
"-don't think that way."
"Sorry."
He smiled down at me. "Try to smile, Lins?"
And as if I were a puppet and he was a puppet master, I smiled. He always made me smile. He was good at that. He smiled again.
"There we go, I like it when you smile."
I laughed throug ha few more tears, which he soon wiped away.
"I like it when you smile too."
He grinned. "Well I'm glad." He chuckled.
"You're too cute hun."
He flushed. "Thanks?"
"Heh, you're welcome."
"He lets get back inside." He stood and extended his hand. I smiled and took it, standing. I didn't let go of his hand though, just nodded to his question and walked back up to the castle.