When Illusions Subside
Chapter 7- Awalk to remember
The night was cool, but not as cold as most nights. The stars shune with their glittering sparkle and the moon was shining with its quarterfilled curve. Shane and I walked down the grassy path around the lake. We didn;t say anything for a while, up until we stopped and he turned towards me.
"Lins."
"Hmm?"
"Erm, How's Katie?"
"she's fine, mom said she got a cold recently, and was really sick for a while."
He nodded. "Oh well that sucks, I hope she gets better soon."
"Yeh, me too." I sighed. "Shane?"
"Yeh?"
"Thanks."
"For what?"
"For everything, you've been there for me even though my worst and even though I try to push you away, you still hang on..."
"Well I-"
"-I'm sorry you had to...deal with someone like me."
"Lindsay, you're one of my best friends." He put his hand on my shoulder and gave it a soft squeeze. "Don't ever be sorry, I was there for you like you were for me."
"Yeh but-"
"You're strong Lins, really, for the shit you've been through-"
"-I'm not strong, I always cry."
"Someone once told me...'It takes alot of strength not to cry in front of someone, but it takes alot more strength when you do."
I started to cry, not cause I wanted to be strong, but because it triggered all the tears I had been holding back the course of the last three weeks. What I grew up with was gone. My home, my dad, many of my friends. Torinda was gone, my bestest most chearished friend. She was gone. Lost forever. Or so I believed. Maybe someday i'll see her again. But for now, I had my memories.
"I miss them so much!"
He pulled me into a hug and I clung to him. And I cried. I cried so hard I could have added a gallon of tears to the lake. Someday maybe I'll learn not to cry so much/ But for now, I'd just let my tears fall.